::go screw yourself::
you know what.... i fucking hate you.... you know why i don't respect you.... cuz you've never given me a reason to... i don't see why i shd respect a old fag like you when you have never given me anything my whole life...
you wanna see what failing really looks like... i can show you all Fs for my midyears.... fucking hell... i can show you zeros if you want.... you think it's so fucking easy to do a lvls... den you bloody go do it yourself.... juz cuz you don't see me studying at home doesn't mean that i'm out somewhere slacking all the day away.... at least altho i have spent alot of time on CCA, i have done what i can to struggle to keep up.... at least i can understand what's going on in class....
i know what has to be done... and i'll bloody do it when the time comes.... you think i want to waste two fucking years in JC... it's my life... i know much better than you ever will what i want to do with it.... don't tell me that you nagging constantly is going to help me pass my fucking papers.... i know way better than you want i have to deliver for the A's...
i may not become a doctor, a lawyer or land some other big shot job... but that's not what i want in life anyway so why the hell shd i work for that....
i think it was the wrong decision to go to JC...
so what abt the "prestige" of being in a JC... it is just another endless road to no where... this world really has no appeal to me.... what am i striving for... a fucking piece of paper after two years of struggling thru test after test...
and after that, another "educational" institution and another few years of crap....
what for.... what's the point of it all... all the money in the world doesn't really mean anything to me... i just want a quiet job which gets me enough to support a family comfortably... i don't want a gigantic mansion in bukit timah... a four- or five-room HDB flat will do just fine... expensive food for dinner? makan frm the market would be so much more filling and enjoyable....
you know what... i'm on the verge of just giving up... i really don't see the point arguing anymore... it doesn't solve anything... nothing has meaning, nothing has purpose anymore... the easy way out looks awful tempting right now....
Monday, May 23, 2005
::living in a dream world::
that's it.... friday was the last game that we would play tgr as a team...
i didn't know that anyone could be so happy when they lost... but we were on top of the world that day.... 24-10... who thought it could have been so close.... two tries scored... and i swear.... if we had scored in the first half like we threatened to do, things might have been very very different...
i wanted to be on the field when the ref blew the final whistle.... but too bad i had to go off into the blood bin.... oh well...
i can't believe that it's finally over... a year of hard work and sweat... the difficulties we experienced as a team and the disagreements that we have endured...
i can't imagine my life if i had joined another CCA.... things would be really very different... and cliched as it may sound, given the chance, i wouldn't have it done any other way....
there are so many things that i wanna say, but i just can't think of it right now...
i'll miss you guys... this past year was the best time of my life....
wad jamal said really sums up what i wanna say....
"SAJC may be listed as the third, but NYJC is no. 1 in my heart"
::end of days::
it's finally over... the supposedly "last" installment of the Star Wars saga is out... caught it on saturday night.... i don't know... somehow i still prefer the original three cuz it was more real... and not as much computer graphics were used....
haha... i guess the main appeal of the movie was everyone needed closure.... everyone knows what will happen.... anakin will turn to the dark side, the jedis will get killed, chancellor palpatine will become the new emperor with his clone troopers by his side, padme will die in child birth and she'll give birth to twins... but i think everyone just wants to see how it happens... the details of what unfolded in a galaxy far far away....
haha... i'm kind of a self proclaimed Star Wars buff... i don't know everything abt the series... but i do know more than the average person... i think....
that's it.... friday was the last game that we would play tgr as a team...
i didn't know that anyone could be so happy when they lost... but we were on top of the world that day.... 24-10... who thought it could have been so close.... two tries scored... and i swear.... if we had scored in the first half like we threatened to do, things might have been very very different...
i wanted to be on the field when the ref blew the final whistle.... but too bad i had to go off into the blood bin.... oh well...
i can't believe that it's finally over... a year of hard work and sweat... the difficulties we experienced as a team and the disagreements that we have endured...
i can't imagine my life if i had joined another CCA.... things would be really very different... and cliched as it may sound, given the chance, i wouldn't have it done any other way....
there are so many things that i wanna say, but i just can't think of it right now...
i'll miss you guys... this past year was the best time of my life....
wad jamal said really sums up what i wanna say....
