Tuesday, August 29, 2006

:: Blogger's Block ::
531. Magical... That's the number of days left till I ORD and return to civilian life. Sigh. ys was right. I'm starting my countdown to ORD way too early.

but enough of army. Can't wait to get back into the field and play some matches. But it's not going to be anytime soon. i don't feel ready yet. This thing with my back comes at the wrong time in my life. i should be in my prime right now but I'm sure that my physical and skills levels have dropped from now practicing for a long time. Even my coach in NY said that I've lost quite a lot.

one thing that has been really itching for a while is my urge to go riding like how we used to do all those years ago. It's been a long time since we've put on all our gear and got down in the dirt. i remember when i learnt to power slide the bike at tanah merah. i did plenty of 180s and ended up facing the wrong way many times. But once i got it down and consistent. wooh. Amazing feeling. i think i just loved the feel of the speed. And the pull of the bike when it hit the powerband. Great feeling. I'll def bring my kids riding one day.

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

:: Toilet Wisdom ::
I read this every morning in BMTC Falcon Coy

"When I was teaching basketball, I urged my players to try their hardest to improve on that very day, to make that practice a masterpiece. Too often we get distracted by what is outside our control. You can't do anything about yesterday. The door to the past has been shut and the key thrown away. You can do nothing about tomorrow. It is yet to come. However, tomorrow is in large part determined by what you do today. So make today a masterpiece. This rule is even more important in life than in basketball. You have to apply yourself each day to become a little better. By applying yourself to the task of becoming a little better each and every day over a period of time, you will become a lot better. Only then will you be able to approach being the best you can be"
-John Wooden

The picture is not great at all so I typed it all out. It was pasted up in my platoon's toilet on the inside of cubicle 5's door. It's ironic how in a place that stank and was full of shit that something so profound could exist. Ha.
How I interpret it is that we should never let the past burden us with regrets about what could have been but instead live for today and what the next day will bring. We cannot control or say for certain what will happen in the future but we can attempt to influence it by our actions today. So why sob over spilt milk when we can always get another bottle of milk later? Possibilities are endless if we apply ourselves in the right way. Nobody expects you to become a millionaire overnight. These things take time and slowly bit by bit, we'll get there in the end...

Monday, August 14, 2006

:: Mondaybluism ::
don't know if there is such a term, but I don't care. I'm suffering frm it.
just feel like running away from everything. From the army, from home, from anywhere that I can run away from. Wish I could just hop on a bike and ride into the sunset for as long as I have the money to buy gas. It's not a nice thing growing up. There are many growing pains to deal with. Added responsibilities on your shoulders, the need to appear more mature, monetary burdens etc.

there are times that you feel so empowered with all the independence granted to you and the fact that you can make your own money now. But don't you just wish that you could go back to a time when you were carried wherever you go and you just cried and got whatever you wanted. Man. Those were good times.

I guess it's one of Man's [or humankind's if you wanna be PC] more undesirable traits to always look over the fence and assume that the grass there is greener. But is it? Everything has to be taken in consideration. Pros and cons. Ups and downs. It's never as straight forward as most people take it to be. It's not easy being me or you or anyone else. Each and every person has their problems as well. So why wish that you were someone else when so many people wish they were you?

ha. I guess I'm kinda doing a bit of self therapy here. Don't really have anything to post about so I'm just arguing with myself.

I went to see the physio last fri. She said that I'll be put through a course of traction for my back. Six sessions over six weeks and then we'll see how things go then. I hate having this thing. There is this dull ache that it's perpetually there. It's just so tiresome. Plus it puts me out of action from everything. Can't do all the stuff that my bunk- and platoon-mates are doing, no rugby for a while, forget running totally. Just wanna be 100% again.

Monday, August 07, 2006

:: Exeunt W M BONG? ::
went to the doc today. The mri report says that I'm suffering frm chronic disc disintegration resulting a mild protrusion around my L4 vertebra and he's recommending me for a downgrade.
very mixed feelings about the results cuz it would mean that i have to leave this base where i have made so many good pals. But it also means that i don't have to go through all that shit and have a CHANCE at my dream 8-5 stayout job.

i know I've been complaining hellova lot about my squadron and some of the commanders but there are plenty of good people both among the men and among the commanders. It will really be a shame to have to leave the squadron. Hopefully I'll be able to get a job in the squadron's S1 dept or smthg? haha... That'll be the best. Will still be able to hang out with the guys and will not have to change my life around too much.

we shall have to see, no?