Current Figures


Indonesia: 79,940
Sri Lanka: 24,743
India: 7,330
Thailand: 2,394
Somalia: 120
Burma: 90
Maldives: 67
Malaysia: 65
Tanzania: 10
Seychelles: 1
Bangladesh: 2
Kenya: 1




Total: 114,698

A man driving his car as a makeshift ambulance to bring people to a hospital, miles away even while suffering from the shock of losing his own family members.

A shop keeper offering anything remaining on the shelves of his shop of the survivors of the tragedy.

Both unsung heroes of the tsunami tragedy doing what they can to help their country and its people out of the deep hole that that the killer wave created. People like them need the help and support of all of us. Even as they watch their families and livelihoods being washed away by the tons of water the tsunami brought, they selflessly donated THEMSELVES to the cause. Not just throwing money around and thinking that money will solve ALL the problems. Wake up. It won't.

What is needed in the countries devastated by the tsunami? Clothes, food, medicine, transport vehicles like trucks and helicopters and they also need people like medical professionals to help care for the sick and dying in the jam-packed hospitals. The money will only help once everything is cleared up and the recovery process is underway. Right now, in the clear up process, the money will do no help.

Large countries like Germany and the US are contemplating cutting the debts that some of the affected countries owe in the hope that the money will be used for helping the victims. But this is merely a token gesture. The debts that countries like Indonesia owe amounts up to 81 billion dollars and reliving some of that debt will not really help the country except maybe in the long term. But they need help NOW!! Now "later", not "in a while" and definitely not "another time".

"NOW!"

CONFIRMED DEATH TOLL
Thursday, 30 December, 2004, 07:31 GMT

Indonesia: 45,268
Sri Lanka: 22,493
India: 6,974
Thailand: 1,829
Somalia: 100
Burma: 90
Maldives: 67
Malaysia: 65
Tanzania: 10
Seychelles: 3
Bangladesh: 2
Kenya: 1

The scale of the tsunami that the earthquake caused can be seen on the toll. Countries in Africa have suffered casualties along with the South East Asian nations. Somalia, Tanzania, Kenya just three of the affected African nations.

And the death toll continues to rise. The tsunami itself has claimed so many lives but the aftereffects of the tsunami are just as deadly. Water-borne diseases threaten the survivors and the corpses of the dead being washed up even now are decayed and can spread other diseases.

"The dead ones are the lucky ones", said an ex-policeman from Sri Lanka. Some may be inclined to agree. The tremendous task of rebuilding the nation falls to the survivors of the tragedy.

Had it not been Boxing Day, the day after Christmas, the casualties may have amounted to even more. The beaches were relatively empty as compared to a normal day at most of the seaside resorts that line the coastlines of the affected regions.

76,902. That is the currently the total number of people the tsunami has claimed.
God rest their souls.

on a much brighter note. today was choi's pool party thingy at her house.
had loads of fun. in the pool playing "captain's ball" with the gurls, the bbq etc... THANKS ALOT AH CHOY!!!


haha... and man fuzzy makes damn good chicken wings... nicely barbequed... damn shiok sia....

have you ever felt that you don't really have a purpose for living....
i'm not the contemplating suicide kind lar... but seriously...
how many of you out there have a specific plan and a solid, realistic vision of where you want to be in ten years time....
i'm not talking abt fantasies abt being a multi-trillianaire, owning twenty BMW and those are just the cars that you can fit into your mansion's gigantic garage....
those kind of visions are something that anyone can dream of...
i'm talking abt knowing what you want to do in life... what you want to achieve in the little time that you have here...
i don't really have my own vision... i can't imagine what i'll be like ten years down the line...
i live from day to day... and that is a problem... there is no goal.. there is no aim... nothing to strive for.... at the moment, my only aim is to get a good A level cert... but beyond that is totally blank... i can't envision ANYTHING past graduation... i know the path that is more or less set out in front of me... after college there is national service and after that the uni... but that is too general a path.... what am i going to do in uni etc etc etc... i just don't see it...

help...

xmas as usual was a very busy time. preparations for xmas dinner at my house, going to church, going to ppl's houses....

basically it was eat, sleep, eat, sleep all the way... feel like a bloody pig now lar..

finally got my guitar... and i'm telling you... it is B-E-A-U-tiful...
it's a washburn guitar with amp....
dark mohogany coloured with a rosewood fingerboard...
locks on the strings to keep it in tune....
double-single-double pickups....
wah... si bei chio sia....






christmas... my favourite time of the year... a time for everyone to get together and be merry....

She was lying on the bed waiting for me to come join her. What could i do? I lay down next to her.

I played with her brown hair and stroked her head. She turned onto her back and looked at me, wanting more.

She is a REAL bitch. Not offense to her, but that's what she is.

She looked at me playfully and rolled over. She jumped on me and our noses touched.

Then...






"SHAGGY!!! STOP LICKING ME YOU STUPID DOG!!!!"

in case you don't know, shaggy's my dad's cousin's cocker spaniel.... super cute dog...

and hey.... stop thinking dirty you pervert....

it was april 2003... a friday.... grandma's condition was getting bad... she was in pain... but as usual, she would never say it... she would never admit any discomfort so that we won't worry... but we did anyway... we decided to send her to the hospital so that they could check her up... i was having chinese tuition at the time when the ambulance came... i heard her groans of pain coming frm downstairs... totally couldn't concentrate on my lesson... until i couldn't take it...

i broke down... my tutor was so nice that she offered to come back another day... and i sat on the steps listening the commotion down, unable to bear to come down and watch my grandmother being carried away... after they left, i was alone in the house with my maid...

somehow i knew that that would be the last time that i see my grandma... i believe that it was Him trying to prepare me for the end.... i know it... i felt it in my heart... i called my friend... and for the first time i poured out and cried on the phone... and she was such a dear to listen to me.. and comfort me...

i told her that i had felt that this would be the last time that i saw her.... she tried to tell me otherwise... and i so wanted to believe what she was saying... but i knew that it wasn't true.... i wanted to banish that thought in my mind that my grandmother would not be coming home... i pleaded to Him not to take her now...
"not now.... pls Lord... not now..."

days passed... then my dad brought me the news.... she had gone into a coma... and it wasn't looking too good... we couldn't visit her cuz she was in ICU... my dad, my uncle and my grandpa were the only ones to visit her...



then it came... 23rd of april, 2003... i had gone to play bball with yuto and co... to try and take my mind off things... hadn't really worked though...
i took the bus back... 147 if i'm not wrong... as soon as i got off the bus, i saw the white marquee that had been set up at my house.... without reaching my house, i knew what had happened... desparately wanted not to believe it... praying my heart out that it wasn't so... my delusions of it being a party to celebrate her miraculous recover from the brink of death.... my footsteps slowed, my bag got heavy... i didn't want to go home to that... i didn't want to see the big wooden coffin in my living room... i trudged home...

the first person i saw was my uncle and my younger cousin... both of them didn't want to talk... den my grandfather came out frm the house to greet me at the door... at first he tried to scolded me for coming back late... trying to pretned that nothing had happened... but i knew that he wasn't really angry... just needed an outlet... den he hugged me and brought me into the house to view my grandmother in her coffin... he told me:" grandma isn't with us anymore."
he was sobbing... and i was doing my best to hold back and stay strong for him...

my grandaunt and uncle had flown all the way frm london where they stayed to try and see her before she passed on... but they came too late...

i was strong... i didn't show my pain...

then my sister came home... by the back door... so she didn't see the white marquee out front... the first thing she saw was the coffin... she cried on the spot... there was no holding back for me... i couldn't bear to see her cry like that... i sat alone in the corner of the house and cried til my eyes were dry... i had never cried like that before... even during all the tantrums that i was said to have thrown when i was a child... my grandaunt came and gave me tissues and my dad brought me to my room...

she was so peaceful... she was lying in her coffin with her beautiful smile... the one that sort of seemed to say:"why are you crying? i'll never really leave you."

in the next few days people streamed into the house to pay their final respects... the teachers that were under her when she was principal... ex-students that she had taught... TV news ppl that came to report her death... everyone that had known her...

i spent the whole day next to the coffin... i "talked" to her... the woman that had taken care of me thoughout my childhood... my surrogate mother... my teacher...
when i was young... i had a very bad case of asthma... and my doctor took me out of school... saying that i needed to be taken care of....
my parents were divorced... and custody of me and my sis was given to my dad... he had to work... so we were left in the care of my grandpa and grandma...

she was like my own personal nurse cum teacher cum parent... since i couldn't go to school... she home tutored me... she taught me what she could... and i couldn't have been in better hands... the ex-principal of Katong Convent during it's golden years.... and i prospered... i only attended pri sch during pri 5 and 6... my results.... A for english, A* for maths, A for science.. haha.. the only thing that she couldn't teach me was chinese... so i ended up with an E for that... not bad for a kid that stayed at home for almost the whole of pri sch huh... and i owe that all to her....

my grandmother....


and i didn't have the chance to say goodbye... i didn't have the chance to tell her how much she meant to me.... how much i had to thank her for... my doctor come for the wake... and he told me... "you are the one that will feel it the most"...
i don't know how true that was...



i loved her...

i love her...

and i will always love her...

woah... got a lot of new stuff... and for basement bargain prices... man... soooo proud of myself..
haha... and my new shoes.... super cool.... haha...

