Monday, September 27, 2004

singaporean democracy.... hah... what a joke....
Mr. LEE Hsien Loong... the new leader of a democratic state.... erm... correct me if i'm wrong... but i don't remember the people electing him.... hrm... maybe its my memory...


NOT!!!


democracy:: government by the people; especially : rule of the majority
by definition of merriam-webster dictionary

the singaporean method of election of the prime minister is through selection of the members of parliment(which doesn't exactly make up the majority of the population) and in the case of Mr. Lee a letter of recommendation from the former-Prime minister Goh Chok Tong.... so where did the "government by the people" part come into the picture....

although it is true that we have a say in who can become a member of parliment, we do not have a say in who they assume to be our choice of prime minister.... isn't it strange that the most established, better financed, seemingly invincible party always comes out tops.... there is no room for smaller parties to come into singaporean politics and they wonder why fewer singaporeans want to join politics.... look at what happened to the last few singaporeans who decided to oppose the ruling party... they went bankrupt and had to leave the country into asylum in malaysia.... the msg that they are sending is: "it's my way, or the north-south highway..."

now with that kind of governance the only way that you're going to get anywhere in singapore politics is if you become a democractic socialist or if you happen to have the surname LEE....

it's true that systems of election like the american electorial process is hard to implement for the inherent problem that singapore has... a small population... the small voting pool means that results may vary and the true average of the opinions of the singaporean people may not be accurately and precisely measured.... and the problem of having to change singapore's constitution makes it even more difficult to implement... but there has to be a way for more singaporeans to become more active in the way that their home is being ruled...

the problem here is not that singaporean do not want to help improve their society by going into politics but the fact that they can't when the government is as rigid as it is now.....

politics is a distorted unclear environment where one is governed by what other people think of you... but it has become a inseparable part of modern life....

gotta bear with it...

Saturday, September 25, 2004

woah. I just found this song by starting line called hold on. Its such a brilliant song. Simple yet beautiful. Just a piano and a guitar. And soulful lyrics.



Hold on by The Starting Line
Her life was more than mine
Like a proud shooting star into the night
She crashed through the airways and ripped like a knife
It was a bad disease
Her searching was over, over

Hold on to the light that guides you
Hold on to the air that cools you
Hold on, hold on to me

Her mind stead fast through time
Her family stood by trying hard not to cry
With patience and virtue kept strong through the night, whoa
She never fell to her knees
Her searching was over, over

Hold on to the light that guides you
hold on to the air that cools you
Hold on, hold on to me
Hold on to the light that guides you
hold on to the air that cools you
Hold on, hold on

And Then my eyes stretched out as I saw her hand slip away

(instrumental break)

Hold on to the light that guides you
Hold on to the air that cools you
Hold on, hold on to me
Hold on to the light that guides you
Hold on to the air that cools you
Hold on, hold on to me
To me, To me, hold on to me




Its really beautiful. Its like the person singing the song is sad yet willing to give the support to someone that he loves.
It is hard to really fully comprehend the true inspiration for the song, but each one of us can take a different interpretation of the words. I feel that the song is a promise that he makes to her. He says that she when she needs someone she can hold on to him. For comfort and for strength. And that he will always be there for her. He wants to be the light to guide her through time of darkness and be the air to comfort her in her times of difficulty. Even as she slips away he still stays strong as an anchor for her to hang on to in the storm.
I pray for the strength to be that kind of man.
And I pray that I will be able make that kind of promise for her.....

Thursday, September 23, 2004

hey..... finally i can post frm home again.... how nice....

so today was the LEAP carnival "signing-up" day.... in the spur of the moment i signed up for three events... the rugby place-kicking challenge, the ICS floorball thingy and the guitar club's band comp..... argh.... just realised that i shd have checked the times for all the comps... i just found out that the guitar club's thing is at 0830h while the rugby kicking is at 0740h... omg.... its gonna be tight.... but i think can make it lah... i still don't know what time is the floorball thing too...

ten days more.... my maths sucks.... twenty-one topics to go thru.... and i'm still sitting here typing... i'd say i'm pretty much screwed.... i think i'll be able to make it thru just by a bit..... i think i'm banking quite a lot on my econs... it has out of the blue become my best subject... i'm pretty amazed with some of the stuff that i know... and thought i wouldn't know... haha....

gotta go.... studying again... argh....
c ya guys after the promos...

Thursday, September 16, 2004

argh.... there is something wrong with my computer again... i can't type anything into the space that you're supposed to type your post into... i'm now in the sch library typing this post....
i haven't posted anything for almost a week plus le... doubt many ppl read my blog anyway... but i miss writing...

so the promos are drawing nearer... 18 days at the last count.... my preparation has been going quite well... supposed to be doin pw now... stupid thing.. hate it sia.... that stupid bao ling oso staring over my shoulder... oh yeah.. and pei wen too... so kay poh nia...
actually... there is nothing much to talk about... but i just wanted to type...hehe.. oops...

my dad's been nagging again... he wants me to go and work out a work schedule etc and sit down and show him.... wateva lah... i'd rather do things the way that works with me.... making a scehdule etc doesn't really help me cuz i don't really stick to it... if he just left me alone to do my thing i think that it will be much more productive... i did it for o levels i'll do it again for promos and the "a"s....

i haven't really been in a good mood past few days.... i just don't feel right.... i don't know what exactly is wrong... but its not normal... had a good chat with ah ning yesterday on MSN and managed to get some stuff off my chest... i'm not the type to go all mushy and talk about feelings and all that crap... but sumtimes i need ta let off some steam... wad de hell.....

can't really think of sumthing to write on today... maybe the inspiration'll come tmr...