"SAJC may be listed as the third, but NYJC is no. 1 in my heart"
::end of days::
it's finally over... the supposedly "last" installment of the Star Wars saga is out... caught it on saturday night.... i don't know... somehow i still prefer the original three cuz it was more real... and not as much computer graphics were used....
haha... i guess the main appeal of the movie was everyone needed closure.... everyone knows what will happen.... anakin will turn to the dark side, the jedis will get killed, chancellor palpatine will become the new emperor with his clone troopers by his side, padme will die in child birth and she'll give birth to twins... but i think everyone just wants to see how it happens... the details of what unfolded in a galaxy far far away....
haha... i'm kind of a self proclaimed Star Wars buff... i don't know everything abt the series... but i do know more than the average person... i think....
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
::semis::
made it thru to the semis... for the first time in NYJC rugby history... feels damn good to be a part of that history making.... plus we got a pretty nice mention in the article on the SRU homepage... haha....
it really is quite a milestone to us... cuz we've come thru a year of hard work to get here.... what is so amazing is that all of our year two players which make up a large majority of the first team did not touch a rugby ball b4 we came into jc...
well... not really a big surprise to many out there... we lost to ACJC in the semis... there was some real good plays though and we didn't really give them an easy time.. in fact, in the first half we forced a lot of drop balls from them and we did manage to pass the ball out to the wing once or twice... it is rather comforting to know that altho they have had many more yrs of experience, are fitter and faster, we did what we could to deal with the situation....
::studying?::
haha... i'm super proud of myself... i actually did the Poisson dist tutorial... okie.. i didn't do the last two qns cuz i don't have a maths TYS... but i did the rest with no prob... and actually got them right the first time i did them... some ppl may ask what's the big deal... but it is quite an a achievement for me... i'm really bad in maths and to be able to do the tutorial is really a boost for my confidence if not my ego....
::acknowledgements::
haha... peiwen has asked me to mention in my post that she is sitting in the com lab next to me.... i think i better listen to her... i don't want her to empty out her water bottle on me.. haha...
made it thru to the semis... for the first time in NYJC rugby history... feels damn good to be a part of that history making.... plus we got a pretty nice mention in the article on the SRU homepage... haha....
it really is quite a milestone to us... cuz we've come thru a year of hard work to get here.... what is so amazing is that all of our year two players which make up a large majority of the first team did not touch a rugby ball b4 we came into jc...
well... not really a big surprise to many out there... we lost to ACJC in the semis... there was some real good plays though and we didn't really give them an easy time.. in fact, in the first half we forced a lot of drop balls from them and we did manage to pass the ball out to the wing once or twice... it is rather comforting to know that altho they have had many more yrs of experience, are fitter and faster, we did what we could to deal with the situation....
::studying?::
haha... i'm super proud of myself... i actually did the Poisson dist tutorial... okie.. i didn't do the last two qns cuz i don't have a maths TYS... but i did the rest with no prob... and actually got them right the first time i did them... some ppl may ask what's the big deal... but it is quite an a achievement for me... i'm really bad in maths and to be able to do the tutorial is really a boost for my confidence if not my ego....
::acknowledgements::
haha... peiwen has asked me to mention in my post that she is sitting in the com lab next to me.... i think i better listen to her... i don't want her to empty out her water bottle on me.. haha...
Thursday, May 12, 2005
::we're there::
29-0 and NYJC is thru.... next up AC... i disagree with jamal.. it's not going to be three times harder than today's match... it'll be five times as hard... not saying anything abt SR... they're a good side... it's just that AC is really like another step up....
i just don't think that i'm good enuf to reach that level anymore... i used to be very self-confident... i would have that swagger... but suddenly i have that feeling of inadequecy... i used to play games and feel proud of what i've done in the match... i'm very sure that i can send out balls much better that what i gave BX today... i'm positive that i've given better service in the past... otherwise i wouldn't have earned jamal's confidence to let me start wearing the no.9 jersey....
i bloody hell don't want to face the embarassment of an 80 plus match against AC... but i feel bloody weak... worn to the bone... burnt out....
wad's wrong....
i'm bloody unhappy abt today's match... no doubt a win is a win... but we didn't follow the game plan at all... nothing really went right....
no making excuses for my bad performance.... but the ref really was a bit wierd.... there were alot of calls that went against me... he called at least two or three one-sided feeds into the scrums... but i'm very sure that it was straight.... i don't know lar.. forget it.... no point in talking abt something that is over...
::stuck::
i don't know what to do lar... i just feel like telling her and just getting it over with... but it's kinda like playing a double-or-nothing... or i might even break even and everything will go back to the way it was.... anything is better than just standing ard and being just a shadow... the invisible man.... someone who is just there... yet at the same time nowhere.... contradiction... i think not... cuz that's the way it is....
or shd i just go back to my trademark NG, NE and forget everything...
