Tuesday, March 28, 2006

:: Insane Boredom ::
the last straw. i have snapped...

it's just too extremely boring.. i haven't has much to do over the past few days after the climax of last week. the kayaking, the ice-skating, the bbq etc. and now i've got nothing to do... haha... not that i'm complaining. i'm grateful to still have my pink ic in my wallet.

i really don't have anything to blog abt...
so nuts... that's all.

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

:: The Countdown Begins ::
I know everybody has to go thru it. But you can't help but be a little intimidated but the prospect of having to go off and play soldier for ten weeks on a little island. It's the whole idea of change... More than anything, I have the same feeling that I had in the days leading up to my first day at pri sch or my first day at any school for that matter. Nobody likes to deal with the unknown.

even more unknowns to deal with. I submitted my application to both NTU and NUS today. Hopefully someone will take me in. If NS is one of the major events of a male s'porean's life, then I guess going to uni would rank up there as well. It seems like such a great undertaking. An undergrad degree course. oooooh.

I guess it's all a matter of taking it one step at a time. For now, I'm just relaxing and enjoying the easy life. Prop the only totally carefree break that I will have frm this point on.

it's been a memorable four months since the A lvls have finished. I've learn lots of new things and I think it's been real good. The work experiences, the slacking time, the exercise routines that might have been followed with a little MORE discipline. [learning to overturn a capsized kayak while in the water, though I must say it wasn't a lesson I volunteered for.] overall, life is good. And why shdn't it be?

it's really rather amusing how the time spent in sch seemed to pass by so slowly but now that we're all out of it, we say that it zoomed right by us... Humans are such weird creatures.

til the next post frm me, the once-a-week blogger, fond farewell to thee.

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

:: Normality ::
it's totally amazing how mundane life can be. there is not big "exciting" events happening in my life right now. after all the excitement of the results has died down, i think everyone has nothing to do really occupy their time now that we don't have to return to school.

Attn: This has been a total and complete waste of five minutes of your life that you will never get back. The evil that I am has taken great enjoyment in your anguish.

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

:: Back together again ::
when I was very young, I held Christopher Reeve in very high esteem. It may have seemed childish but he seemed like a friend that I have never met just cuz we shared a name.

so when Christopher Reeve died in 2004 after making so much improvement in his condition, I think alot of people must have had a little bit of hope die in them too, myself included. His story was one that was truly inspiring. Paralyzed frm the neck down, he did not allow himself to take the challenge lying down [no pun intended at all], and I think that everyone was on his side wanting and urging him to defeat a disorder that seemed truly incurable. A Superman both on the screen and in real life.

just today, I saw the news on MSN that Dana Reeve, his wife has just passed away after struggling with lung cancer for over a year. Not of lung cancer but of a broken heart in my opinion, they were the perfect couple. This was no Hollywood love story, this was real life. In sickness and in health, they really stood by each other. Though he could not return her hugs, she still gave them anyway. A match made in heaven.

"Life is not fair. So stop expecting it to be."
-Dana Reeve

I wouldn't call it being pessimistic. It's being realistic. Bad things do often happen to good people. But it's their goodness that gets them through it unscathed.
God bless the Reeves. Rest well.

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

:: island of (bad) dreams ::
about a month more to go before i enlist. and i'm as fat and unfit as ever...
my goodness. went for training yesterday and could just barely keep up with the pace. my kicking and catching is down the drainpipe and my passes are too acurate anymore. devastating for a scrumhalf.

the team is looking pretty alright although there are a few weak points. hopefully they can sort it out soon. the SCC 7s is not the main goal. the A divs are.
btw. the 7s is on this weekend at the padang. anyone is free to come down...

i have more or less worked out a training regime for me to follow. runs in the morning followed by full-out gym sessions on mon, wed and fri hopefully in sch where i can get gym usage for free... woopee!! erm... anyway. tuesdays and thurs will be days for me to relax and to let my muscles recover frm the gym. after all i do only have a month of civilian life to enjoy before it's into my brand new green uniform...

Thursday, March 02, 2006

:: Fork in the Road ::

Jeremiah 29:11 (New International Version)

11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

I just saw a friend of mine with this in her nick and I think it's so appropriate for the situation.
so the results were out yesterday. congrats to those who did well and to those that didn't do as well as they expected or wanted, there are so many options that are still open.

even if you are not catholic or christian, it is nice to believe that someone out there is looking out for you and that everything that happens happens for a reason. this is not the end of twelve yrs of education but merely a start for a lifetime of learning. just part of the roller-coaster of life. good and bad, up and down. it's the duality of life that makes it interesting and worth living for.

but i say come what may. for the strength that you need to get through the bad and down times not only comes frm yourself but also from the people around you. TAKE HEART, my friends. This is the time to show your grit and what you're made of. Just know that whatever happens within the next two months or so, my phone is on 24/7 and I'm always willing to listen. For that is what a friend and brother is for.

although my teachers will most likely never get the chance to see this, I think I feel a real need to give a shout out to them. It could have been a LOT worse without the help of my teachers and the time and emotional investment they put into me. My only regret is that I could only give them mediocre returns on their investment.

I cannot complain about my results. I think I got what I deserved. Neither exceptionally good nor bad, I got what I put in. Reaping the fruit of the seeds I had proverbially sown over the two years.

So once again. All the best to my friends out there.
This is not a farewell but merely a warm welcoming to a new life.