list of stuff that i got yest:
-canter ankle socks
-canter match socks
-adidas shoes
-adidas polo tee
okie lar... so its not really like a massive shopping spree like choy had in HK... but still....
oh yeah.. and i got a adidas tee-shirt frm choy... haha... thankz gurl...
hrm... looks like i gotta get you ur car le... haha...


played touch with the gurls in the morning.... haha... kinda got trashed by them... i don't think any of the guys really gave it 100%... i was turning on and off throughout... haha... the two funkiest things that i did was chase fyda, run in front of her, stick out my tongue and then tap her.... then there was the cut pass all the way to the wing(alfian) for him to score... haha.... the gurls looked kinda shocked when i cut all of them... haha...



xmas is around the corner... time for the bong family traditions to be dusted off again.... 25th of december is always a big thing in the bong household... we hold the yearly xmas party at our house for family and friends... usually abt 40 ppl some years more.... and we order tables and chairs and put it in the centre of the house in one gigantic table that takes up the whole house... then we lay tableclothes and put all the good food on it... chicken, turkey, duck, beef, xmas hams, lamb, vegtables and all the bounty that God has provided for us... it is really a magnificent sight, if i may say so myself...
this is the second year that we will spend without my beloved grandmother... it doesn't get easier... last year was a emotional dinner... not having my grandmother say grace before dinner... we don't usually say grace before our meals... so xmas is the one time of the year that she can lead all her family and friends in saying grace properly before a meal... last year was different... she wasn't there... altho i know that she was there in spirit, she couldn't be there physically... this year is the same... she'll be there all right... i know it... somehow you can feel it... you can feel her somewhere nearby watching over us and smiling like she always does... just enjoying the presence of all the closet people in her life...

man only has questions that cannot be truely answered.... none of the many questions that he has abt the world he lives in and the world beyond can't really be answered by his own means....

even in physics... a science.... answers obtained are all based on some assumptions that we have abt the world.... evaluating our assumptions is not as simple as it appears... for our assumptions are based on other assumptions... in the end, is anything that we study really undenyable true.... some may argue that it is proven fact... but who is it proven by... ... it's proven by another man.... another identically flawed human being....

the only 100% truely flawless being that i know of is the Man upstairs... as many refer to Him as.... i trust Him to reveal to us what we need to know, when we need to know it... not before, not after... He has His plans for us and though we might not understand it sometimes, we have to have faith in Him and let ourselves fall into His ever supporting arms....






Mr John Lim was the kind of teacher that you felt you could approach whenever you needed advice... not the kind that you would turn 180 degrees and speed away in the opposite direction the moment you see him coming down the corridor... and that is what made him special... i would have liked to know him better.... to be able to appreciate the kind of man he was... he is no longer physically with us... but i'm sure that every NYJCian will never forget Mr John Lim....
Teacher, Mentor and Friend to all....

woah.... 04S4B class outing today.... haha.... had a steamboat over at marina bay.... played some pool before that.... and after that just hung out at dhouby ghaut.... quite fun lar....

before that went shopping with my sis and cousin for xmas prezzies for ourselves and cousins n stuff... haha... it's kinda wierd knowing what you're gonna get for xmas den having to act surprised on the day you open the prezzies.... haha... but we did it like soooooo much faster than expected... like 6 prezzies in 1 1/2 hours..... and all in taka... haha...

hey.... it's nice getting stuff at xmas.... even if it isn't really abt the presents... it is still nice...

you never really know how short life is until someone you know is called to the Lord...
you don't appreciate the time that you have with someone until you can't spend anymore time with them...

if you knew when everyone's "time" is,
would you treat them any different...
would you like them any better...
would you talk with them any more...


nanyang has truely lost a pillar of the school... You couldn't find an NYJCian that didn't know who Mr John Lim was...

condolences to the family of Mr and Mrs John Lim...
+May God bless them and their families+

helped out at the ECG xmas party yest with boon and fawwaz.... played a few songs with fawwaz.... rather... I played and he sang lar... his stupid finger lar... cannot play anything... haha... had some great food and a great time.... didn't know that the SFX youth choir would be there.... meet some old friends.... said hi etc....

Christmas is around the corner again... the most beautiful time of the year tainted by commercialism.... we exchange presents with each other, expecting someone to give something back for the present that we give them... yet God gave us the greatest gift that anyone could ever give.... He give us His son to eventually die and redeem us from damnation... and He gave this gift without expectation of getting any sort of returns from it.... i'm not here to preach... but i just want ppl to know that there is more to xmas than the parties and the presents and the abundant food and rudolph and santa and the rest of it... there is also a deeper meaning to xmas that many people neglect...

+Lord be in my mind, so that I may think of You+
+Lord be in my lips, so that I may speak of You+
+Lord be in my heart, so that I may love You+

dammit... lost the stupid SP match... a match that i seriously thought that we had a fighting chance to win....

we fell to two kinda early tries in the first period.... and the rest of the period was spent defending...

the second period was by far our best... the whole period was played in their half.... and we had many 22 metre raids... but the try came from a scrum.... down the shortside, the blindside, whatever you chose to call it... i just love it.... used our 8-9-15 move... but in the end we didn't need the 15.... i tapped boon's butt, his signal to pick the ball and pop it to me.... and that is exactly what he did.... i recieved the ball and made my run... the standoff, full-back and blindside winger were already expecting a blind move and they all had drifted over to cover... but there was just too much space for me... i fended off the tackles from the standoff and the full-back and spun out of the winger's last ditch tackle.... and yes... i finally scored my first try for the team in an official match, not in a training situation.... really a highlight of my "career" and i really thank God for the sight to call the move and the presence of mind to get the ball past the line... after that try, the problems started... soon after the kickoff, fawwaz dislocated his finger.... man... gross... so he had to be taken to the hospital.... after that all the positions were jumbled around....

the start of the third period saw us equalising through dominic.... this guy that peerose brought down.... again... from a scrum.... he took the ball and drove it over the line with the help of alfian butting him on.... after that... i guess it got bad... partially my fault... since fawwaz had to be taken off, jamal put me into the standoff position.... and i didn't really perform in the position... i just don't really know how to operate in the situation.... but i wasn't getting any good service frm the scrumhalf... wad was i supposed to do... it is looking at the game frm a different angle frm my usual half-back role.... we went downhill from there... let in four tries... final score 6-2....

three periods, three different positions... out-centre in the first, scrumhalf in the second and standoff in the third... of the three, my favourite is being scrumhalf.... i just function normally in the role.... i don't have to think... i know what to do.... in all the other positions that i have played in, fullback, winger, out-centre and standoff... i just feel very gabra.... like dunnoe wad to do... not comfortable... not in my element... hey... i just noticed... i only have to play in-centre before i can say that i have played every position in the backline... haha... not that i wanna play in-centre... i'm just not cut out to be a centre....

got a few knocks for all the stuff that i did today... my nose got hit in the first period and my nose started bleeding.... not that serious lar... i just played on... blood on my jersey... cool huh... haha... then now i have a slightly sprained right shoulder that i can't lift up and something wrong with my left hip... can't rotate my left leg normally... but i don't care... i don't give a rat's buttocks... this is for the game that i love... for college and for my team...

somehow the loss today wasn't that bad cuz we managed to "crack the egg"... scored two... one frm me and one frm a guest player.... not to shabby.... my only regret was that i couldn't play scrumhalf for long... just when i was getting into the situation, jamal called me up for standoff duties.... darn it... i think that we could have scored again if everyone had stayed in their positions instead of getting shuffled around.... and i think we could have won... but like wad BX told me... anything can happen in rugby... you just don't know what will happen... and you gotta be ready to play in any position that needs to be filled...

i'll be working to that....

super sick.... came home sniffing and sneezing.... now feeling a bit warm....
and the SP match is tmr... and i so wanna play and redeem myself after last weeks horrors....

we painted the field today.... by we i mean me and abang... fawwaz came earlier before work and helped to paint a few lines and mark out a couple more... but the rest was done by me and abang... haha... and we did it in pretty good time too.... it was all done in a few hours... its not the nicest field that we have painted... but it still looks pretty decent...

suffering now.... gotta carry a tissue box everywhere i go.... and there is this pile of used tissues that keeps growing and growing til i clear it every few minutes.... argh!! can't take it... i hate being sick... it really sucks...

repercussions are an indirect impact that is produced by an action that you have taken... call it karma or whatever you want to... do whatever you do has consequences... and whatever you do, you better be sure that you can handle whatever comes ur way cuz of what you did.... i have done a few things that i regret but when i look back i realise that there is only one way to look... and that is forward.... but i also realise that there are a lot things that i don't regret... i don't regret making the choices that i have made cuz if i hadn't made those choices, i wouldn't have met all the fantastic ppl that i know today... so guys... thanks for being a part of my life....


no regrets... ever....

all hail the four goal hero... haha... in case you're wondering, we played soccer not rugby... so that's one of the reasons i scored four GOALS instead of four TRIES... haha... but four tries would be good too... haha...

the o level students cancelled totally last min... so we couldn't have the match.... so Jamal decided to play soccer with us... to "train our fitness".... haha... riiiight....

