the skies have finally opened and the parched land has been quenched of its thirst...

okay... so it is a little over dramatic... but the rain is really fantastic relief frm the super hot weather that we've been experiencing lately.... it was sooooo shiok standing in the field on thurs when the rain started falling.... just standing there and enjoying the wetness of the whole experience...
hey.... before you get some wild ideas of orgasmic proportions lemme just add that it was water that i was enjoying... haha....




oh yeah... and congrats to the touchies... did the sch proud... and get to go up and get another prize... haha.. i think mrs ho is getting sick you seeing you gurls... haha... but who cares... go make her super sick and win the cup finals next time around.....







She's the type of gurl that you would be delighted to bring home to meet the parents... and at the end of dinner with your parents if your parents don't like her, the problems lies totally with your parents... not her....
too bad i've still got the NG, NE.... haha..... =P

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totally frustrated... can't seem to think.. can't seem to focus on anything...
wad de hell... no matter what i do i can't seem to get anything right...
i know it takes hard work to get anywhere in this world.. but all the effort that i try and put into my work just goes nowhere... so what's the point...

everyone says that you must have the HEART and the PASSION for what you do... but i have NO HEART and NO PASSION for the stuff that i'm supposed to be "learning" in school... i don't see how it's going to help me... i'm not going to use complex numbers in real life situations... what... am i going to be paying $(8+3i) for a loaf of bread....

i know this is the path that i have chosen... i'm gonna have to stick with it all the way... but is it really worth it, now that i look back? what would my life be like if i didn't chose to come to NY... obviously i wouldn't have meet such great ppl like the ruggers, 04S4B, the teachers like mrs chong.... would my life be different if i had gone to poly? more imptly... would it be better?

you cannot escape hard work... and i'm not trying too... my point is that was JC the wisest choice for me to take? is it the best path to success?

totally aimless... that's what i am... the reason that i came to JC was that i didn't know what i wanted to do in the future... therefore chosing a course that i had interest in in poly was near impossible... what i did was only delaying the time that i had to make a definate decision on what i wanted to do... i do not suggest that to anyone that is considering btwn JC and poly... have a goal.. an aim... go do some research on jobs and their scope... find something that you have a passion for and find out what you need to qualify for the job... don't make my mistake... decide early...

they say not to dream and be practical... become a lawyer... a doctor... businessman... find some high-paying job and live happily ever after...
but truely... i would not be happy with any of these jobs.. i have no heart for it...
sure it's high-paying but i would be forcing myself through day after day of doing something that i don't LOVE...
i don't have many talents.... at least i haven't found any yet...
i'm just mediocre in everything... i do okay... but not exceptionally well....


what am i to do.....

totally wasted... 0-0 for both games.... NOBODY scored the whole afternoon... NOBODY...

got to apologise... i totally blanked out while playing standoff... big thank you to fawwaz for constantly getting me back onto the field...
was suffering frm a headache throughout the whole thing... the heat was really no joke lar...

sorry guys... i kinda screwed up playing standoff today... we prob could have got a try against SR if i rmbred to call for you-know-wad.... couldn't recall the move lar... and all the three players supposed to be involved in the move did not practise the move on tues anyway....

i am who i am....
i can not force myself to become a different person...
i cannot pretend to be someone that i'm not...

i am who i am....
take what you see cuz i won't give any more....
but what i can give i will give all of it....


i wish that i could be ther person that YOU want....
i wish that i was the right one for you...
but i'm not... no matter how much i would want to be...
i'm not...









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"Violence has spread worldwide
and there are families on the street
We sell drugs to children
now oh why can't we just see
All we do is eliminate our future
with the things we do today
Money is our incentive now
so that makes it okay"
-"I Believe" by Blessed Union of Souls

beautiful song...
the Sept 11th Remix that they did in commemeration of the tragedy if so heart-wrenching....
that voices of ppl on the fateful flights making last calls to their loved ones,
and the pleas of relatives of those trapped in the rubble pleading for any news...

a big thank you to all the people that actually got stuff for little old me...
man... i don't care... it is really nice to get stuff... haha....

singles rock.... haha... all the lonely unwanted souls from my class went out tgr... super cool.. one big grp of ppl amongst countless couples..... damn power... haha...


to all the guys out there.... take up the NG, NE....
it's the best thing that could happen to you.... life as a bachelor....
haha... that's the way to go....

i have played five different postions in the space of a month...
getting very confused.... no constant position to train for... i never know what position i'll be playing til the day of the match... kinda hard lar...

i don't know why... even with the loss, i still kinda feel a sense of achievement.... don't know why... i THINK i played a pretty good game other than my kicking....

hi... my name is bong... and i'm a rugbyholic...

there you go... my confession.... i'm addicted to rugby... i can't get enuf of it... the rush of blood when i envision myself doing stuff on the field.. and later the REAL rush i get when i try to do it.... oh man.... major adreniline rush... my adrenal glands are working overtime....

i love this game....

the best thing i ever did for myself was to join rugby....