29-0 and NYJC is thru.... next up AC... i disagree with jamal.. it's not going to be three times harder than today's match... it'll be five times as hard... not saying anything abt SR... they're a good side... it's just that AC is really like another step up....
i just don't think that i'm good enuf to reach that level anymore... i used to be very self-confident... i would have that swagger... but suddenly i have that feeling of inadequecy... i used to play games and feel proud of what i've done in the match... i'm very sure that i can send out balls much better that what i gave BX today... i'm positive that i've given better service in the past... otherwise i wouldn't have earned jamal's confidence to let me start wearing the no.9 jersey....
i bloody hell don't want to face the embarassment of an 80 plus match against AC... but i feel bloody weak... worn to the bone... burnt out....
wad's wrong....
i'm bloody unhappy abt today's match... no doubt a win is a win... but we didn't follow the game plan at all... nothing really went right....
no making excuses for my bad performance.... but the ref really was a bit wierd.... there were alot of calls that went against me... he called at least two or three one-sided feeds into the scrums... but i'm very sure that it was straight.... i don't know lar.. forget it.... no point in talking abt something that is over...
::stuck::
i don't know what to do lar... i just feel like telling her and just getting it over with... but it's kinda like playing a double-or-nothing... or i might even break even and everything will go back to the way it was.... anything is better than just standing ard and being just a shadow... the invisible man.... someone who is just there... yet at the same time nowhere.... contradiction... i think not... cuz that's the way it is....
or shd i just go back to my trademark NG, NE and forget everything...
Friday, May 06, 2005
::fire's back::
oh man.... today was just superb... forwards were just fantastic...
final score NYJC 13-JJC 3... two tries, one from LOBA and one from gerald mok sealed it in the second half after we made it to the break tied 3 all.... despite some scares early on and going down to a penalty early in the game, we fought back... and that's what i love abt this team... we don't let anything bring us down....
nanyang rangers.... hrm.... sounds good... don't you think...
it was quite an emotional win... after what happened last year... i bet the year twos and esp BX would rmbr.... and it felt good to get the better of them at their home ground in front of their home fans...
congrats to LOBA... so happy for him... first try... it really must feel fantastic... haha....
let's go guys... just a little bit more til we start writing history for Nanyang Junior College.... never felt so patriotic to a sch b4... amazing...
oh man.... today was just superb... forwards were just fantastic...
final score NYJC 13-JJC 3... two tries, one from LOBA and one from gerald mok sealed it in the second half after we made it to the break tied 3 all.... despite some scares early on and going down to a penalty early in the game, we fought back... and that's what i love abt this team... we don't let anything bring us down....
nanyang rangers.... hrm.... sounds good... don't you think...
it was quite an emotional win... after what happened last year... i bet the year twos and esp BX would rmbr.... and it felt good to get the better of them at their home ground in front of their home fans...
congrats to LOBA... so happy for him... first try... it really must feel fantastic... haha....
let's go guys... just a little bit more til we start writing history for Nanyang Junior College.... never felt so patriotic to a sch b4... amazing...
Saturday, April 30, 2005
::at long last::
finally setting aside some time to update my blog... haven't really been coming online very often lately... between the bouts of hacking coughs, tissues stuffed up my nose, etc, i don't really feel like blogging... been sick like that for a few weeks now and it's really draining me of energy... i'm just feeling very tired but there's no time to rest... not now... not when it's so close... just within reach but not fully in our grasp yet...
::almost there. definately not going nowhere::
don't know what is happening to my passion for my sport... this time last year i would have killed anyone that stood between me and field... maybe it's just cuz of me not feeling too well... sorry to disappoint anyone... but frankly speaking, i'll be happy when the season is over... that's why i can get down to actual studying not just going thru the motions everyday in sch...
kinda pissed off... boon.. can i be frank with you... that fri you really pissed me off... for the past few weeks or so i have helped out with keeping logistics every training while everyone was changing up and going home... i spent half an hour going in and out of the store last tues to help kenneth and the year ones to keep stuff... and when i called in a favour last night cuz i was in a hurry, you say that i was just making excuses not to do logis... wad de hell... that was too much lar... as a logistics head, you are not just there to assign ppl to do the logistics... you have to go with them to ensure that all the equipment is in the right place and safely in the store instead of staying out on the field kicking... come on dude... you looking for a post with more responsability with next year's batch... den you gotta start taking on the responsability now...