well... other than that, the day was kinda normal.... the OGL workshop thingy and all the activities.... had a lot of fun... but i'm sure tired.... hope that i will make the final cut to become an OGL... i need the service hrs... and i really wanna be a part of the orientation expirience again.... but on the other side this time...

its gonna be tight.... fawwaz and i are doing a little something for some episipsy patients on sat.... yupps... this saturday... and we haven't even practiced or discussed wad songs to play... darn....

i was thinking of doing:
-The Drama Summer by The Starting Line
-Eight of Nine by The Ataris
-Looking Back on Today by The Ataris

plus fawwaz has a song he wrote.... hrm.. i think it'll be good....

woah... damn tired now.... OGL workshop thingy today....
literally spent the whole day in sch... haha...
was kinda fun..... but exhausting lar.... tmr will be another tiring day... a match in the morning followed by the OGL thingy....
darn... but it'll be cool...



hey ppl... it's nothing... serious.... dun make it into such a big deal when it is really just one evening.... and nothing is going on okay... so don't do stupid things ar....

hey... so last night wasn't as bad as a lot of ppl expected it to be...
let's face it... nanyang is not exactly the number one action-packed JC in s'pore.... in fact it is really bored.... but i guess last night was quite fun.... had a great time dancing with amanda and got to see boon get pretty stoned... haha.... but in the end, i guess everyone got back home safe and sound....

i seriously have no idea how much boon drank... i myself only had very little to drink... a tequilla shot, vodka and a glass of beer.... the rest of the night was spent talking cock and dancing... haha....

thanks to all the guys that came and the organisers.... had a good time...

so i guess master yoda was right in the end....
fear leads to anger, anger leads to hate, hate leads to suffering...

we were, i was, too intimidated, fearful even, of their size... give them too much respect and to much room to operate....

cuz of that i got angry..... not with anyone... but with myself... my confidence dropped like that first ball that i was supposed to catch...

i hated myself for missing so many tackles.....

in the end, we all suffered a bigger loss... the insult of losing the match by such a large margin added upon the injury of some of our players....



sorry guys... i guess i have a long way to go to become a good fullback....

"Ex-leprosy patients? Not in my eatery"
ST Saturday November 27, 2004
Home Section

have some singaporeans lost all compassion.... have their hearts withered in the face of profiteering.... let me give you the gist of the article... volunteers wanting to bring a group of abt 40 former leprosy patients out for a dinner treat was turned away by more than a dozen restaurants before one restaurant agreed to take them without knowing that they were former leprosy patients....

personally... i'm shocked.... no doubt leprosy has a reputation to be a highly infectious disease... but these people have suffered and are now totally non-infectious.... some of them are in wheelchairs and all bear the tell-tale marks of the disease... lost limbs, missing fingers etc.... but the fact of the matter is, that "once treated, the disease is not infectious"....

the residents of the Singapore Leprosy Relief Association home go out abt three to four times A YEAR but very rarely for a dinner treat like this.... have they not suffered enough with the disease... must they be still cast aside.. out of sight, out of mind?

excuses, excuses, excuses..... one restaurant said that they would not accept the elderly residents because the sight of them will unnerve the other guests.... well... but is that really a good excuse... with a guaranteed group of forty guest, most restaurants shd be able to make up any "losses" due to "unnerved" patrons.....

another bastard said:"'We are running a decent business, not a charity organisation,' he said. 'Let's say it's just too inconvenient. I wouldn't allow them even if you pay me.'"... what a bloody asshole... okie fine... you are not a charity organisation.. you are a businessman... fair enough.... but would you take in a party of forty normal people?? of course wad... so what's the difference... they are paying customers...

haiz... don't think that Singapore has progessed that far as a society... sure money is in a way impt for survival in a city island state like Singapore... you can't ask someone to live off the land in urbanised Singapore... its not like in some parts of the States or something where you can hunt for food.... as such without a doubt, money is necessary in our country... but people have allowed the pursuit of money to become their main goal in life... its not always abt the money ppl.... life is abt a lot of things.... be thankful that you wake up everyday and for most of us, be thankful that you can live out a normal active life.... its time that we did something for those who can't....

dun treat CIP as a mandatory sentence that you have to serve out as a student in Singapore.... look at it in a different light... spending time with some ah pek or ah mah in a nursing home doesn't have to be torture... listening to their life stories can be incredibly interesting.... working with kids with disabilities like the children at MINDS can be fantastically fulfilling... they have soooooo much love to give but some don't have anyone to give it to... you can be that person....

spread the love.... if you are to do something nice for just three people and they each do something nice for another three people, etc, etc, etc, the world will become a much better place for everyone to live in....

tired... so tired... mentally... physically.... just plain tired...

can't seem to get enuf sleep...








its all a facade... dun take me for granted...







feel like locking myself up in a soundproof room and cursing out all my frustration.... all my fatigue... all my inner pains....











war, fighting, bombs... wad purpose do they serve other than to destroy what God has created.... to destroy the lives of innocents.... no matter how advanced weaponry gets, there is no way that civilians will not be affected by them... wars are fought right on their doorsteps... not in some far away battlefield that is totally isolated frm the real world....








why do ppl say that they hate their lives.... what use is it to jump or slash themselves or wadeva... will that help them... their lives can't inprove when THEY'RE DEAD.... death isn't just a fling.. its a permanent affair... you can't go back... when you're alive there is still hope and ways and means of improving your life.... no one is without oppotunities to improve themselves... its just a matter of whether they are strong enough to do something and to go thru with it...







they say that happiness can't be bought... yet one can't live without money....







life is full of contradictions... bear with it...





when two people swear to spend their live together for the rest of their lives, it is a sacred event... it is the union of two souls...










don't go changing yourself trying to please someone.... don't go trying some new fashion... when you fall in love... she/he shd want you just the way you are...





i am the way that i am... there is no way that i can change myself for you... i know that now... i have tried and failed.....

wah lau.... after all the matches were through, we ended up as shield runners-up... there were eight teams... so do the math yourself... haha...

the results don't actually show the whole storey... we played some excellent rugby but we let ourselves down in the last few minutes of each game, letting in some stupid tries....

NY was put into a pretty tough pool... not to make excuses, but our opponents were all physically tougher than us... TP, ITE and SAS...

NYJC vs. TP:
the first eight minutes of the match was all NY... we made many raids into their 22 and had a couple of opportunities within their 5 metres... even had a five metre lineout frm a wonderfully kicked penalty frm fawwaz... we did a short pass to boon to take the crash and set up the pick and drive... abang followed up and then the ref called the penalty against us for holding on... abang had just hit the deck and he made a clear attempt to release the ball but there were some bodies on top of him pressing the ball down... and the ref deemed that as holding on... frm that penalty, our game went all the way downhill and we conceeded the try just before the horn went... haiz... gotta play to the ref lar so bo pian... that was the referee's judgement and we gotta accept that.... wasted match that we could have won against a physically stronger and larger pack...

NYJC vs ITE:
we played an excellent game against the eventual cup finalists.... as the ITE coach said to us after the match was over,"you boys really gave them a run for their money"... not to sound too proud or arrogant, but i think that we seriously under-performed during that match... we again had many ventures into their 22 and we attacked their tryline on a number of occasions.. but we couldn't convert them into tries... in the end another series of penalties gave them a couple of tries.... again we played a good match against a fitter and harder running team... but i doubt all of us put our entire effort into the match and we could have done better...

NYJC vs. SAS:
it's the singapore american school... not the saints... it was supposed to be a revenge match for us and i so wanted the win... not just for revenge but also because it might give us a lifeline to get into the bowl finals... in the end we lost to three tries... the only thing that i was happy abt in the game was that i tackled two of them out of bounds.... first this tall guy frm their senior team then another guy frm their junior team... overall, it was a much improved performance frm the last time that we met them... better play and better defense....




i so desperately wanted to win something for NY rugby... this was our chance to prove that we weren't a pushover team and that we could compete for larger titles in national competitions... we showed our grit by holding such teams as SAS and ITE to a couple of tries and we did show that we could attack as well making several runs at the opposition defense line... but i don't think that it was near enuf and there has to be a lot more work done on our side....

we also lost the shield to SRJC... a match that was more like a training game than an actually competition due to the many bonds btwn the two teams.... congratulations to SR on their win and a big thank you to them for bringing us down to earth... we needed that kind of wake up call... i couldn't do much in that match... we were attacking all the way in the first half and i was taken off towards the end of the first half... so i couldn't do anything abt the penalty try that they scored towards the end.... but they have spoilt NY's 100% win record against them and my motivation for the rest of the trainings is to keep them to that one win...


NYJC'll be back... and trust me... it'll be with a vengence....

so friday's the big day... the M1 ten's at YCK stadium...
for those who are interested, the ten's will start at abt 1530h, with nanyang's first match at 1600h.... it won't be an easy task... with ITE, TP and SAS in the same grp as us it definately will take some willpower to achieve the results that we so desire.... but i believe in our squad... and i think that we can at least bring back some pride after our loss to the americans.... we have seen how they play and i feel that we can counter them this time ard....

training these two days has really been a fantastic learning expirience.... training with the SRJC has been both fun and educational... in the sense that we have enuff players to create a full team run and train in a full match format... instead of playing against air... hopefull that will help improve both nanyang and SR at the same time.... training with a player like linesh(don't know how to spell his name) is really fantastic.... watching how he plays and runs really allows you to learn and gain frm having an experienced player on the field...

played a sort of training match against SR on tues... finally mananged to get a try for nanyang.... down the blindside of a scrum... on the LEFT side of the field summore... haha... duped the whole defense... all due to a exchange of looks btwn me and BX.... shows the value of communication in a match.... hopefully we'll be able to do the same on friday...

