i don't care what adidas says...
the existance of impossibilties are not as absurd as they make it out to be....
there are things in this world that was not intended to be and things that shd never happen...
it's not the most optimistic way of looking at this...
but what can i do....



i just need to listen to something loud like union underground or something.... something really metal.... to numb my mind.... to get my mind off thinging too much... i'm blasting my speakers now.... dun really care if my grandfather complains or wadeva....

screw the world....

its truely amazing how fast the week flew by... totally amazing... yest bbq was preety okay i guess... not as many people turned up... but we did manage finish most of the makan.... either we ate ALOT or we underestimated to amt of food to get.... mrs chong managed to come over and we all had a good time.... took a few photos.... etc etc etc....

stayed at lorbah's house last night.... drank a bit, play mahjong, talk cock.... haha... that peiwen ar.... stay up until so late nia... still can call to chit chat with us.... haha.... kaoz... but we had a good time there... only left the house at abt 9 plus... got back at 10.... fell asleep and didn't wake up until 5... haha.. i guess my dad expected it lah... so didn't chao me the whole day.... had a bit off a headache when i woke up.... hrm... i guess a little alcohol goes a long way... dammit...but it was damn fun hanging out with them the whole night...

hrm... on a different note... i gave her the present yesterday... didn't really say much to her... just hope that she liked it, that's all.... don't think that i have much hope lah... don't know what to do... caught in the middle...
but somethings aren't meant to be, i guess... maybe this is just one of the things that wasn't ever supposed to happen... wish that there could be more between us... but being friends is still good.. right?

convincing myself that that is true is a totally different thing...

wad the f***... its one of those days... i don't wanna use any vulgarities.... but really i think that this whole week has just been a major nightmare... i've got a splitting headache that isn't really helping my mood... i just need slp... i can't function efficiently with it... there are some ppl that can go a couple of days without sleep.... well.. i'm not one of them....

my f****** computer is acting up... my winamp is not playing my playlists properly, powerpoint is f***** up, bill gates can go suck some trannie's dick, OP rehearsals are up tmr.... f*** it all....

i'm really trying my best not to curse.... but my feet are killing me... this is the first time i've sat down since i left peiwen's house.... which was at abt 1... my back is giving me crap.... i've got a blister on my left foot... aching muscle begging for sleep.... and i still have to do f****** PW....

i know it isn't right to complain... no matter how f***** up my situation may seem there will always be a person in the world waaaaay worse off than me... but i don't see the point in creating stress for yourself... PW... wad the f***.. its just some crap subject that we have to do.... could have been alot more interesting... but i guess i just have no interest in the topic that we did, and also that it was just conducted in the worse way possible...

not even my favourite songs can improve my mood.... waking ashland, nicole nordeman, amy grant, the starting line.... they have all failed to do anything other than make my head throb even more.... argh....

on a slightly more positive note... we got the gigantic pooh bear for Mrs Chong, currently in storage at pei pei's house.... and i got pris' present.... hope she'll like it... hope i'll have the chance to give it to her.... hope that she'll come on friday....



i truely wish that she'll come.....

there is no one else but her....

so friday's the big day... on so many different levels...

firstly the release of promo results... that's when we'll find out who got retain if any at all.. i'm hoping for the best and that all the people close to me get pushed into J2.. and i'm praying for her.... praying that nothing spoils her birthday.... praying that she receives the new that she wants to hear... and there is still guo hui and boon... i know those two guys can do it if they want to... i guess this year wasn't really that fruitful for them... but next year'll be much better if they continue working like they did just before the promos.... i hope their tutors can see the effort and hard work that they put in... anyway... the bbq on friday is supposed to be for us to forget the worries of sch and to have fun as a class.... not something that we have really done....

and i think that i might ask her on friday... at the bbq... no further details to be given at this moment...

this week is going to be soooo packed for me... and the rest of Nanyang JC too lah... here's my schedule....

TUESDAY
- Go collect Winnie the Pooh soft toy of mrs chong at Citylink Mall
- Go buy pris and pam's prezzies
- Training at 5 in sch
- Brush up OP

WEDNESDAY
- OP rehearsal
- Buy groceries for BBQ on friday

THURSDAY
- Prepare chicken wings for friday
- Training at 5

FRIDAY
- Go to Pei's house to set up, etc

and i'll be having make up PE on either thurs or fri after sch.... sian 1/2

but its gonna be a good week... i feel it in my bones....

Shit... Was talking to BX just now after training.... He said that it might be hard for her to get thru clearly... haiz... Totally worried sick...

haiz... I can't stand the stupid school for putting the results release day on her birthday... Wad the hell... Serious.... Why couldn't they set it on another day... Crap school....