::4G bbq::
had a good time at the bbq... haven't seen you guys for such a super long time... i can't even rmbr the last time i went out with you ppl... haiz... you guys are lucky that you're in the same sch.. can at least see each other in sch... haha... makes me think of what life might've been like if i went to poly instead of JC... haha... i don't regret coming to NY... but i just makes me wonder...
yuto, shand, thiong, zai quan, dd, xinghui and pris... thanks alot for the prezzie... just to let you all know... i used it today to go out... so yeah... love it... plus it really matches my sch uni... nice choice... haha...
::on a much lighter note::
TOP TEN REJECTED CHILDREN'S TOYS
And the number one rejected children's toy...
1. Don't Drink the Bong Water
go visit http:/toptenlog.blogspot.com/
super funny dude.... haha...
finally setting aside some time to update my blog... haven't really been coming online very often lately... between the bouts of hacking coughs, tissues stuffed up my nose, etc, i don't really feel like blogging... been sick like that for a few weeks now and it's really draining me of energy... i'm just feeling very tired but there's no time to rest... not now... not when it's so close... just within reach but not fully in our grasp yet...
::almost there. definately not going nowhere::
don't know what is happening to my passion for my sport... this time last year i would have killed anyone that stood between me and field... maybe it's just cuz of me not feeling too well... sorry to disappoint anyone... but frankly speaking, i'll be happy when the season is over... that's why i can get down to actual studying not just going thru the motions everyday in sch...
kinda pissed off... boon.. can i be frank with you... that fri you really pissed me off... for the past few weeks or so i have helped out with keeping logistics every training while everyone was changing up and going home... i spent half an hour going in and out of the store last tues to help kenneth and the year ones to keep stuff... and when i called in a favour last night cuz i was in a hurry, you say that i was just making excuses not to do logis... wad de hell... that was too much lar... as a logistics head, you are not just there to assign ppl to do the logistics... you have to go with them to ensure that all the equipment is in the right place and safely in the store instead of staying out on the field kicking... come on dude... you looking for a post with more responsability with next year's batch... den you gotta start taking on the responsability now...
::4G bbq::
had a good time at the bbq... haven't seen you guys for such a super long time... i can't even rmbr the last time i went out with you ppl... haiz... you guys are lucky that you're in the same sch.. can at least see each other in sch... haha... makes me think of what life might've been like if i went to poly instead of JC... haha... i don't regret coming to NY... but i just makes me wonder...
yuto, shand, thiong, zai quan, dd, xinghui and pris... thanks alot for the prezzie... just to let you all know... i used it today to go out... so yeah... love it... plus it really matches my sch uni... nice choice... haha...
::on a much lighter note::
TOP TEN REJECTED CHILDREN'S TOYS
And the number one rejected children's toy...
1. Don't Drink the Bong Water
go visit http:/toptenlog.blogspot.com/
super funny dude.... haha...
Friday, April 15, 2005
::approaching maturity? hell no::
as of 0821h today, the 15th of april 2005, i am able to go into a club without fear of being checked, able to buy liquor without worrying about the cashier asking me for identification, able to walk into a s'pore pools outlet place bets and collect winnings without having to act eighteen...
that's right boys and gurls... today's my birthday...
A BIG BIG BIG THANK YOU TO ALL THE PPL THAT HELPED ME TO CELEBRATE IN ONE WAY OR THE OTHER
was so touched by the prezzies and the cards and stuff that i received today... and the "tattoos" that i had on my arms tho it was not entirely voluntary....
haha... but anyway... it was such a good day... had a lot of fun....
and also to the people that sent me sms greetings... really made my day....
at least i can forget my troubles for a while and have a good time with all my frens and family...
as of 0821h today, the 15th of april 2005, i am able to go into a club without fear of being checked, able to buy liquor without worrying about the cashier asking me for identification, able to walk into a s'pore pools outlet place bets and collect winnings without having to act eighteen...
that's right boys and gurls... today's my birthday...
A BIG BIG BIG THANK YOU TO ALL THE PPL THAT HELPED ME TO CELEBRATE IN ONE WAY OR THE OTHER
was so touched by the prezzies and the cards and stuff that i received today... and the "tattoos" that i had on my arms tho it was not entirely voluntary....
haha... but anyway... it was such a good day... had a lot of fun....
and also to the people that sent me sms greetings... really made my day....
at least i can forget my troubles for a while and have a good time with all my frens and family...
