::at long last::
finally setting aside some time to update my blog... haven't really been coming online very often lately... between the bouts of hacking coughs, tissues stuffed up my nose, etc, i don't really feel like blogging... been sick like that for a few weeks now and it's really draining me of energy... i'm just feeling very tired but there's no time to rest... not now... not when it's so close... just within reach but not fully in our grasp yet...
::almost there. definately not going nowhere::
don't know what is happening to my passion for my sport... this time last year i would have killed anyone that stood between me and field... maybe it's just cuz of me not feeling too well... sorry to disappoint anyone... but frankly speaking, i'll be happy when the season is over... that's why i can get down to actual studying not just going thru the motions everyday in sch...
kinda pissed off... boon.. can i be frank with you... that fri you really pissed me off... for the past few weeks or so i have helped out with keeping logistics every training while everyone was changing up and going home... i spent half an hour going in and out of the store last tues to help kenneth and the year ones to keep stuff... and when i called in a favour last night cuz i was in a hurry, you say that i was just making excuses not to do logis... wad de hell... that was too much lar... as a logistics head, you are not just there to assign ppl to do the logistics... you have to go with them to ensure that all the equipment is in the right place and safely in the store instead of staying out on the field kicking... come on dude... you looking for a post with more responsability with next year's batch... den you gotta start taking on the responsability now...
::4G bbq::
had a good time at the bbq... haven't seen you guys for such a super long time... i can't even rmbr the last time i went out with you ppl... haiz... you guys are lucky that you're in the same sch.. can at least see each other in sch... haha... makes me think of what life might've been like if i went to poly instead of JC... haha... i don't regret coming to NY... but i just makes me wonder...
yuto, shand, thiong, zai quan, dd, xinghui and pris... thanks alot for the prezzie... just to let you all know... i used it today to go out... so yeah... love it... plus it really matches my sch uni... nice choice... haha...
::on a much lighter note::
TOP TEN REJECTED CHILDREN'S TOYS
And the number one rejected children's toy...
1. Don't Drink the Bong Water
go visit http:/toptenlog.blogspot.com/
super funny dude.... haha...
Friday, April 15, 2005
::approaching maturity? hell no::
as of 0821h today, the 15th of april 2005, i am able to go into a club without fear of being checked, able to buy liquor without worrying about the cashier asking me for identification, able to walk into a s'pore pools outlet place bets and collect winnings without having to act eighteen...
that's right boys and gurls... today's my birthday...
A BIG BIG BIG THANK YOU TO ALL THE PPL THAT HELPED ME TO CELEBRATE IN ONE WAY OR THE OTHER
was so touched by the prezzies and the cards and stuff that i received today... and the "tattoos" that i had on my arms tho it was not entirely voluntary....
haha... but anyway... it was such a good day... had a lot of fun....
and also to the people that sent me sms greetings... really made my day....
at least i can forget my troubles for a while and have a good time with all my frens and family...
as of 0821h today, the 15th of april 2005, i am able to go into a club without fear of being checked, able to buy liquor without worrying about the cashier asking me for identification, able to walk into a s'pore pools outlet place bets and collect winnings without having to act eighteen...
that's right boys and gurls... today's my birthday...
A BIG BIG BIG THANK YOU TO ALL THE PPL THAT HELPED ME TO CELEBRATE IN ONE WAY OR THE OTHER
was so touched by the prezzies and the cards and stuff that i received today... and the "tattoos" that i had on my arms tho it was not entirely voluntary....
haha... but anyway... it was such a good day... had a lot of fun....
and also to the people that sent me sms greetings... really made my day....
at least i can forget my troubles for a while and have a good time with all my frens and family...