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went to go watch the gurls comp after training today at YCK.... they were taking part in the touch comp of the M1 school's series... same series that we're taking part in on friday...

they managed to clinch the plate runners-up in the U17 div and the bowl runners-up in the U20 comp.... not bad gurls... nice going.... congrats to yas....

hope that we can achieve that level of success or better... hopefully higher lar.... haha...








cheers
-bONg-

boring boring boring...
that pretty much sums up my whole week... didn't really do much lar....

i decided to go ahead and get the guitar.... 290 is really too good a price to refuse... at first i went into the shop just to enquire abt the price and i was ready to start bargaining... but the guy really took me by surprise when he told me that it was only 290.... man.. i was totally taken off guard by his offer.. haha...
still gotta wait thou... the last aria he had left was this kinda awful looking wood finish guitar... and i really didn't want it... so i'm waiting for his new stock to come in.... going for a black and white guitar.... super cool nia... haha...

don't know why but i'm really looking forward to the next training.. i guess we have something to prove after the american school match... and i want us to prove ourselves at the M1 ten's next weekend... we have the chance to bring some silverware back to NYJC and i really wanna take full oppotunity of the absence of RJ and AC to win something... there's still gonna be schools like SA, MI and PJ which all have pretty good teams... but whatever it is, i'm hungry for victory... its abt time that we started winning and i know that this team can do it... we have tasted victory and suffered defeat... i don't think that i need to say this, but i like victory better....

hey.. guess what... next year rugby is becoming a core CCA... so they are assigining more teacher's to be in-charge of rugby... guess who's going the rugby management next year.... none other than Mr. Richard Bong a.k.a. ... .. .. my uncle...
damn... haha... guess it'll be kinda fun having him in charge... plus it'll be easier to get things done... haha.. can just call uncle richard... haha...

well.. got nothing esle to say.... no real profound meaning in my post today... just didn't have anything to do...



c ya peeps...

man.. i've always hated americans... but now i hate them even more....
don't really feel like bloggin abt it.... just don't ask me what happened... the events of today have been erased frm my mind... i wanna rmbr what we did right and what we did wrong.... but beyond that, its all out of my mind....

to all asians reading my blog(most of you guys who read my blog are asian right?):
don't ever let some westerner come into your country and tell you what you can or cannot do... and most of all... don't ever let them make you feel inferior and never treat them like they are royalty.... without sounding too nationalist... what i'm saying is that we shd learn frm the mistakes of the past.... the land is ours.... we shd never let some ang mos come in and exploit us... if they come here, they are here to work for us.... NEVER let it be the other way ard....

singapore is a nation governed, inhabited and run by singaporeans.... no matter how screwed up the place is, its OUR home.... its OUR way, or the expressway... i'm not going to use american terminology.... we have expressways, not highways.... i'm singaporean... i have pride in my screwed up country.... i don't live living here... but its home... MY home...

haven't blogged in abt a week... didn't have the inspiration to write anything....
so i didn't....

even now i'm just blogging for the sake of blogging... i don't like leaving my blog idle for too long... scared i might forget abt it... haha... unlikely, but possible...

on the eve of the first round of matches that we've played in a long time, i can humbly admit that i'm nervous... i don't wanna screw up any match and esp not this match... we'll be playing the team frm the Singapore American School and i wanna show some angmos that size ain't a factor when you got the heart... as the no fear t-shirt says:"it isn't the size of the dog in the fight. its the size of the fight in the dog"
and i don't care what happens... i just wanna make sure that those americanas rmbr the nanyang scrumhalf when and if they wake up....

found a good offer on an electric guitar...
$290 for:
-guitar and cable
-15W amp
-guitar bag
-strap
-5 picks
-pick holder

shop owner said it was an Aria... waddya peeps think... i haven't tried out the guitar yet so i have no idea how good it is.... but it's a really good price... for a 290 package i'm not expecting the greatest guitar... but i guess a usable guitar is good enough... but the sound must be up to standard....

i'm going to selegie to check out that shop again and try out the guitar... and also to upper serangoon... there are a couple of music shops along there so i might be able to get a better deal there... i think i'll prob be going on friday or saturday.... anyone interested to follow me give me a buzz...

SIX DEGREES OF SEPARATION....


there is a theory that every person on the big blue earth can be connected to another person by no more than six degrees of separation.... they aren't talking abt the physical definition of degrees... protractors don't have a part in this theory... they are talking abt friends of friends... if you have used friendster before you'll know what degrees they are talking abt...

just hypothetically..... if everybody in the world knew 100 different people each....

1st degree friends = 100
2nd degree friends = 100x100
3rd degree friends = 100x100x100
4th degree friends = 100x100x100x100
5th degree friends = 100x100x100x100x100
6th degree friends = 100x100x100x100x100x100 = 1,000,000,000,000 friends = A LOT OF PPLE

considering that i know a lot more than 100 people both family and friends, the number of 6th degree friends will just keep growing and growing with every new person that i meet...

so if every person in the world in the world are friends of friends(to a certain power) why is there still so much animousity amongst the people sharing this planet together... we have not advanced far enough to be able to travel to and live on another planetary body and we probably will never be able to in our lifetimes... so why can't people realise that there isn't going to be a restart button which we can press and the world will come back to the way it used to be...

there is really no such thing as a entirely renewable resource... eventually everything will sooner or later be used up.... fossil fuel resources seemeed to be inexhaustable a few decades ago... but now... scientists estimate it will only last for another fifty++ yrs... are we really that selfish to use up all that we have now and give our children a barren desolate world...

guns, WMD, navy warships, tanks, aircraft of war.... all wonders of human constuction... but consider... what is man's work compared to that of the Creator.... the air that we breathe, the water that we drink, the food that we eat, the animals that hop, run, swim and fly about the earth... that is something that man cannot create... and through such weapons they are destroying what He has made....

Six degrees... within six degrees i might know a guy called Anders frm Sweden or a Sarah from the States or Jacque frm France or Dimitri frm Russia... isn't it fascinating... within six degress i might even know the men that flew airliners into building over three years ago... i might even know the person sitting in Row D of the plane or the person sitting in her cubicle in the building doing her daily "chores" when the liner crashed into the towers.... it is saddening to see people dileberately killing each other of no real purpose... would killing those people grant them their demands... would killing themselves with bombs strapped to their bodies in the middle of crowded marketplaces grant their desires...

Six degrees... would the knowledge that everyone in the world is connected by no more that six degrees prevent these "men" from carrying out the task they so fervently wish to carry out.... i doubt so...

will there ever be lasting peace on our planet... i'm not talking abt "ceasefires" or "dialogues"... i'm talking abt true lasting peace... not the flower power kind... but peace as in the definition of the word... harmony in personal relations...

if the people of the world cannot accept the ways of another people, is it too much to ask if they could just be tolerant and accepting of their differences and learn to live with each other side by side....


if only it could be so....

class pics that i took last thurs are now up on mah blog....
look to the left under the "Mug Shots" section and the pics are under 04S4B....



TO MY CLASS 04S4B.....
haiz... my wonderful, fastastic, beautiful, marvellous, divine, immaculate, sensational, swell, amazing, stupendous (i could write down alot more adjectives but i don't really wanna waste your time reading it) class....
its been a really briliant year that i have spent with you guys... even thru wadeva difficulties that have come up within the past year, i think we have come out of it as a class...



TO MY LIBRARY STUDY PALS...
loba, peiwen, yeesiong, and all the rest that stayed back to study in the library before the exams.... it was really a great time studying together... and the breaks we had frm studying were fun too... haha... and it was really a privilege to share secrets with you guys... i think that it really strengthened the bond between us....



TO MY PW GRP... NY118....
NY118.... me, kitlam, baoling, peiwen and xiemin... it was such an enriching experience working with you guys... we did a lot faking here and there but we mananged to get our project finished.... in a way its sad that PW is over cuz we won't be able to meet (and slack) like we used to... the only thing that i can thank PW for is the oppotunity to get to know such great people and if i had to go back and change anything, i doubt that i would change a single thing.... thanks you guys...



TO THE RUGGERS....
hey you guys... its november... in abt five months time we'll be playing the A divs... we have really come a long way as a team... we might not be as big or skilled as teams frm AC, SA, or RJ... but i swear we'll make them work for every single point they get... and i want them to remember the NYJC rugby team as a team that fights as hard as bulldogs.... we came into rugby to achieve something... to bring back something, if not for the sch then for ourselves... we have a clear goal and we have a mission to accomplish.... i know that we can do it but there is still a long road ahead.... let's bring something back and make jamal, mr tan and mr foo proud...



TO MY FRIENDS THAT WILL BE REDOING YR ONE.....
i wish with my whole heart that you guys could join us for the graduation party next year... i just want you guys to know that although we might not see each other everyday like we did this year, i'll still be there standing by ya to provide support and companionship... continue to work hard next year and i wanna see ya guys on the honour roll next year k... haha... lurve ya peeps...