Cry me a river, build a bridge, and get over it.... a saying that applies to everything in life... Its a bit cynical but its true.... There is no point in cry over something that has happened in the past and is OVER... Pick yourself up and get over it....




for those that didn't do as well as they wanted for promos, relax... There is still next year...

for those that did better than expected or got the results they were hoping for, congrats.... Give urself a pat on the back but just one pat, not too many.... More work is going to be coming up and no one can afford to rest on their laurels...

dammit.... results are coming in one by one..... i guess i didn't do that badly....
i failed physics by just one mark so hopefully they will moderate that into an AO pass.... keep ya fingers crossed for me okay.... totally flunking a test is alright i guess.... but failing it by one miserable mark is really annoying.... haha...

i managed a D for econs.... missed the C by two marks.... bloody hell... why am i missing all my grades by a few marks.... i'm really pissed abt econs.... cuz i really worked for it... and i only got a lousy D.... shite...

actually, i'm not really worried abt myself... i did those papers so i know what kinda grades i'll probably get... i'm more worried for her... i don't wanna anything happen to her and i don't ever wanna see her sad.... i don't think that she is really very happy with her results... but she doesn't show it... i pray everyday for her.... hope she can get the grades that she wants and the grades that she needs....

her birthday is going to be on the day that the school is releasing the promo results.... screw the school... can't they have picked any other day.... why must it be on that day.... i'm praying that nothing happens to spoil her special day... we'll most likely know most of our results by then... but it is still traumatic to see it on paper in black and white i guess....

mrs chong said today in class that our class shdn't have any problems... i'm hoping that what she says is true.... i want all my classmates and all my teachers back next year.... and i esp want mrs chong to teach us econs... she's soooooo great.... she's the only teacher that i feel i want to do well for and study for... she said that we shd study for ourselves and not for anyone else.... but she gives me the drive to study so that i don't disappoint her.... i really don't wanna let her down and that is one of the reasons that i managed to study for the bloody promos....

heard frm a reliable source that she might not be teaching our class next year cuz of the stupid dragon year.... wad the hell... just cuz ppl get horny and want more kids during dragon year, we may have to sacrifice our darling mrs chong.... bloody hell...

but... we'll see how it goes... she may not have to go... and all 28 of us frm 04S4B may be able to stay tgr next year.... i'm hoping for the best....
hopefully God will take care of the rest....

So the promos are over. I made a promise to myself to tell her after the promos. But after a day like yesterday I don't know if I really shd. My day yesterday was really just spent trying to avoid speaking to her. I guess its cuz of the awkward moment in the tp kfc. Its like everyone pushed us onto one table. Not that I didn't want to sit with her but I don't like things when they are forced. Dudes and dudettes, it's not that I don't appreciate what you guys were intending to do but I'm not that kinda person. I guess I don't like the feeling of being forced to do something. And I don't want her to be pushed. Ya know wad I mean.
so f****** pissed with myself now. I shdn't have just totally ignored her like that.

listening to Adam sandler's grow old with you. Man, it is really a corny song. But it is sorta meaningful. Wanting to grow old with the girl of your dreams. That's a dream come true.

went to the esplanade last night with some of my classmates. *sighs* wish she could have been there. It's amazing how different and amazing the s'pore skyline can be at night. And there was a bit of a slight haze that hung over the nightsky that made everything abit blurred. Beautiful.

and I wish I had my cam there. there were so many absolutely brill shots wanting to be taken.

life is always confusing. There is never a standard way about things and something unexpected will always come up. Live with it

total and utter boredom.... i have no idea what to do now....
i don't wanna go out cuz i need to save up some cash, tv is boring, there is noone online and the skin on my left hand's fingers are peeling so bad that i can't play my guitar...

actually i'm supposed to be working on my bike right now.... but feel to lazy too lah.... i think i'll do it tonight when its cooler.... damn... kawasaki ar... just so that i can remove the fuel tank i gotta take off the all the side panels and the whole seat.... dammit... and the bleeding fuel tank has a crack that i need to repair.... haha... but why am i doing all this crap... cuz i LOVE my bike... its really a rocket with wheels... haha... on that small 800cc two-stroke i can keep up with a big 400cc four-stroke on beach sand summore... haha.. totally awesome fella...

i haven't riden my bike in about a year.... hell, that's a long time... i took some time off riding to study for O's... and the promos but now its time to bring it out and smoke some yahyah payayas... haha...

quite sad... the beach where we used to race in sentosa is now being converted into a gigantic car park.... screw them man.... scratch off one great place to ride.... my favourite ever place to ride is still loyang.... that was where i first learnt to ride on the mini 50cc... then graduated to the XR100 which was really just an off-road play bike... but i rode it to the ground... haha.. i really killed it... after the XR died, my dad bought over the KX80... woohoo.... the inanimate love of my life...

but loyang has since been closed and grown over by weeds and lalang... and the land is lying unused.... man... if the govt was so concerned about land conservation they would use up all the available land right... but do they.... NOOOO... so why can't they just allow us to use it.... if we are allowed to get our thrills off-road, "bikers" won't have to get them on the road.... haha.. so if you look at it in my wicked way, more tracks=safer roads...