til then...
cheers

Wednesday, September 08, 2004

haiz... 26 days left... that's the official countdown... i don't know which is more worrying.... getting stressed over the promos or not getting stressed when you know that you shd be... i think i'm sumwhere in btwn the two... at least i have started some form of revision..... managed to sit down today with lorbah and mrs chong... so nice of her to sacrifice her time to stay back after the lecture to let us clarify our doubts etc.... but i don't think that is still enuf to get me thru cleanly.....

wah lau... that reminds me... me and lorbah did a really dumb thing last sat.... we were in the library studying when we decided to go out of the library for a walk..... we went downstairs and sat with some of his CO frens to chat.... after we went back to the library to find the lights off and the doors locked.... wah lau.... damn sian... we went ard the whole sch trying to look for someone with the key.... but no one had it... in the end we contacted mrs chong and she helped us get miss koh (the HOD for PE/CCA) to open the library with the spare key.... mrs chong was willing to come back to sch frm SMU to open the library for us.... but luckily they had a spare key so she didn't have to come all the way back.... big thank you to mrs chong and miss koh....
lorbah and i have learnt our lesson.... haiz...

learnt how to play "she will be loved" by maroon 5 over the weekend.. its actually a pretty easy song to play... but is still sounds so nice... esp the words... very meaningful... they're one of the few rock bands that get radio airtime in s'pore that i listen to... most of the stuff on the airways is actually total crap.....
maroon 5 actually are quite a dorky bunch of nerds.... no disrespect.... but that's what they look like... but its kinda cool that they don't care what people think of them and still go out and play super songs.... i guess i'm to concerned abt what ppl think of me to go out and do that kinda stuff...

got some ideas on what to get her for her birthday yesterday... won't tell ya ppl yet.... only a few ppl will know what i intend to buy until i actually give it to her.... hope she'll like it though.... i'm stuck btwn two options now but i've got some time to think abt it....

well... to all the sept babies that i know... happy birthday.....
and a happy new year.....

'nuff said

Saturday, September 04, 2004

its twelve o'clock and all's not well in the world....
the hostage crisis in russia, the continuing war in iraq, the rebuilding of afganistan....
man-made problems that can only be solved by man himself..... but what if man doesn't want to solve it..... do money hungry politians really care what happens to the people and children in war torn nations..... do the people of wealthy nations really think about how their actions affect their neighbours in less developed nations....

as i type this post, i'm reflecting and looking into myself to see if i really care myself.... or am i just another person who likes to talk but is not willing to actually do anything.... i really think that what is happening in the world is wrong... but i don't know where to start helping or if i'll really want to give up my comfortable life to go help in places that need the manpower....

just tonight, news came thru about a hostage taking in a russian school by seperatist rebels..... after it all, an estimated 150 people including many children were dead.... how can such cowards expect to get sympathy for their cause by taking children hostage..... the only thing that they are doing is really showing the world what useless bastards they are..... i can't help using some vulgarity to describe them... cuz they really do not deserve anything better.....

the texas cowboy.... for those who do not know who that is.... he's the current war monger in charge of the biggest nation in the world.... BUSH..... the right thing for the wrong reasons.... getting rid of saddam was prob the smartest thing that any amercian president has done... but by creating an excuse to invade Iraq and going against the UN, he is letting the ends justify the means.... and is that really the kind of guy that we want in charge of the most influencial country on the beautiful blue earth.... currently the opposition candidate for presidency, john kerry, is getting the popularity vote just because of the "anyone but bush" sentiment that is speading ard the country..... again we see a war president seemingly heading out of office after just one term.....

hopefully kerry will be able to take care of his people much better than bush has..... but the problem is... if he's gonna come in just because no one else wants bush back then can we really be sure that he'll be the president that he claims to be....

politics.... simple yet confusing.... taking advantage of human emotions.....

let me sign off by saying:"You cannot simultaneously prevent and prepare for war."
think about it.....

Wednesday, September 01, 2004

yup yup yup..... bong's blog ver 3.0 has just been released..... complete with photo gallery, tag board and link to all my fav sites.... cool huh..... plus there are alot of cool little stuff in the site.... for instance...... put ur curser over this: http://bleedingchickenhead.blogspot.com .... and voila... the link'll turn upside down... i think that its really funky.... damn cool.... and i like the pic of my phone on the top left hand corner of the blog.... quite cool if i may say so myself... haha....

so the promos draw near.... i think there is little more than a month left....hopefully i'll be able to make it thru.... but it'll be just as tough when i get to J2.... i'll have to mug alot more to make up for the slacking i did this year... haiz..... what to do... i can't get back the time that i wasted slacking... so i gotta pay back my debt.....

been debating whether i shd tell her that i really like her alot.... i kinda wanna tell her and get it off my chest.... but alot of ppl are telling me to be patient and wait a bit more.... in my gut that's what i think i shd do too.... but it's like my chest is bursting frm this big open secret that i have to keep... haha.. i guess it's an open secret that i like her... first of all.. it is kinda obvious.... second.... ppl have been talking... and i guess that it shd be apparent to any thinking human being that i would like to be more than just frens with her.... patience my lad.... patience.....

my patience and time, however, is running out for PW..... no... not pei wen.... project work.... it really sucks.... hate it sia.... and as if it wasn't stressful enuf, we had to get ah leong for a PW tutor.... she's a nice person.... but it's just that she is particularly fussy yet slack at the same time.... i know it sounds strange.... but it is very hard to describe the situation.... she wants our projects to be as spotless as possible(who doesnt').... but she isn't making our job easy.... she gave back our first draft of our written report on monday and wanted the second draft on friday.... with only three days to work on it and alot to do in the three days, the job is next to impossible.... not to mention the lack of research that our grp appears to have.... dammit.... got a lot of work to do.....

well... i guess i better get started on that work..... c ya peeps.....