TO MY TOUCH RUGBY SISTERS....
ning, eileen, irene etc.... hey there.... ning and eileen... thnx for letting my dump my worries and stresses onto you guys... its been such a great time getting to know you guys.... thanks for all the good time....





it that time of year again.... the time when Vitamin C's "Graduation: Friends Forever" will be storming the airwaves... every radio station seems to be playing that song... they always bring the CD out of storage at this time of year.....
the A's and O's are coming for the JC2s and the Sec4s respectively.... whichever, A or O, it represents a turning point in a teenager's life...
the question eating at the Sec4s... which course to take in poly? or which JC shd i go to? both weigh heavily in their minds.... for the JC2s.... the thought of going into the uni or the looming prospect of NS shadows over them...
even at the primary sch level.... PSLE and the posting... which sec sch to go to....

whichever level you look at, all three examinations come with changes... new faces, new school, different environments to cope with.... i went into peicai with just a small handfull of pple frm serangoon garden south sch (my pri sch) and came out with many close brothers and sisters.... i went into NYJC with only a few pple that i knew and now have such wonderful pple like my class and the ruggers which i can call my second family.....

God has really blessed me by bringing such fantastic pple frm SGSS, peicai as well as NYJC into my life... i don't thank Him often enough for all the blessings that He bestows upon me... its incredicle how when you look back at your life you notice how many things He has done for you without you even realising.... i can't imagine what my life would be like if i had taken a different path in life... He lead me down this particular path to allow me to experience the magical pple that i have met and to enjoy their friendships.... pple like Mrs Juliana Er frm Peicai and Mrs Chong frm NYJC have really had pretty profound impacts on my life and studies and i doubt i would have even met them without the help of His guiding hand.....







to all the fabulous people that i have met.... thank you and God bless

i don't care what adidas says...
the existance of impossibilties are not as absurd as they make it out to be....
there are things in this world that was not intended to be and things that shd never happen...
it's not the most optimistic way of looking at this...
but what can i do....



i just need to listen to something loud like union underground or something.... something really metal.... to numb my mind.... to get my mind off thinging too much... i'm blasting my speakers now.... dun really care if my grandfather complains or wadeva....

screw the world....

its truely amazing how fast the week flew by... totally amazing... yest bbq was preety okay i guess... not as many people turned up... but we did manage finish most of the makan.... either we ate ALOT or we underestimated to amt of food to get.... mrs chong managed to come over and we all had a good time.... took a few photos.... etc etc etc....

stayed at lorbah's house last night.... drank a bit, play mahjong, talk cock.... haha... that peiwen ar.... stay up until so late nia... still can call to chit chat with us.... haha.... kaoz... but we had a good time there... only left the house at abt 9 plus... got back at 10.... fell asleep and didn't wake up until 5... haha.. i guess my dad expected it lah... so didn't chao me the whole day.... had a bit off a headache when i woke up.... hrm... i guess a little alcohol goes a long way... dammit...but it was damn fun hanging out with them the whole night...

hrm... on a different note... i gave her the present yesterday... didn't really say much to her... just hope that she liked it, that's all.... don't think that i have much hope lah... don't know what to do... caught in the middle...
but somethings aren't meant to be, i guess... maybe this is just one of the things that wasn't ever supposed to happen... wish that there could be more between us... but being friends is still good.. right?

convincing myself that that is true is a totally different thing...

wad the f***... its one of those days... i don't wanna use any vulgarities.... but really i think that this whole week has just been a major nightmare... i've got a splitting headache that isn't really helping my mood... i just need slp... i can't function efficiently with it... there are some ppl that can go a couple of days without sleep.... well.. i'm not one of them....

my f****** computer is acting up... my winamp is not playing my playlists properly, powerpoint is f***** up, bill gates can go suck some trannie's dick, OP rehearsals are up tmr.... f*** it all....

i'm really trying my best not to curse.... but my feet are killing me... this is the first time i've sat down since i left peiwen's house.... which was at abt 1... my back is giving me crap.... i've got a blister on my left foot... aching muscle begging for sleep.... and i still have to do f****** PW....

i know it isn't right to complain... no matter how f***** up my situation may seem there will always be a person in the world waaaaay worse off than me... but i don't see the point in creating stress for yourself... PW... wad the f***.. its just some crap subject that we have to do.... could have been alot more interesting... but i guess i just have no interest in the topic that we did, and also that it was just conducted in the worse way possible...

not even my favourite songs can improve my mood.... waking ashland, nicole nordeman, amy grant, the starting line.... they have all failed to do anything other than make my head throb even more.... argh....

on a slightly more positive note... we got the gigantic pooh bear for Mrs Chong, currently in storage at pei pei's house.... and i got pris' present.... hope she'll like it... hope i'll have the chance to give it to her.... hope that she'll come on friday....



i truely wish that she'll come.....

there is no one else but her....

so friday's the big day... on so many different levels...

firstly the release of promo results... that's when we'll find out who got retain if any at all.. i'm hoping for the best and that all the people close to me get pushed into J2.. and i'm praying for her.... praying that nothing spoils her birthday.... praying that she receives the new that she wants to hear... and there is still guo hui and boon... i know those two guys can do it if they want to... i guess this year wasn't really that fruitful for them... but next year'll be much better if they continue working like they did just before the promos.... i hope their tutors can see the effort and hard work that they put in... anyway... the bbq on friday is supposed to be for us to forget the worries of sch and to have fun as a class.... not something that we have really done....

and i think that i might ask her on friday... at the bbq... no further details to be given at this moment...

this week is going to be soooo packed for me... and the rest of Nanyang JC too lah... here's my schedule....

TUESDAY
- Go collect Winnie the Pooh soft toy of mrs chong at Citylink Mall
- Go buy pris and pam's prezzies
- Training at 5 in sch
- Brush up OP

WEDNESDAY
- OP rehearsal
- Buy groceries for BBQ on friday

THURSDAY
- Prepare chicken wings for friday
- Training at 5

FRIDAY
- Go to Pei's house to set up, etc

and i'll be having make up PE on either thurs or fri after sch.... sian 1/2

but its gonna be a good week... i feel it in my bones....

Shit... Was talking to BX just now after training.... He said that it might be hard for her to get thru clearly... haiz... Totally worried sick...

haiz... I can't stand the stupid school for putting the results release day on her birthday... Wad the hell... Serious.... Why couldn't they set it on another day... Crap school....





Cry me a river, build a bridge, and get over it.... a saying that applies to everything in life... Its a bit cynical but its true.... There is no point in cry over something that has happened in the past and is OVER... Pick yourself up and get over it....




for those that didn't do as well as they wanted for promos, relax... There is still next year...

for those that did better than expected or got the results they were hoping for, congrats.... Give urself a pat on the back but just one pat, not too many.... More work is going to be coming up and no one can afford to rest on their laurels...

dammit.... results are coming in one by one..... i guess i didn't do that badly....
i failed physics by just one mark so hopefully they will moderate that into an AO pass.... keep ya fingers crossed for me okay.... totally flunking a test is alright i guess.... but failing it by one miserable mark is really annoying.... haha...

i managed a D for econs.... missed the C by two marks.... bloody hell... why am i missing all my grades by a few marks.... i'm really pissed abt econs.... cuz i really worked for it... and i only got a lousy D.... shite...

actually, i'm not really worried abt myself... i did those papers so i know what kinda grades i'll probably get... i'm more worried for her... i don't wanna anything happen to her and i don't ever wanna see her sad.... i don't think that she is really very happy with her results... but she doesn't show it... i pray everyday for her.... hope she can get the grades that she wants and the grades that she needs....

her birthday is going to be on the day that the school is releasing the promo results.... screw the school... can't they have picked any other day.... why must it be on that day.... i'm praying that nothing happens to spoil her special day... we'll most likely know most of our results by then... but it is still traumatic to see it on paper in black and white i guess....

mrs chong said today in class that our class shdn't have any problems... i'm hoping that what she says is true.... i want all my classmates and all my teachers back next year.... and i esp want mrs chong to teach us econs... she's soooooo great.... she's the only teacher that i feel i want to do well for and study for... she said that we shd study for ourselves and not for anyone else.... but she gives me the drive to study so that i don't disappoint her.... i really don't wanna let her down and that is one of the reasons that i managed to study for the bloody promos....

heard frm a reliable source that she might not be teaching our class next year cuz of the stupid dragon year.... wad the hell... just cuz ppl get horny and want more kids during dragon year, we may have to sacrifice our darling mrs chong.... bloody hell...

but... we'll see how it goes... she may not have to go... and all 28 of us frm 04S4B may be able to stay tgr next year.... i'm hoping for the best....
hopefully God will take care of the rest....