Thursday, April 14, 2005
::surprises::
thanks guys... such a "memorable" day....
haha... i don't get angry... i just get revenge... the seven guys better watch out on their birthdays...
haha... but really.. it was so nice lar... thank BX for dinner.. and the guys for embarrassing me in the pizza hut with the birthday song... wad de hell..
touching sia...
and it's not even my birthday lar... wtf...
will remember this guys.... it's gonna be ur turn soon...
surprised
thanks guys... such a "memorable" day....
haha... i don't get angry... i just get revenge... the seven guys better watch out on their birthdays...
haha... but really.. it was so nice lar... thank BX for dinner.. and the guys for embarrassing me in the pizza hut with the birthday song... wad de hell..
touching sia...
and it's not even my birthday lar... wtf...
will remember this guys.... it's gonna be ur turn soon...
surprised
Friday, April 08, 2005
::the final stretch::
the a divs are finally here... or at least just ard the corner... what we've been training so hard for...
haiz... nervous yet excited... cannot wait for nxt week and yet wish that it will never come....
so contradictory... but yupps.. that's how i feel...
NYJC will be playing in the grp stages with PJC, RJC, JJC and SRJC....
we had the chance to be the first people to wear the new forest green canter jerseys... so cool... it was damn nice having that privilege....
::affected?::
haiz.. think i'm getting affected by everything piling up... esp at this time... btwn the trainings, there isn't really time to do any homework... i guess i'm guilty of being a tad lazy... okay fine.. truthfully.. i'm being REALLY lazy... but can't help it... don't get enuf quality sleep at night, zonk thru sch, get home to eat dinner and then TRY to sleep... i'm just there in body but not in mind and spirit...
i kinda have some kind of idea of what i want to do after JC, but i just don't know where to start... what is required for me to enter the course, the scope of the courses that i'm interested in, etc... i guess i still have a bit of research to do...
but mostly, i'm really being hindered by my dilemma... i don't know what to do... there is so many things involved... i don't wanna just step out and imagine that i don't have feelings for her... but at the same time... haiz... dunnoe how to put it.....
::stoned::
i just feel like sitting in a corner of sch and stoning... pretending to be brain dead.... every now and then, i'd get up and act mentally unsound(not too tough for me), freak everyone out then go back to being a vegetable...
it would be nice to be able to just sit there without a care in the world, not bothering abt the nxt maths assignment test or finishing the latest physics tutorial... without having to plan for the future and just be there living for the present and talking whatever comes ur way....
to have a bunch of friends who will stone with you forever that you can crap with....
life's full of worries... i'm not saying that it won't be... cuz it is....
but it's nice having dreams isn't it....
::the ways of the sith::
i'd like to stand up during common lunch and shout F*** OFF at the top of my lungs to let off steam... of course there are alot of undesired repercussions that come with doing such a thing.. that's what keeps me sitting down quietly in a corner. brewing up like a pressure cooker...
it's been a long long time since i've been really truly madly deeply ANGRY with someone... i mean red hot angry... i feel the urge to shout or deck someone that i don't like... haiz... i know it's wrong... but it is quite refreshing...
nooo... anger leads to hate and hate leads to suffering.. that is the path to the dark side... i cannot allow myself to fall to the temptations of the dark side...
okay... so that's getting a bit lame... but it's my blog... i'll write what i want....
the a divs are finally here... or at least just ard the corner... what we've been training so hard for...
haiz... nervous yet excited... cannot wait for nxt week and yet wish that it will never come....
so contradictory... but yupps.. that's how i feel...
NYJC will be playing in the grp stages with PJC, RJC, JJC and SRJC....
we had the chance to be the first people to wear the new forest green canter jerseys... so cool... it was damn nice having that privilege....
::affected?::
haiz.. think i'm getting affected by everything piling up... esp at this time... btwn the trainings, there isn't really time to do any homework... i guess i'm guilty of being a tad lazy... okay fine.. truthfully.. i'm being REALLY lazy... but can't help it... don't get enuf quality sleep at night, zonk thru sch, get home to eat dinner and then TRY to sleep... i'm just there in body but not in mind and spirit...
i kinda have some kind of idea of what i want to do after JC, but i just don't know where to start... what is required for me to enter the course, the scope of the courses that i'm interested in, etc... i guess i still have a bit of research to do...
but mostly, i'm really being hindered by my dilemma... i don't know what to do... there is so many things involved... i don't wanna just step out and imagine that i don't have feelings for her... but at the same time... haiz... dunnoe how to put it.....