argh!!! i'd like to say that life is going fantastically for me....
but i'm not sure that it is...
i'm still stuck with the big qn of what to do after JC...
i shd prob borrow the career guide thing frm someone....
i didn't have the cash to buy that day... so i kinda missed out.....

rugby is going superb....
i'm loving it more and more everyday....
i'm feeling fitter and stronger that i have even felt in my life...
hey... i know that i'm definately NOT PES A material...
but you prob haven't seen me a couple of years back... i was like a tub of lard... totally unfit.... rugby was really the best choice i have ever made....



i was planning to write testimonials for everyone in my friendster list....
i got to like 40+ kinda short and hastily written testimonials before i suddenly got really tired and ran out of ideas for what to write... so i decided that i'll wait for a couple of weeks before continuing....

tuition is great... i'm understanding concepts that i never even know existed... yupps.. that's how bad my physics is... i need a lot of help...

the "No Girls, No Exceptions" rule is really working out great...
i'm able to put in more energy into rugby and studies... the two most impt things in my life right now....
BX was right... guys are not really able to manage multi-tasking very well... so it makes perfect sense...
take some stuff outta the equation and i'll be able to do the rest better....

actually, there is this gurl that i think is really cool... but NO... i have the "NG, NE" rule to adhere to...
so boon.... this is where you step in to remind me what a dumb idea it is to violate the rule....

well there it is...
that's all for now...

haven't been blogging for some time... didn't have anything that i really wanted to blog abt.... kinda sian lar...

just adding something to try desperately to pass the time....

did i say i'll be away for a couple of weeks... erm...
guess what.... my dad reformatted the com the very night that i posted that entry...
so well... I'M BACK... haha... i know how dumb that seemed...

so far, my com has been behaving.. and i'm having no probs with adware and stuff (touch wood ar!!)... and i'm praying, begging and hoping that i won't have any probs.... but now that i've gotten rid of my adware and spyware problem, i have another prob on my hands... my moniter has decided to start flickering... and it is seriously giving a bad headache... haiz... just as i get rid of one prob another one pops up... what de...

just realised something very ironic... alot of the adware that was unwantedly installed on my computer were "made" by ppl advertising anti-spyware/adware software... ironic huh...





today was the game against Northbrooks Sec.... and the one thing that i was extremely happy abt was the fact that i didn't drop a single high ball that came to me when i was playing full back.... one of the grubber kicks that they attempted was converted into a turnover and a try scoring move... it was damn professional... danny and i counter-attacked like a professional back three... turning defence into offence the way that any good fullback-winger combination shd do... haha...

thank you baoxin... throughout the first period, you kept turning back and telling me that you will be supporting me and you kept asking me if i was okay... you know how stressed i can get while playing full-back and having you there to support allowed me to relax and play the game the way that i shd have...

oh well.. before i get carried away, i can't say that i played that well as scrumhalf... kinda dissapointed in myself.. i know that i am capable of much better preformances than that... i'm not being arrogant or anything... but as a player, you will know yourself the best and you will know when you have played a good or bad match... no matter what ppl tell you, you will know the truth...

i think that i haven't played as scrumhalf for a pretty long time cuz of the injuries among the backline... so i have lost the touch for a while... hopefully Jamal will let me play on saturday so that i can reconnect with the halfback position...

overall...i guess it was a good game.. we didn't work our game plan exactly the way that we prob shd have... alot of individual running... and that might not work with the bigger JC sides...

but it is a good start... we have been losing a lot of our matches recently and winning this game, i guess, meant alot to the team... it brought our low morale up a bit... and the winning feeling is a very good incentive to train hard and play harder... the feeling of winning a match provides something to work towards and that drive to win is what we really need...

wad the... erm.. okay... can't curse...
but i sure wish that i could... my com has been totally taken over by spyware...
wad the hell lor... it's like every now and then my browser will be directed to some stupid search that that offers to give the lastest and best in adult entertainment...
whoever thought the concept of spyware shd get screwed in the hind region and star in the next home porno...

on the flip side... having my com reformatted has it's ups... i'm redownloading my mp3s now.. and while downloading them, i'm rediscovering some old songs that i used to listen to that i forgot abt.... quite cool....

i probably shd be working now... i've got a maths tutorial to do.. and the Ithor OGLs contact list (if lynette sees this, i swear i'll get it ASAP)... plus i have to do the tentative rugby schedule for term one... haha... but i'm slacking right now...

oh yeah.. and along with the spyware, i'm getting tons of popups... hate those too... they are interrupting my blogging....


excuse me... i need to take a break to curse...


my dad is planning to reformat the com.... alas that means all the mp3s that i just downloaded will be gone... again... but once it is re-reformatted... hopefully all the spyware will be gone as well... plus my dad has promised to buy a proper anti-virus program to protect the com... yeah right.. we're talking abt Kenneth "The Cheapskate" Micheal Bong.... haiz.. we'll see which pirated CD shop he'll buy it frm.. and wanna bet... it'll be less than $15.. and he'll be real proud of himself for getting such a "deal"...



i won't be blogging for a couple of weeks... cept for the time that i may get in the sch lib... so don't take my blog off your blogs-to-read list...

be back in a jiffy... don't miss me too much k...