Thursday, April 14, 2005
::surprises::
thanks guys... such a "memorable" day....
haha... i don't get angry... i just get revenge... the seven guys better watch out on their birthdays...
haha... but really.. it was so nice lar... thank BX for dinner.. and the guys for embarrassing me in the pizza hut with the birthday song... wad de hell..
touching sia...
and it's not even my birthday lar... wtf...
will remember this guys.... it's gonna be ur turn soon...
surprised
thanks guys... such a "memorable" day....
haha... i don't get angry... i just get revenge... the seven guys better watch out on their birthdays...
haha... but really.. it was so nice lar... thank BX for dinner.. and the guys for embarrassing me in the pizza hut with the birthday song... wad de hell..
touching sia...
and it's not even my birthday lar... wtf...
will remember this guys.... it's gonna be ur turn soon...
surprised
Friday, April 08, 2005
::the final stretch::
the a divs are finally here... or at least just ard the corner... what we've been training so hard for...
haiz... nervous yet excited... cannot wait for nxt week and yet wish that it will never come....
so contradictory... but yupps.. that's how i feel...
NYJC will be playing in the grp stages with PJC, RJC, JJC and SRJC....
we had the chance to be the first people to wear the new forest green canter jerseys... so cool... it was damn nice having that privilege....
::affected?::
haiz.. think i'm getting affected by everything piling up... esp at this time... btwn the trainings, there isn't really time to do any homework... i guess i'm guilty of being a tad lazy... okay fine.. truthfully.. i'm being REALLY lazy... but can't help it... don't get enuf quality sleep at night, zonk thru sch, get home to eat dinner and then TRY to sleep... i'm just there in body but not in mind and spirit...
i kinda have some kind of idea of what i want to do after JC, but i just don't know where to start... what is required for me to enter the course, the scope of the courses that i'm interested in, etc... i guess i still have a bit of research to do...
but mostly, i'm really being hindered by my dilemma... i don't know what to do... there is so many things involved... i don't wanna just step out and imagine that i don't have feelings for her... but at the same time... haiz... dunnoe how to put it.....
::stoned::
i just feel like sitting in a corner of sch and stoning... pretending to be brain dead.... every now and then, i'd get up and act mentally unsound(not too tough for me), freak everyone out then go back to being a vegetable...
it would be nice to be able to just sit there without a care in the world, not bothering abt the nxt maths assignment test or finishing the latest physics tutorial... without having to plan for the future and just be there living for the present and talking whatever comes ur way....
to have a bunch of friends who will stone with you forever that you can crap with....
life's full of worries... i'm not saying that it won't be... cuz it is....
but it's nice having dreams isn't it....
::the ways of the sith::
i'd like to stand up during common lunch and shout F*** OFF at the top of my lungs to let off steam... of course there are alot of undesired repercussions that come with doing such a thing.. that's what keeps me sitting down quietly in a corner. brewing up like a pressure cooker...
it's been a long long time since i've been really truly madly deeply ANGRY with someone... i mean red hot angry... i feel the urge to shout or deck someone that i don't like... haiz... i know it's wrong... but it is quite refreshing...
nooo... anger leads to hate and hate leads to suffering.. that is the path to the dark side... i cannot allow myself to fall to the temptations of the dark side...
okay... so that's getting a bit lame... but it's my blog... i'll write what i want....
the a divs are finally here... or at least just ard the corner... what we've been training so hard for...
haiz... nervous yet excited... cannot wait for nxt week and yet wish that it will never come....
so contradictory... but yupps.. that's how i feel...
NYJC will be playing in the grp stages with PJC, RJC, JJC and SRJC....
we had the chance to be the first people to wear the new forest green canter jerseys... so cool... it was damn nice having that privilege....
::affected?::
haiz.. think i'm getting affected by everything piling up... esp at this time... btwn the trainings, there isn't really time to do any homework... i guess i'm guilty of being a tad lazy... okay fine.. truthfully.. i'm being REALLY lazy... but can't help it... don't get enuf quality sleep at night, zonk thru sch, get home to eat dinner and then TRY to sleep... i'm just there in body but not in mind and spirit...
i kinda have some kind of idea of what i want to do after JC, but i just don't know where to start... what is required for me to enter the course, the scope of the courses that i'm interested in, etc... i guess i still have a bit of research to do...
but mostly, i'm really being hindered by my dilemma... i don't know what to do... there is so many things involved... i don't wanna just step out and imagine that i don't have feelings for her... but at the same time... haiz... dunnoe how to put it.....
