::that's it. i'm out::
aw man. i've been waiting for this for a long time. it's been roughly three full days since the As have ended but i'm just getting down to writing this "celebratory" post. have been spending the past few days going out, having fun and training. haha. basically so far i've been enjoying the freedom of not having to stress myself out for the As.

it's really a good thing to be able to live carefree as least for a while before i don my green uniform. think that after the two years of slogging it out i deserve the break that i didn't get after the Os. haha. i'm still sore abt that.

on a slightly more serious note. i'm worried abt alot of things but mainly my math. i have never been very mathematically inclined so i'm not sure if the rather last minute refresher that i went through would be enough to get me cleanly past the As.

but i think i've reached a sort of nirvana. i believe that no matter what result i get, i'm gonna be alright with it and i'm pretty sure that if worse comes to worse, i won't be back in nanyang taking it again. not that i don't like nanyang. it's just that i don't wanna have to go thru that again.

in hindsight, i don't know if going to JC was the best decision. it wasn't a wrong desicion by all means, just maybe it wasn't really right for me. but i'm through it now and i think i've come out a better person for it.

i'm back in training with the team. well at least for a little while. will be playing next tues at YCK 3pm fyi. it's nice to be able to come back to the situation without the stress of having the goal of the A divs in my mind although now there is a slightly different pressure on NY to perform after we achieved 4th.

well. D&D's coming. and i don't have an idea what i'm gonna be wearing. i've got abt two weeks to go shopping though.

i think that not having to exercise my brain is having a few adverse effects. first of all i'm not really putting the ideas in my head into full coherent sentences and all my "points" are not really being fully expressed 'cept in real short two sentence paragraphs. need some way to keep my mind working but at the same time i wanna just zone out. aargh. the new pressures. but it sorta seems that i'm putting that pressure on myself. and now i'm babbling. god. this is lame.

i shd prob be out there looking for work. but i guess i'm just a bit lazy. think i'll just wait for the tens to be over on tues then i'll be clear to commit my time elsewhere. have to take care of one thing at a time.