::first day::
what a first day. naah. don't think that it was that tough. but i'm just not used to it yet. give me a while to get into the swing and it'll be just fine. but i seriously need to get another pair of black pants. the one i'm wearing is a little tight. i'll go shopping after work today.

::soooo goddamn pissed::
what the hell lar. my dad went to go and reinstall windows AGAIN. reset the whole blooming computer. now all my files are all over the computer and I have no idea where they are. to top it off, all my links are now lost so I don't have anybody's blog links, my own fav links, etc. aaaarrrggghh. within the past half an hour I have used all the filthy language that i have learn in my ten years in the singapore education system.
and you know what pisses me off the most. he did it to get rid of some sypware that got onto our computer. but after he goes and resets the whole bleeding computer, IT'S STILL THERE. so what is the blooming point. argh. so infuriating. this is the man, my father, that refuses to buy a proper anti-virus cum anti-spyware program off the market and prefers to rely on free software off the net. the fucking software he downloads is probably what is installing the spyware. but nooooooo. he refuses to get anything legitimate if it means taking cash outta his wallet. i've heard of being thrifty but this is seriously ridiculous. instead he prefers to spend many a sleepless night redoing the computer and causing a hell of alot of problems, not just for himself, but also for me and my sis.
now, just when i've got my profile on the computer all personalised and to my liking, i have to go and redo EVERYTHING. that means backing up all my pictures, music, vids, etc. also, i have to redownload all the programs that previously downloaded, i.e. MSN MSGr, Winamp, iTunes, etc. after all that's done. i still have to go and try and relocate all my missing links [which i have more or less given up on recovering].
plus, to further add to the pile of shit, this is not the first time that he's done it. so to add to all the confusion, there are multiple copies of stuff that he backed up from the past few times that he's done it. so i have like three or four copies of the same file. not only is that taking up space on the hard drive [that he has been nagging me and my sis to clear up] but also it makes it ten times more confusing when i try to back up my files cuz i don't know if i have already got a certain file backed up.
this is really like some S&M shit. he's asking for it himself. if only he'll get some proper anti-virus. it just costs 50-60 bucks and now that my sis is in uni, she gets a discount on software so it's even cheaper....!! so what is he waiting for.





forget it. i give up. i'm resigned to my fate. i'm just going to burn everything onto a DVD-R.

::ready to order, sir?::
after a week of hardcore training to try and get myself back in shape, i still think that i'm super unfit. just finished the M1 tens tournament with the year ones and my body is still recovering. we finished respectably as the plate runners up. another fourth place medal to add to my trophy case. i really enjoyed playing again. the match atmosphere is something that really cannot be described. lost only two of our five games, which is a pretty decent win-loss ratio.

loba got me a job at tangs which has pretty decent pay lar. shall not disclose it online. i'll be starting next tues at the Island Cafe 4th floor of Tangs. come visit yeah. will be in service staff i.e. waiter. can't complain yeah. money is money.

seriously, besides that my life is boring. haha. i know that i've been going on about how i'll be free and easy after the As, but now that the As are over i have no idea what to do with myself. i don't have much cash so i can't go out everyday kinda thing [and i'm too lazy to anyway]. then i also dun like slacking around at home. what am i to do?

::that's it. i'm out::
aw man. i've been waiting for this for a long time. it's been roughly three full days since the As have ended but i'm just getting down to writing this "celebratory" post. have been spending the past few days going out, having fun and training. haha. basically so far i've been enjoying the freedom of not having to stress myself out for the As.

it's really a good thing to be able to live carefree as least for a while before i don my green uniform. think that after the two years of slogging it out i deserve the break that i didn't get after the Os. haha. i'm still sore abt that.

on a slightly more serious note. i'm worried abt alot of things but mainly my math. i have never been very mathematically inclined so i'm not sure if the rather last minute refresher that i went through would be enough to get me cleanly past the As.

but i think i've reached a sort of nirvana. i believe that no matter what result i get, i'm gonna be alright with it and i'm pretty sure that if worse comes to worse, i won't be back in nanyang taking it again. not that i don't like nanyang. it's just that i don't wanna have to go thru that again.

in hindsight, i don't know if going to JC was the best decision. it wasn't a wrong desicion by all means, just maybe it wasn't really right for me. but i'm through it now and i think i've come out a better person for it.

i'm back in training with the team. well at least for a little while. will be playing next tues at YCK 3pm fyi. it's nice to be able to come back to the situation without the stress of having the goal of the A divs in my mind although now there is a slightly different pressure on NY to perform after we achieved 4th.

well. D&D's coming. and i don't have an idea what i'm gonna be wearing. i've got abt two weeks to go shopping though.

i think that not having to exercise my brain is having a few adverse effects. first of all i'm not really putting the ideas in my head into full coherent sentences and all my "points" are not really being fully expressed 'cept in real short two sentence paragraphs. need some way to keep my mind working but at the same time i wanna just zone out. aargh. the new pressures. but it sorta seems that i'm putting that pressure on myself. and now i'm babbling. god. this is lame.

i shd prob be out there looking for work. but i guess i'm just a bit lazy. think i'll just wait for the tens to be over on tues then i'll be clear to commit my time elsewhere. have to take care of one thing at a time.

::new addition::
i know i'm not supposed to be back til the end of the As but i can't help it.
there's been a new addition to the family. born last friday, 4th november, at roughly 1815h.
like all proud parents, baby elijah's parents [his mom's my 2nd cousin. or is it 3rd. can never remember these things] has to satisfy their need to show off their little one. thank god for the internet. sheesh. new age parents.

http://elijahng.blogspot.com


so who says blogging is just a self-indulgent exercise in ego-inflation. when joy is shared, two people are happy. the more happy people there are, the more joy there is to go around. babies are indeed a blessing. now if you say that isn't the sweetest face you've ever seen, you're lying.