So the promos are over. I made a promise to myself to tell her after the promos. But after a day like yesterday I don't know if I really shd. My day yesterday was really just spent trying to avoid speaking to her. I guess its cuz of the awkward moment in the tp kfc. Its like everyone pushed us onto one table. Not that I didn't want to sit with her but I don't like things when they are forced. Dudes and dudettes, it's not that I don't appreciate what you guys were intending to do but I'm not that kinda person. I guess I don't like the feeling of being forced to do something. And I don't want her to be pushed. Ya know wad I mean.
so f****** pissed with myself now. I shdn't have just totally ignored her like that.

listening to Adam sandler's grow old with you. Man, it is really a corny song. But it is sorta meaningful. Wanting to grow old with the girl of your dreams. That's a dream come true.

went to the esplanade last night with some of my classmates. *sighs* wish she could have been there. It's amazing how different and amazing the s'pore skyline can be at night. And there was a bit of a slight haze that hung over the nightsky that made everything abit blurred. Beautiful.

and I wish I had my cam there. there were so many absolutely brill shots wanting to be taken.

life is always confusing. There is never a standard way about things and something unexpected will always come up. Live with it

total and utter boredom.... i have no idea what to do now....
i don't wanna go out cuz i need to save up some cash, tv is boring, there is noone online and the skin on my left hand's fingers are peeling so bad that i can't play my guitar...

actually i'm supposed to be working on my bike right now.... but feel to lazy too lah.... i think i'll do it tonight when its cooler.... damn... kawasaki ar... just so that i can remove the fuel tank i gotta take off the all the side panels and the whole seat.... dammit... and the bleeding fuel tank has a crack that i need to repair.... haha... but why am i doing all this crap... cuz i LOVE my bike... its really a rocket with wheels... haha... on that small 800cc two-stroke i can keep up with a big 400cc four-stroke on beach sand summore... haha.. totally awesome fella...

i haven't riden my bike in about a year.... hell, that's a long time... i took some time off riding to study for O's... and the promos but now its time to bring it out and smoke some yahyah payayas... haha...

quite sad... the beach where we used to race in sentosa is now being converted into a gigantic car park.... screw them man.... scratch off one great place to ride.... my favourite ever place to ride is still loyang.... that was where i first learnt to ride on the mini 50cc... then graduated to the XR100 which was really just an off-road play bike... but i rode it to the ground... haha.. i really killed it... after the XR died, my dad bought over the KX80... woohoo.... the inanimate love of my life...

but loyang has since been closed and grown over by weeds and lalang... and the land is lying unused.... man... if the govt was so concerned about land conservation they would use up all the available land right... but do they.... NOOOO... so why can't they just allow us to use it.... if we are allowed to get our thrills off-road, "bikers" won't have to get them on the road.... haha.. so if you look at it in my wicked way, more tracks=safer roads...

there used to be a track at yishun too... that's when i had many great battles with my cousin when i was on the XR and he was on the KTM 65SX... then i moved on to the 80 which is really in a diff class.... and yishun got closed... so that's another chapter closed... damn....

extreme sports in s'pore is really suffocating... some time ago i read a headline "S'pore on the World Map of Extreme Sports"... hah!! i almost choked on my breakfast laughing... that headline couldn't be more full of crap.... just a year ago they banned the Asian X tour frm coming down to S'pore cuz there was an accident where i think the guy died.... comm'on.... things like this happens in extreme sports... i've had had my fair share of spills.... i once tried to cross this puddle at the yishun track that was a lot deeper than i thought it was and the whole bike flew over me... i was going full throttle in top gear down the straight that the puddle was on and endo-ed... the endo took the bike right over me and i landed face first on the ground where i stayed for a couple of minute, totally winded... my cousin can shift one of his ribs in and out.... my other cousin had a bike land on her and she still got up and is still riding... and she was like in pri three or something at the time... the point of extreme sports is to do some pretty whacked up stuff and survive it...

instead the Xtour has gone to KL and its really booming there... man they had some FMXers last year and they brought the house down.... shite... and they are bringing up so much young talent...

man... life will be so good if we could just have one really good track that was OURS... not just a vacant piece of land... but OUR land... that'll be the tops... we could build our own jumps and carve some really solid burms.... and we could ride there like every weekend and organise some races... haha... then i can burn more ppl...

well.. anyway... i have in a way gotten rid of my boredom for a couple of minutes by writing this post... but now i gotta figure out what to do for the rest of the day... darn...

well.. c ya kiddos...

What a final it was at turf city. Final score 16-13 to the San Miguel Wanderers who successfully defended their cup title after losing the league to the Brewerkz Bucks.
A try early on in the game on the left side was comfortably converted by Marcus Blackburn. A penalty later in the half was again duly scored by Blackburn to bring the score to 10-0.

In the second half, the Bucks staged a good comeback with a well worked try through the fullback which was converted and penalty to tie the game. Scrumhalf Peter Jones seemed to be having a good game managing to match Blackburn's 2 for 2 kicking percentage. There were to be no tries for the rest of the game but penalties proved to be the turning point in the match.

The Wanderers' Marcus Blackburn managed to convert two penalties into points on the scoreboard while Peter Jones chalked up one more for the challengers to the trophy to bring the score to 16-13 to the wanderers.

Late on in the game, a good spell of pressure from the Bucks combined with several errors from the Wanderers resulted in the Bucks being awarded two penalties in good kicking positions. But the pressure of the cup finals got to scrumhalf Peter Jones and he missed both penalties, one hitting the left upright and the next hitting the right upright. Although much accuracy is needed to accomplish such a feat, points are only awarded for penalties that go between the post and above the crossbar. Effectively, the two missed penalties lost the game for the bucks as the final whistle went just after the second missed opportunity to signal the end of the game. As Peter Jones sunk to his knees, the Wanderers and their supporting fans rose to their feet to celebrate the victory. The Bucks will have to wait til next season to try and match the Wanderers feat of the domestic double that the Wanderers achieved last season.

Mohd Jamal came on midway through the second half as the fullback and had an uneventful final although he would be happy to bring the championship medal back home to his new son.

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okay.... enough for the corny match report.... it really was a good final lah... damn exciting.... really close and the drama at the end was fantastic... haha....

but san miguel really robbed me... fiftenn bucks for three lousy cans of beer.... damn... and i gave one to boon.... damn... haha... oh well... there is still next year's sevens to look forward to...

ITS OVER!!!! its finally over... the single most impt event of the year is finally over.... the autopsy will be in in a couple weeks.... and that is when i find out if the slacking i did for most of the year really did as much damage as i thought it did... hopefully not....

the physics was a killer... really... i guess i didn't really prepare much for it... most of my time was spent on econs and maths.... econs is really my best hope for an a lvl pass right now.... i think that maths is a possibility... but there is still my mid year results... and that'll pull my maths really far down....

there's a lot of stuff lined up for the holidays.... most of it has to do with rugby.... training training and more training.... there isn't really much to worry abt now... other than PW and that'll be over in a few weeks time.... we've got a trip to m'sia lined up, combining with SRJC's rugby team to play a few m'sian teams....

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here comes all the hot stuff for the folk who like a bit of gossip.... its the end of the promos... so i guess it's time to take action.... bit i guess i didn't strike when the iron was hot.... was talking to lorbah... and he said that i shd just ask her... at the most she say no and we be friends... right... right? yeah...

so i'll do that... i mean i guess i'll never really know what she'll say until i ask her right...

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i don't really have much to blog abt... just felt that i shd probably go online and do something since the promos are over and i don't need to study le... haha...
kinda bo liao.... but that's how i am....

there's no cure for the disease.... so you just have to live with it....

the promos are almost over... just two more days before everyone can start breathing properly again... but not for long.... got OP prep to do... argh... pw really just sucks lah....

i'm very proud of myself for finishing the chinese paper on tues..... i'll prob screw it up and get another 'F' to add to my collection but at least i attempted it... i don't think i would have even tried to do the paper if it wasn't for the words of someone that i know... and i owe wad ever marks i get to her...

maths... haiz... maths.... at least i can say that i have had definite improvement frm the mid years.... but it was amazing..... it was the fastest three hours of my life.... i can't believe that the time flew by so fast.... couldn't believe it.... its like... i glanced up at the clock at abt 8.15am, half an hour frm the start of the paper.... wad seemed like a few moments later, miss tian suddenly goes,"One hour left"... wad da hell... and i still had the last three qns to do... and they are the ones worth the most marks.... argh!!!

haiyah... wadeva it is... it's over shdn't think abt it anymore....

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Life is gonna be so good after the promos and the OP is all over.... man... frm that time onwards it's gonna be rugby, rugby, rugby... i've cut myself off totally frm rugby these past few weeks just to mug.... and i can't stand it anymore....
I.... Need... Rugby.... argh!!

we'll be combining with SRJC to go on a "tour" of m'sia.... i guess jamal is organising a couple of matches for us to play.... woah... i think it'll be really tough... but i wanna play... and i wann win... i'm thirsty for victory... damn...

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when the burning sensation of the sun's unbearable heat bears down on my naked back as i search for a place of refuge and shelter....
only to find my salvation in the One person that can truely give me rest and lift the cumbersome burdon of my sin off my aching body full of sores frm the load that i carry through my mortal life....

