Friday, May 29, 2009

Wouldn't Have it Any Other Way

I suppose some people are quite surprised at the way I'm reacting to my results. Personally, I don't know why the surprise. It's not that I don't care but simply because I understand that the amount of effort put in is equal to the returns that I get back. And the returns from this sem was precisely what I deserved.

Do I regret not working harder? Well. No. Before anyone gets on my ass and starts screwing me, let me just say that I don't believe in regret. What you have done is what is done. I enjoyed all the things that I have done and accomplished in the last semester and I wouldn't have it any other way. You can't change what you've done and the resultant consequences so the past is nothing more than a history lesson. You can learn from it, but you can't use it to change your present. It can however be used to change your future. And that's what you should be aiming to.

I guess this just means that I'll have to turn a lot of things around next sem.

Saturday, May 23, 2009

The Sandwich Meridian

Mediocrity. There I said it. The M word. Why does being mediocre have such a negative connotation to it? I don't think that being ordinary is necessarily a bad thing altogether. Is being normal abnormal? Is there something wrong with leading a quiet life? Why is this blogpost rife with rhetorical questions?

To me, it doesn't seem all that bad to life out your life peacefully in stereotypical manner with the wife and two kids, driving a medium sized family car. Sure it would be fun as hell to take the Ferrari or Lambo out for a spin, but is all the extravagance really necessary? Maybe to some it is. But I'd be just as contented with my Toyota Corolla with my family strapped in.

I'm not making an excuse for under achievement. I do not think that whatever talents we have should ever go to waste. But I also don't agree with the mentality that if you're not pushing your limits, then you're just another under achiever. While pushing the boundaries of your abilities will improve you as a person, it comes to a point when that pushing stops being a method of excelling yourself and starts becoming the goal. What I mean is that sometimes, we strive so hard to improve and break records that we forget to look back and be proud of the things that we have already achieved.

They say that pride comes before a fall. In my opinion, pride this case is not so much being proud but instead means being over confident. I do not see what is wrong in taking a step back and taking pride in what we have already managed so far. What I'm saying may sound very contradictory at times, but I also believe that while it is good to be proud of what we have already accomplished, we should also not just rest on our laurels.

Basically, what I'm trying to bring out is that all things require a sense of moderation (another M word). It is the balance between pride in past achievements and endeavour in future work that makes a person truly well-rounded. Pushing our limits versus stepping back and admiring the view.

Life is like a sandwich. I know it's corny but bear with me for a while. The way I look at it, the stuff in the middle is what make a sandwich a sandwich. A PB and J is PB and J 'cuz of the peanut butter and jelly. A cheese sandwich is a cheese sandwich because of the cheese. So your life is should not be judged by the bread that is the extreme good or bad that you do occasionally but by the filling that is how you lead your life most of the time.

Well, like it or not, I am perfectly content with leading my life smack in the middle. I do not aim to be the next Bill Gates, nor do I intend to let what ability I have go to waste.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Running Dry

Okay, I know I've been bitching about how I can't wait for the exams to be over and how there are so much that I wanna do. But now, almost a month into the hols, I have accomplished nada. [edit] I just learnt that the submission deadline for Mini Musical 09 is 31st July. Hurray for procrastination!![/edit] Goddamit!! I think it's the waking up past noon problem. Haha. Cuz by the time I wake up, there is only so much of the day left so you end up not really doing anything. And by the time you start doing something, it's time for dinner and you'll prob end up slacking off after dinner as well.


I really need a job. But I'm not really doing anything proactive with regards to finding one. I guess if I wait long enough, a job will fall out of the sky. Hopefully something not to tiring with good pay.

*looks up at sky*

*realises he's indoors and jobs don't fall from ceilings*


Well. I can't say I haven't been enjoying the do-nothing-but-slack-all-day lifestyle but I really need to get off my butt and do something constructive.

Kayaking, anyone?

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Infernally Internal Affairs

I wanna say something, but at the same time I don't think that I should. But it's killing me inside lah. I need to do something about it.

That's what next week is for, I guess. Where is my interrogator when I need to talk!

Monday, May 04, 2009

Of Sun, Sand, Sea and Beer

Okay. I need to say this. AWESOME PAST WEEK...

It's been a week since exams ended and it's seriously been a blast. Three days in Tioman, great weekend, puke-filled Saturday night and a power fun night at Pump Room just now.

Tioman was seriously best. I haven't been so relaxed in a long long time. I've had many things on my mind so it was nice to just go there and chillax. Cold beer in one hand, starry skies above. I just wish that we were there right now to enjoy it. Snorkelling was pretty awesome. The reef there was beautiful. Lorba and I saw this gigantic parrot fish. No kidding, it was like 1.5m long? Swam right at us and we were like woah.... My facebook wall is totally swamped with tags in videos and pics now. Heh heh. Video sluts and cam whores unite!

Spent the weekend back at hall getting drunk with some of the others and the graduating peeps. Will miss them in hall. Also spend most of Sunday morning cleaning up the puke in the toilet. Not so enjoyable. Zzzz