::stoned::
i just feel like sitting in a corner of sch and stoning... pretending to be brain dead.... every now and then, i'd get up and act mentally unsound(not too tough for me), freak everyone out then go back to being a vegetable...
it would be nice to be able to just sit there without a care in the world, not bothering abt the nxt maths assignment test or finishing the latest physics tutorial... without having to plan for the future and just be there living for the present and talking whatever comes ur way....
to have a bunch of friends who will stone with you forever that you can crap with....
life's full of worries... i'm not saying that it won't be... cuz it is....
but it's nice having dreams isn't it....
::the ways of the sith::
i'd like to stand up during common lunch and shout F*** OFF at the top of my lungs to let off steam... of course there are alot of undesired repercussions that come with doing such a thing.. that's what keeps me sitting down quietly in a corner. brewing up like a pressure cooker...
it's been a long long time since i've been really truly madly deeply ANGRY with someone... i mean red hot angry... i feel the urge to shout or deck someone that i don't like... haiz... i know it's wrong... but it is quite refreshing...
nooo... anger leads to hate and hate leads to suffering.. that is the path to the dark side... i cannot allow myself to fall to the temptations of the dark side...
okay... so that's getting a bit lame... but it's my blog... i'll write what i want....
Friday, April 01, 2005
::what's my age again?::
i can't stand it... for the past week, my grandfather has been bugging me over and again abt me coming home "late"... what the hell... I'm freaking 17 going to be 18 in a couple of weeks... hey... i know how to take care of myself... I'm not some helpless child that needs to have someone holding my hand anytime that i step out of the house... what the hell....
give me my space... you may be concerned abt me but pls, i need to be able to do my own stuff too... for the past YEAR, i have always come home about 8-9 o'clock cuz of rugby training... you'd think that he'd get the idea that i won't be back for dinner in time cuz of training.... yet every single time that i come home a bit late after training he'll give me some stupid talking to abt calling home when I'm not coming back... I'VE BLOODY A BILLION PHARKING TIMES TOLD YOU THAT I WILL ALWAYS COME HOME LATE TUES AND THURS CUZ OF TRAINING!!
he never listens to me anyway... so i don't know why i even bother...
i don't really have a good relationship with my grandfather... we tolerate each other... don't expect any more than that....
i guess it's cuz I'm the grandchild that gave the most problems...
::brain-busting dilemma::
dunnoe if I'm going to give up the policy.... don't think that it is a very good idea... she's nice... too nice for a guy like me... i don't think that i can really make her happy....
i want to tell her... don't know if i shd... cuz i don't wanna spoilt anything... and i have a nagging feeling that things won't go well if i do... oh man...
::university::
was looking around at courses just for interests sake in the aussie uni guide.... there was this course that sounded interesting... Bachelor in psychology and bachelor in education(primary).... what it's all abt is learning abt the psychological development of children... at the primary school level... it may not seem glam or something (primary school teacher? haha) but it is really something working with kids...
but was also thinking if i could do something that i enjoyed personally like photography both as an artform as well as photography as a form of journalism, sports, portraits and the like... but it is a tough life... it really depends on ur luck... if you get a really good pic that can stand out against the tons of others, then you've got it made... ppl will be queuing up to get you to take their photo... and can you imagine having a picture that you took up on the cover of Time mag circulating all around the world... woah... the pride....
don't know what exactly my combi has to do with the courses that i was interested in, but these are just two that I'm actually interested in...
::it's just a block test. real one's coming up soon::
220 days to my first paper... yes... we've counting the no. of days left.. and that is the figure that we came up with... scary huh... kinda brings me down to earth...
i screwed up my block test... got like 16.5 outta 60 for maths... super bad.. that's like a pure F... plus i just passed my econs... a subject that i don't expect to score well in without studying... and i didn't really study for block tests... so i kinda deserve the grade.. but one sub that i did study for is phys... if i fail that I'm really gonna take the "express lift" down from the highest block of flats the HDB has to offer...... haha... kiddin... i think?