Man today was quite a nightmare..... My hand is begging for mercy.... Towards the end of my econs paper I swear it was starting to cramp up.....
but.... Overall I guess it wasn't that bad.... I wrote the longest essay for econs that I have ever wrote.... EVER.... Serious.... But I doubt that the quantity will make up for its poor quality..... The "feeling", as rus puts it, wasn't really there today... I think I'll have enough feeling to pass it....
hrm... I guess I'm kinda missing the class already... Its only know that you really appreciate the time spent together as a class.... Not to sound too mushy... But I really like this class... Super fun.... Super funky.... And full of really fantabulistically wonderful shiny happy people..... Okay... So there is no such word as fantabulistical.... But I couldn't really find a better word to describe them....

plus there's HER.... You guys who really know me shd know who SHE is.... Man.... I can't help talking about her.... Of all the gurls that I have known in my life, she's the nicest of all of them... There is no comparison to the rest.... The rest weren't really up to her standard.... She's so pleasant and sweet.... Never frowns.... She's not petty... And her major draw is that she's so unlike me... haha.... Well it's true... I'm a bastardly guy who will really dao ppl if I don't like them... I curse will almost every sentence that comes out of my mouth.... haiz... Trying to cut down on the cursing now.... Control my lad.... Its a virtue....

hope that someday she'll see something in me.... I want to be the perfect gentleman for her... And gadammit I'm trying my best...

haiz.... promos.... What the hell... I think that if I get retained I'd wanna go to poly... I have discovered a new passion... That is photography... I'm a totally under-talented guy trying to express my views without an easel and brush....
most of you shd know how badly my art sucks..... Serious.... I couldn't draw anything even if my life depended on it... Photography allows me to capture my visions and sights thru a lens that I couldn't do otherwise.... The lens allows me to share what I see without having to struggle to even sketch my ideas.... Check out some of the stuff that I have taken in my gallery... Some of the stuff is really crap lah... But I'll really proud of some of my pictures.... Such as the one that I took of a wire figure of Jesus... That was really inspired by the Man upstairs... And I thank him for it...

well... For those studying for the promos.... Remember this... Its no point to aim to just pass....

Shoot for the moon... Even if you miss, you'll land among the stars.

good night and God bless

woah.... psych... for the first time in over four years i got a children's day holiday.... didn't have to go to sch... but it wasn't much of a holiday cuz in the back of your mind you knew that monday was the big promos.... hrm... actually i did do quite a lot of studying.... went to toa payoh library to study with pris, her sis and their fren.... i did like six straight hours of maths.... equals two promo papers... so you can guess i'm pretty proud of myself for accomplishing that....

i slacked for most of the weekend... okay... i'll be truthful... i slacked for the whole weekend... hehe... oops...

had dinner with my mom's side of the family yest.... gwen jie came back frm australia and brought her aussie b/f back with her... nice guy.... quite shy lah... cuz my family can be quite intimidating.... my aunties are all quite well-built and laugh really loud... so i guess it'll be quite a man to come and meet our family and get thru it unscathed.... haha... actually that's exaggerating lah... their super funny ppl... you can really laugh out loud when you sit down and talk with them...

we brought him to eat at a coffee shop at havelock rd which has really good makan... then went to the west coast mac cafe for dessert.... woah.... eat until really full...

well.... after all's said and done... the fact that the promos will be starting tmr cannot be denied.... can't push it under the carpet and forget abt it... cuz it's there and that's it....

the first day will be a real killer.... GP, which is a three hr paper requiring you to write until ur hand pops off, and econs paper 3, which is the essay paper also requiring the sacrifice of your hand.... haiz... wad to do...

well... before i go... here's a damn funny one liner...




What goes 'clip-clop, clip-clop, clip-clop, BANG'?



An Amish drive-by shooting.




cheers ppl.... happy studying....

singaporean democracy.... hah... what a joke....
Mr. LEE Hsien Loong... the new leader of a democratic state.... erm... correct me if i'm wrong... but i don't remember the people electing him.... hrm... maybe its my memory...


NOT!!!


democracy:: government by the people; especially : rule of the majority
by definition of merriam-webster dictionary

the singaporean method of election of the prime minister is through selection of the members of parliment(which doesn't exactly make up the majority of the population) and in the case of Mr. Lee a letter of recommendation from the former-Prime minister Goh Chok Tong.... so where did the "government by the people" part come into the picture....

although it is true that we have a say in who can become a member of parliment, we do not have a say in who they assume to be our choice of prime minister.... isn't it strange that the most established, better financed, seemingly invincible party always comes out tops.... there is no room for smaller parties to come into singaporean politics and they wonder why fewer singaporeans want to join politics.... look at what happened to the last few singaporeans who decided to oppose the ruling party... they went bankrupt and had to leave the country into asylum in malaysia.... the msg that they are sending is: "it's my way, or the north-south highway..."

now with that kind of governance the only way that you're going to get anywhere in singapore politics is if you become a democractic socialist or if you happen to have the surname LEE....

it's true that systems of election like the american electorial process is hard to implement for the inherent problem that singapore has... a small population... the small voting pool means that results may vary and the true average of the opinions of the singaporean people may not be accurately and precisely measured.... and the problem of having to change singapore's constitution makes it even more difficult to implement... but there has to be a way for more singaporeans to become more active in the way that their home is being ruled...

the problem here is not that singaporean do not want to help improve their society by going into politics but the fact that they can't when the government is as rigid as it is now.....

politics is a distorted unclear environment where one is governed by what other people think of you... but it has become a inseparable part of modern life....

gotta bear with it...

woah. I just found this song by starting line called hold on. Its such a brilliant song. Simple yet beautiful. Just a piano and a guitar. And soulful lyrics.



Hold on by The Starting Line
Her life was more than mine
Like a proud shooting star into the night
She crashed through the airways and ripped like a knife
It was a bad disease
Her searching was over, over

Hold on to the light that guides you
Hold on to the air that cools you
Hold on, hold on to me

Her mind stead fast through time
Her family stood by trying hard not to cry
With patience and virtue kept strong through the night, whoa
She never fell to her knees
Her searching was over, over

Hold on to the light that guides you
hold on to the air that cools you
Hold on, hold on to me
Hold on to the light that guides you
hold on to the air that cools you
Hold on, hold on

And Then my eyes stretched out as I saw her hand slip away

(instrumental break)

Hold on to the light that guides you
Hold on to the air that cools you
Hold on, hold on to me
Hold on to the light that guides you
Hold on to the air that cools you
Hold on, hold on to me
To me, To me, hold on to me



Its really beautiful. Its like the person singing the song is sad yet willing to give the support to someone that he loves.
It is hard to really fully comprehend the true inspiration for the song, but each one of us can take a different interpretation of the words. I feel that the song is a promise that he makes to her. He says that she when she needs someone she can hold on to him. For comfort and for strength. And that he will always be there for her. He wants to be the light to guide her through time of darkness and be the air to comfort her in her times of difficulty. Even as she slips away he still stays strong as an anchor for her to hang on to in the storm.
I pray for the strength to be that kind of man.
And I pray that I will be able make that kind of promise for her.....

hey..... finally i can post frm home again.... how nice....

so today was the LEAP carnival "signing-up" day.... in the spur of the moment i signed up for three events... the rugby place-kicking challenge, the ICS floorball thingy and the guitar club's band comp..... argh.... just realised that i shd have checked the times for all the comps... i just found out that the guitar club's thing is at 0830h while the rugby kicking is at 0740h... omg.... its gonna be tight.... but i think can make it lah... i still don't know what time is the floorball thing too...

ten days more.... my maths sucks.... twenty-one topics to go thru.... and i'm still sitting here typing... i'd say i'm pretty much screwed.... i think i'll be able to make it thru just by a bit..... i think i'm banking quite a lot on my econs... it has out of the blue become my best subject... i'm pretty amazed with some of the stuff that i know... and thought i wouldn't know... haha....

gotta go.... studying again... argh....
c ya guys after the promos...

argh.... there is something wrong with my computer again... i can't type anything into the space that you're supposed to type your post into... i'm now in the sch library typing this post....
i haven't posted anything for almost a week plus le... doubt many ppl read my blog anyway... but i miss writing...

so the promos are drawing nearer... 18 days at the last count.... my preparation has been going quite well... supposed to be doin pw now... stupid thing.. hate it sia.... that stupid bao ling oso staring over my shoulder... oh yeah.. and pei wen too... so kay poh nia...
actually... there is nothing much to talk about... but i just wanted to type...hehe.. oops...

my dad's been nagging again... he wants me to go and work out a work schedule etc and sit down and show him.... wateva lah... i'd rather do things the way that works with me.... making a scehdule etc doesn't really help me cuz i don't really stick to it... if he just left me alone to do my thing i think that it will be much more productive... i did it for o levels i'll do it again for promos and the "a"s....

i haven't really been in a good mood past few days.... i just don't feel right.... i don't know what exactly is wrong... but its not normal... had a good chat with ah ning yesterday on MSN and managed to get some stuff off my chest... i'm not the type to go all mushy and talk about feelings and all that crap... but sumtimes i need ta let off some steam... wad de hell.....

can't really think of sumthing to write on today... maybe the inspiration'll come tmr...

til then...
cheers

haiz... 26 days left... that's the official countdown... i don't know which is more worrying.... getting stressed over the promos or not getting stressed when you know that you shd be... i think i'm sumwhere in btwn the two... at least i have started some form of revision..... managed to sit down today with lorbah and mrs chong... so nice of her to sacrifice her time to stay back after the lecture to let us clarify our doubts etc.... but i don't think that is still enuf to get me thru cleanly.....

wah lau... that reminds me... me and lorbah did a really dumb thing last sat.... we were in the library studying when we decided to go out of the library for a walk..... we went downstairs and sat with some of his CO frens to chat.... after we went back to the library to find the lights off and the doors locked.... wah lau.... damn sian... we went ard the whole sch trying to look for someone with the key.... but no one had it... in the end we contacted mrs chong and she helped us get miss koh (the HOD for PE/CCA) to open the library with the spare key.... mrs chong was willing to come back to sch frm SMU to open the library for us.... but luckily they had a spare key so she didn't have to come all the way back.... big thank you to mrs chong and miss koh....
lorbah and i have learnt our lesson.... haiz...

learnt how to play "she will be loved" by maroon 5 over the weekend.. its actually a pretty easy song to play... but is still sounds so nice... esp the words... very meaningful... they're one of the few rock bands that get radio airtime in s'pore that i listen to... most of the stuff on the airways is actually total crap.....
maroon 5 actually are quite a dorky bunch of nerds.... no disrespect.... but that's what they look like... but its kinda cool that they don't care what people think of them and still go out and play super songs.... i guess i'm to concerned abt what ppl think of me to go out and do that kinda stuff...

got some ideas on what to get her for her birthday yesterday... won't tell ya ppl yet.... only a few ppl will know what i intend to buy until i actually give it to her.... hope she'll like it though.... i'm stuck btwn two options now but i've got some time to think abt it....

well... to all the sept babies that i know... happy birthday.....
and a happy new year.....