there used to be a track at yishun too... that's when i had many great battles with my cousin when i was on the XR and he was on the KTM 65SX... then i moved on to the 80 which is really in a diff class.... and yishun got closed... so that's another chapter closed... damn....

extreme sports in s'pore is really suffocating... some time ago i read a headline "S'pore on the World Map of Extreme Sports"... hah!! i almost choked on my breakfast laughing... that headline couldn't be more full of crap.... just a year ago they banned the Asian X tour frm coming down to S'pore cuz there was an accident where i think the guy died.... comm'on.... things like this happens in extreme sports... i've had had my fair share of spills.... i once tried to cross this puddle at the yishun track that was a lot deeper than i thought it was and the whole bike flew over me... i was going full throttle in top gear down the straight that the puddle was on and endo-ed... the endo took the bike right over me and i landed face first on the ground where i stayed for a couple of minute, totally winded... my cousin can shift one of his ribs in and out.... my other cousin had a bike land on her and she still got up and is still riding... and she was like in pri three or something at the time... the point of extreme sports is to do some pretty whacked up stuff and survive it...

instead the Xtour has gone to KL and its really booming there... man they had some FMXers last year and they brought the house down.... shite... and they are bringing up so much young talent...

man... life will be so good if we could just have one really good track that was OURS... not just a vacant piece of land... but OUR land... that'll be the tops... we could build our own jumps and carve some really solid burms.... and we could ride there like every weekend and organise some races... haha... then i can burn more ppl...

well.. anyway... i have in a way gotten rid of my boredom for a couple of minutes by writing this post... but now i gotta figure out what to do for the rest of the day... darn...

well.. c ya kiddos...

What a final it was at turf city. Final score 16-13 to the San Miguel Wanderers who successfully defended their cup title after losing the league to the Brewerkz Bucks.
A try early on in the game on the left side was comfortably converted by Marcus Blackburn. A penalty later in the half was again duly scored by Blackburn to bring the score to 10-0.

In the second half, the Bucks staged a good comeback with a well worked try through the fullback which was converted and penalty to tie the game. Scrumhalf Peter Jones seemed to be having a good game managing to match Blackburn's 2 for 2 kicking percentage. There were to be no tries for the rest of the game but penalties proved to be the turning point in the match.

The Wanderers' Marcus Blackburn managed to convert two penalties into points on the scoreboard while Peter Jones chalked up one more for the challengers to the trophy to bring the score to 16-13 to the wanderers.

Late on in the game, a good spell of pressure from the Bucks combined with several errors from the Wanderers resulted in the Bucks being awarded two penalties in good kicking positions. But the pressure of the cup finals got to scrumhalf Peter Jones and he missed both penalties, one hitting the left upright and the next hitting the right upright. Although much accuracy is needed to accomplish such a feat, points are only awarded for penalties that go between the post and above the crossbar. Effectively, the two missed penalties lost the game for the bucks as the final whistle went just after the second missed opportunity to signal the end of the game. As Peter Jones sunk to his knees, the Wanderers and their supporting fans rose to their feet to celebrate the victory. The Bucks will have to wait til next season to try and match the Wanderers feat of the domestic double that the Wanderers achieved last season.

Mohd Jamal came on midway through the second half as the fullback and had an uneventful final although he would be happy to bring the championship medal back home to his new son.

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okay.... enough for the corny match report.... it really was a good final lah... damn exciting.... really close and the drama at the end was fantastic... haha....

but san miguel really robbed me... fiftenn bucks for three lousy cans of beer.... damn... and i gave one to boon.... damn... haha... oh well... there is still next year's sevens to look forward to...

ITS OVER!!!! its finally over... the single most impt event of the year is finally over.... the autopsy will be in in a couple weeks.... and that is when i find out if the slacking i did for most of the year really did as much damage as i thought it did... hopefully not....

the physics was a killer... really... i guess i didn't really prepare much for it... most of my time was spent on econs and maths.... econs is really my best hope for an a lvl pass right now.... i think that maths is a possibility... but there is still my mid year results... and that'll pull my maths really far down....

there's a lot of stuff lined up for the holidays.... most of it has to do with rugby.... training training and more training.... there isn't really much to worry abt now... other than PW and that'll be over in a few weeks time.... we've got a trip to m'sia lined up, combining with SRJC's rugby team to play a few m'sian teams....

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here comes all the hot stuff for the folk who like a bit of gossip.... its the end of the promos... so i guess it's time to take action.... bit i guess i didn't strike when the iron was hot.... was talking to lorbah... and he said that i shd just ask her... at the most she say no and we be friends... right... right? yeah...

so i'll do that... i mean i guess i'll never really know what she'll say until i ask her right...

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i don't really have much to blog abt... just felt that i shd probably go online and do something since the promos are over and i don't need to study le... haha...
kinda bo liao.... but that's how i am....

there's no cure for the disease.... so you just have to live with it....