my dad's been starting to ask me abt sch more and more now... that means that he is indirectly trying to give the hint that i'd better do well or else he'll skin me alive... nah... he won't really skin me alive... i think he'll take whatever i get... as long as i can do something with it... but he is trying to pressure me into becoming the most studious student nanyang has ever seen... of course it doesn't work that way with me... I'm not like that... there's no way that he can ever pressure me into something like studying....
to borrow an old cliche.. it's my way or the highway... i did it for o lvls... i brought myself frm like a high 20 L1R5 to 14... it's not spectacular... but i think that i did what i could.. and the improvement in grades really made my day... reward for the work that i put in during the run-up to the o lvls... i know that the a lvls are a totally different kettle of fish... but i'm sure that i can do it again... i worked out a kind of study schedule and i'm really gonna work after the A divs are over... i know what you ppl are thinking... it's soooo much easier said than done... but i'm sure that i can do it... i'll show everyone that ever doubted in me...
i can't stand it... for the past week, my grandfather has been bugging me over and again abt me coming home "late"... what the hell... I'm freaking 17 going to be 18 in a couple of weeks... hey... i know how to take care of myself... I'm not some helpless child that needs to have someone holding my hand anytime that i step out of the house... what the hell....
give me my space... you may be concerned abt me but pls, i need to be able to do my own stuff too... for the past YEAR, i have always come home about 8-9 o'clock cuz of rugby training... you'd think that he'd get the idea that i won't be back for dinner in time cuz of training.... yet every single time that i come home a bit late after training he'll give me some stupid talking to abt calling home when I'm not coming back... I'VE BLOODY A BILLION PHARKING TIMES TOLD YOU THAT I WILL ALWAYS COME HOME LATE TUES AND THURS CUZ OF TRAINING!!
he never listens to me anyway... so i don't know why i even bother...
i don't really have a good relationship with my grandfather... we tolerate each other... don't expect any more than that....
i guess it's cuz I'm the grandchild that gave the most problems...
::brain-busting dilemma::
dunnoe if I'm going to give up the policy.... don't think that it is a very good idea... she's nice... too nice for a guy like me... i don't think that i can really make her happy....
i want to tell her... don't know if i shd... cuz i don't wanna spoilt anything... and i have a nagging feeling that things won't go well if i do... oh man...
::university::
was looking around at courses just for interests sake in the aussie uni guide.... there was this course that sounded interesting... Bachelor in psychology and bachelor in education(primary).... what it's all abt is learning abt the psychological development of children... at the primary school level... it may not seem glam or something (primary school teacher? haha) but it is really something working with kids...
but was also thinking if i could do something that i enjoyed personally like photography both as an artform as well as photography as a form of journalism, sports, portraits and the like... but it is a tough life... it really depends on ur luck... if you get a really good pic that can stand out against the tons of others, then you've got it made... ppl will be queuing up to get you to take their photo... and can you imagine having a picture that you took up on the cover of Time mag circulating all around the world... woah... the pride....
don't know what exactly my combi has to do with the courses that i was interested in, but these are just two that I'm actually interested in...
::it's just a block test. real one's coming up soon::
220 days to my first paper... yes... we've counting the no. of days left.. and that is the figure that we came up with... scary huh... kinda brings me down to earth...
i screwed up my block test... got like 16.5 outta 60 for maths... super bad.. that's like a pure F... plus i just passed my econs... a subject that i don't expect to score well in without studying... and i didn't really study for block tests... so i kinda deserve the grade.. but one sub that i did study for is phys... if i fail that I'm really gonna take the "express lift" down from the highest block of flats the HDB has to offer...... haha... kiddin... i think?
my dad's been starting to ask me abt sch more and more now... that means that he is indirectly trying to give the hint that i'd better do well or else he'll skin me alive... nah... he won't really skin me alive... i think he'll take whatever i get... as long as i can do something with it... but he is trying to pressure me into becoming the most studious student nanyang has ever seen... of course it doesn't work that way with me... I'm not like that... there's no way that he can ever pressure me into something like studying....
to borrow an old cliche.. it's my way or the highway... i did it for o lvls... i brought myself frm like a high 20 L1R5 to 14... it's not spectacular... but i think that i did what i could.. and the improvement in grades really made my day... reward for the work that i put in during the run-up to the o lvls... i know that the a lvls are a totally different kettle of fish... but i'm sure that i can do it again... i worked out a kind of study schedule and i'm really gonna work after the A divs are over... i know what you ppl are thinking... it's soooo much easier said than done... but i'm sure that i can do it... i'll show everyone that ever doubted in me...
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