::taking a break::
i'll be taking a big break from blogging for a while. have to finish my As but i'll be back as soon as that's done.

meanwhile. big news. my dog's not a wimp. hrm. okay so it doesn't sound like much. but yeah. it is to me.
lemme explain. see. this morning when i woke up i went to check the computer like i always do and then i hear this hellova noise coming frm my garden. squeaks and barks. i look out the window and see my dog standing over a dead rat. my dog actually hunted down and killed the rat that's been eating from the big sack of dog food that we keep.
went down to gardens after that to buy him some of those dentaclean bones to reward him [and to clean his teeth]. proud of the fella.
oooh.

so that's about all the new happening in my life. boring i know. but i'll be back on the 16th nov hopefully with much more life in me after the bleeding As are over.

i bid thee a fond farewell.
cheers.

::sadomasochism::
by definition. it means to find pleasure in inflicting physical or mental pain on others OR ON ONESELF.
man. I think I have like this total SM fetish. can't believe that I keep going back to sneak a peek when she's long gone. just find myself browsing around then I just go click on her profile. aaah forget it. it's nothing. just haven't got everything totally outta my system. everything'll be fine soon. just can't forget that beach in changi. my wish on the shooting star we saw tgr didn't come true. well. not fully anyway. she's happy.


::road map to world domination::
okay. so maybe I'll stop just shy of world domination but it'll sure feel like I own the world after I accomplish my goals.


things to do after As:
-get a job
-get my bike license
-get my bike [the obvious next thing to do after I get my license]
-take up photography more seriously instead of trying to make shots off my digicam look good. hopeless task.
-do my time [BMT not jail]
-apply for WSO in the airforce
-try for the airforce scholarships to local uni
-complete my bond with the airforce
-NIE
-teaching. the noble profession

just decided. I've got my heart set on the Aprilia 125RS. suh-weet I'm telling you. getting my license shd be manageable in between working and the job'll pay for the license and bike [hopefully. if I can get good enough pay. anyone with lobang must share yah].

the photography thing is a real good side project. I've always wanted to like go to some far off place all by myself and just snap away. explore the world. share what I've seen with everyone back home and hopefully a much wider audience.

I think the easiest things on my list are the first four. the rest is really not fully in my control. the airforce thing. it's not for my to decide but I'm just working so that I get a good enough A lvl cert to be in the running to get the WSO posting. but the NIE thing is really something that I'd like. hope to teach phys in sec sch. that's been kinda like the goal for some time but I just lost the target for a while.

sure laugh now. bong in the airforce? bong teaching? don't look down on me ppl. I'll get there somehow.

::irritant::
he's like a nauseating cake of raunchy buzzard barf.
worse than a frantic stack of cute stomach acid.
a rat-faced mound of foreign navel lint would be insulted if i compared it it him.
i've never met such a bad breathed bowl of soppy turkey puke. then i met him.
totally creepy shovel-full of fermenting monkey zits.
unbelievably despicable toilet-full of old hippo vomit.
he's just an uncultivated sack of noxious nose hair who is more brainless than a toilet-full of freeze-dried puke lumps.
he is a ridiculous shovel-full of dusky dog phlegm.
he's a crooked excuse for fresh stable sweepings.

in short. he's a bastard with a hyperinflated ego and a holier-than-thou attitude to anybody and everybody that he may encounter. 19 words that thoroughly describe him.

i don't see why he has to go around picking fights without any provocation. he just has the unique ability to make my blood boil. in my 18 of life on this planet i can safely say that i have never met someone more irritating than him. he's even more irritating than a scab which gets so itchy before it's ready to be peeled off. for lack of better words. i don't think very well when i'm cheesed off.
seriously. i don't often take to disliking ppl and even more seldom do i declare that i hate someone. but boy. he's getting real close to being one of the select few.
if only i could take him on one-on-one. oh man. that'll be a real good day for me. can't believe that anyone could be as obnoxious and as self-centered as he is. it just seems so incredible to me. overall, i like to see people as having some good in them no matter how "bad" they are. but i just cannot see the good in him. god. makes me feel evil just thinking that but i swear it's true.

::piling up::
stuffs getting more and more hectic. got lots of revision stuff to do and a very little time to do it in. oh wells. just wish that I could take the bloody As right now cuz I don't think that I'm gonna get any better results even if I do all the revision stuff that the sch gave.
I have a lot of stuff to do when the As are over. get a job. get my license. get my bike. there's of course music for me to explore. most impt of course is to get a job. else I won't be able to finance the other stuff. plus there is plenty of other stuff that I wanna do.
whatever results I get I'm just gonna see what I can do with it. and if I can't get into the uni, I'll just think of something. maybe get a full time job and do my As privately. it'll be tough but I think it will be much more fulfilling than muggin in sch like this. it's never the end of the world when you get bad results.

::end of the road?::
i think that almost every single J2 in s'pore will soone be posting about their graduation and stuff. so i'm gonna be diff. i'm not gonna blabber on about now i'm going to miss everyone and stuff.
wtf. nobody's dying you fools. you just won't be spending the whole day in school with them. cuz everyone will be out in town having fun after the As. dumb nuts.
can't wait til the As are over.


[btw. i know that you all prob looked up to check out the comma thing in my last post. don't worry. i won't tell.]