tiredness.... pain..... satisfaction......

my leg is really getting very uncomfortable.... but i still wanna play on thurs.... i'm not going to miss it....

jamal just told us that we're not going to be playing on home turf but instead at farrer park.... dammit.... that field suck sia.... stinks to high hell.... hrm is there really such a thing as high hell when hell is down there... well anyway.... back to the point.... the only thing nice about that field is that it is quite even.... unlike our sch field..... they have a roller there to press the ground lor.... damn shiok.... and least you know that you won't sprain ur ankle by just running ard there... haha....

hrm... looks like our first home game as a J1 team is gonna be the testi.... hrm... the backs are gonna be really strong lor.... andy as standoff, suki or henry as the inside, richard outside, chian yee one wing, alvin another wing and melgious as fullback.... siao liao... haha... i don't wanna die in front of the whole sch lor... haha....

the forwards or gonna be tough too lor.... dud and guo wei props.... jian lin hooker.... mark tian bao 2nd row..... jeff and kok siong flankers.... jin chao no.8.... and JOEL scrumhalf.....
man.... joel is a real worry lor.... he's a damn good scrumhalf.... i respect him but i won't give him any space to play.... he's taught me all i know about scrumhalving and i hope he's taught me enuf..... hrm....

haiz.... life is really wierd.... lots of stuff happens for no reason.... just like why did anyone allow freddy and hui xiang to go on stage to sing that tamil song this morning... man.... if i was indian, i would be insulted too.... thank god miss/mrs nirmala (??) was at hand to stop them.... man... i don't think that i could have taken anymore of it... it was a real mockery of the tamil language....

hrm.... confused.... feelings are all jumbled inside of me... what to do.... what to say....

i don't know...

i can't explain what i feel right now.... but i'm just caught in the middle....