'nuff said

its twelve o'clock and all's not well in the world....
the hostage crisis in russia, the continuing war in iraq, the rebuilding of afganistan....
man-made problems that can only be solved by man himself..... but what if man doesn't want to solve it..... do money hungry politians really care what happens to the people and children in war torn nations..... do the people of wealthy nations really think about how their actions affect their neighbours in less developed nations....

as i type this post, i'm reflecting and looking into myself to see if i really care myself.... or am i just another person who likes to talk but is not willing to actually do anything.... i really think that what is happening in the world is wrong... but i don't know where to start helping or if i'll really want to give up my comfortable life to go help in places that need the manpower....

just tonight, news came thru about a hostage taking in a russian school by seperatist rebels..... after it all, an estimated 150 people including many children were dead.... how can such cowards expect to get sympathy for their cause by taking children hostage..... the only thing that they are doing is really showing the world what useless bastards they are..... i can't help using some vulgarity to describe them... cuz they really do not deserve anything better.....

the texas cowboy.... for those who do not know who that is.... he's the current war monger in charge of the biggest nation in the world.... BUSH..... the right thing for the wrong reasons.... getting rid of saddam was prob the smartest thing that any amercian president has done... but by creating an excuse to invade Iraq and going against the UN, he is letting the ends justify the means.... and is that really the kind of guy that we want in charge of the most influencial country on the beautiful blue earth.... currently the opposition candidate for presidency, john kerry, is getting the popularity vote just because of the "anyone but bush" sentiment that is speading ard the country..... again we see a war president seemingly heading out of office after just one term.....

hopefully kerry will be able to take care of his people much better than bush has..... but the problem is... if he's gonna come in just because no one else wants bush back then can we really be sure that he'll be the president that he claims to be....

politics.... simple yet confusing.... taking advantage of human emotions.....

let me sign off by saying:"You cannot simultaneously prevent and prepare for war."
think about it.....

yup yup yup..... bong's blog ver 3.0 has just been released..... complete with photo gallery, tag board and link to all my fav sites.... cool huh..... plus there are alot of cool little stuff in the site.... for instance...... put ur curser over this: http://bleedingchickenhead.blogspot.com .... and voila... the link'll turn upside down... i think that its really funky.... damn cool.... and i like the pic of my phone on the top left hand corner of the blog.... quite cool if i may say so myself... haha....

so the promos draw near.... i think there is little more than a month left....hopefully i'll be able to make it thru.... but it'll be just as tough when i get to J2.... i'll have to mug alot more to make up for the slacking i did this year... haiz..... what to do... i can't get back the time that i wasted slacking... so i gotta pay back my debt.....

been debating whether i shd tell her that i really like her alot.... i kinda wanna tell her and get it off my chest.... but alot of ppl are telling me to be patient and wait a bit more.... in my gut that's what i think i shd do too.... but it's like my chest is bursting frm this big open secret that i have to keep... haha.. i guess it's an open secret that i like her... first of all.. it is kinda obvious.... second.... ppl have been talking... and i guess that it shd be apparent to any thinking human being that i would like to be more than just frens with her.... patience my lad.... patience.....

my patience and time, however, is running out for PW..... no... not pei wen.... project work.... it really sucks.... hate it sia.... and as if it wasn't stressful enuf, we had to get ah leong for a PW tutor.... she's a nice person.... but it's just that she is particularly fussy yet slack at the same time.... i know it sounds strange.... but it is very hard to describe the situation.... she wants our projects to be as spotless as possible(who doesnt').... but she isn't making our job easy.... she gave back our first draft of our written report on monday and wanted the second draft on friday.... with only three days to work on it and alot to do in the three days, the job is next to impossible.... not to mention the lack of research that our grp appears to have.... dammit.... got a lot of work to do.....

well... i guess i better get started on that work..... c ya peeps.....

addicted.....

man... what can i say... i think i'm addicted to her.....
girls... can't live with them but can't live without them too.....

can't seem to get my mind off her.... she is the nicest gal that i have met in NY and i've been here for almost 8 months.... so that says alot about what i think of her... i have not seen her get angry before even with all the lame stuff that we tease her about..... nor have i seen her in a bad mood.... she is perpetually happy.... maybe that's why i like her the way i do.... when she's happy, i feel happy.... and since she's always happy, den i'm always happy.... and i like being happy....

but somehow i don't think that we can ever be together.... i don't think that she is really looking to be in a relationship right not.... something is just holding me back frm telling her how i feel..... like my gut is trying to tell me not to do something stupid and spoil the friendship we have now.....

haiz.... what to do... what to say.... dilemmas aren't very fun ya know.... wish there was some way that i can wave a magic wand to magically make everything okay..... but i can't, can i....

lemme just sit back and drown in my music..... god save MP3s.....

Woah.... life is good... life is great.... life is so unbelievable

hrm... life is good... just got back a couple of spring tests.... 22.5/25 for maths and 25/46 for physics.... not bad considering my mid year results.... its qutie encouraging.... but my tutors have been saying that the promo papers are not easy.... so i'm encouraged yet still not out of the red zone..... i'll try to "kick it out!!" as jamal says.....
actually nothing much really happening now.... quite sianed..... nothing much to write... not much inspiration...
only got one thing on my mind.....

"Whitney, don't you understand each word i say is true.
I just want you to know I have a major crush on you.
I'd drive you to Las Vegas and do the things you wanna do.
I'd even have Wayne Newton dedicate a song to you"
-San Dimas High School Football Rules by The Ataris

just change the name and it'll say something to someone that i know.....

shhh.....

Life... its never easy to understand it

life is confusing and complex... i don't think the most brilliant philosopher will ever be able to answer the most fundamental question.... why are we here.....
there is no real answer to that question.... its rhetorical yet relevant to everyone.....
each person has to answer this question for themselves.... no one can tell them the answer to it... and i haven't been able to answer it for myself yet.....

i don't know what i've been put into this world for.... what am i supposed to accomplish in my time here... the closest i ever came to answering it was in sec three confirmation camp... i had some time to myself as we sat in a dark room in total silence to think about my past, present and my future.... i know that i prob wanna go into the teaching profession.... not just because almost all of my family were at one point in their careers been a teacher or an instructor.... but because i feel a connection to the whole school scene.... its a familiar environment and feel comfortable being in a school..... at least i have reached somewhere near solving the unsolvable..... maybe the reason why everyone says ''life sucks lah'' could be because they haven't identified their purpose...

actually i haven't really come as close to answering my problems as i seem to have come..... i still kinda feel that i'm studying without a purpose.... i still don't understand what all the crap that i have to study will help me in the real world.... when i'm driving there is no way that i will use some physics formula to work out how far i will take to stop if i apply a constant braking force of 200N one second after i see a red traffic light.... (okay.... so i'm full of bullshit.... but who the fuck cares.. haha....)

at least i have begun to engage in some form of studying... i actually did my maths tutorial by myself.... doesn't sound like much.... but to me it is.... i'm kinda proud of myself for doing that..... haha... hopefully i'll be able to keep up this change of heart for as long as i'm in Nanyang.... i haven't been one to stick to resolutions....

but i'm going to try....

wait... master yoda was right.... there is no try....
i'm going to do it.....

Testi......... monial

so yesterday was the testimonial that i have been waiting for for the past three months.... it was a good game overall.... we were in their twenty two for most of the first half and i managed to break through during a blindside move.... 0-0 at half time..... the second half was total bull.... i made like a billion errors that i shd not have.....

i was floating balls over fawwaz to daniel frm the lineouts.... and that meant we could not clear the ball.... plus i made the fatal error that allowed joel to score the only try of the match.... i shd have brought him down.... but i have no idea how he managed to drive through and put it down.... dammit.... but hell... i'm going to learn frm this expirience and i won't let this happen again....

but again... overall i think we did very well against a J2 team that were out to injure us.... there were a few sores and bruises after the match... but i don't think that there was anything serious enough to us out for very long.... i've got a pretty big contusion on my left shin.... and we're going to play a tournament... TOMORROW!!!! omg.... but i still wanna play it.... haha....

well... going to sleep le.... wish me luck....