::stoned::
i just feel like sitting in a corner of sch and stoning... pretending to be brain dead.... every now and then, i'd get up and act mentally unsound(not too tough for me), freak everyone out then go back to being a vegetable...
it would be nice to be able to just sit there without a care in the world, not bothering abt the nxt maths assignment test or finishing the latest physics tutorial... without having to plan for the future and just be there living for the present and talking whatever comes ur way....
to have a bunch of friends who will stone with you forever that you can crap with....
life's full of worries... i'm not saying that it won't be... cuz it is....
but it's nice having dreams isn't it....
::the ways of the sith::
i'd like to stand up during common lunch and shout F*** OFF at the top of my lungs to let off steam... of course there are alot of undesired repercussions that come with doing such a thing.. that's what keeps me sitting down quietly in a corner. brewing up like a pressure cooker...
it's been a long long time since i've been really truly madly deeply ANGRY with someone... i mean red hot angry... i feel the urge to shout or deck someone that i don't like... haiz... i know it's wrong... but it is quite refreshing...
nooo... anger leads to hate and hate leads to suffering.. that is the path to the dark side... i cannot allow myself to fall to the temptations of the dark side...
okay... so that's getting a bit lame... but it's my blog... i'll write what i want....
Friday, April 01, 2005
::what's my age again?::
i can't stand it... for the past week, my grandfather has been bugging me over and again abt me coming home "late"... what the hell... I'm freaking 17 going to be 18 in a couple of weeks... hey... i know how to take care of myself... I'm not some helpless child that needs to have someone holding my hand anytime that i step out of the house... what the hell....
give me my space... you may be concerned abt me but pls, i need to be able to do my own stuff too... for the past YEAR, i have always come home about 8-9 o'clock cuz of rugby training... you'd think that he'd get the idea that i won't be back for dinner in time cuz of training.... yet every single time that i come home a bit late after training he'll give me some stupid talking to abt calling home when I'm not coming back... I'VE BLOODY A BILLION PHARKING TIMES TOLD YOU THAT I WILL ALWAYS COME HOME LATE TUES AND THURS CUZ OF TRAINING!!
he never listens to me anyway... so i don't know why i even bother...
i don't really have a good relationship with my grandfather... we tolerate each other... don't expect any more than that....
i guess it's cuz I'm the grandchild that gave the most problems...
::brain-busting dilemma::
dunnoe if I'm going to give up the policy.... don't think that it is a very good idea... she's nice... too nice for a guy like me... i don't think that i can really make her happy....
i want to tell her... don't know if i shd... cuz i don't wanna spoilt anything... and i have a nagging feeling that things won't go well if i do... oh man...
::university::
was looking around at courses just for interests sake in the aussie uni guide.... there was this course that sounded interesting... Bachelor in psychology and bachelor in education(primary).... what it's all abt is learning abt the psychological development of children... at the primary school level... it may not seem glam or something (primary school teacher? haha) but it is really something working with kids...
but was also thinking if i could do something that i enjoyed personally like photography both as an artform as well as photography as a form of journalism, sports, portraits and the like... but it is a tough life... it really depends on ur luck... if you get a really good pic that can stand out against the tons of others, then you've got it made... ppl will be queuing up to get you to take their photo... and can you imagine having a picture that you took up on the cover of Time mag circulating all around the world... woah... the pride....
don't know what exactly my combi has to do with the courses that i was interested in, but these are just two that I'm actually interested in...
::it's just a block test. real one's coming up soon::
220 days to my first paper... yes... we've counting the no. of days left.. and that is the figure that we came up with... scary huh... kinda brings me down to earth...
i screwed up my block test... got like 16.5 outta 60 for maths... super bad.. that's like a pure F... plus i just passed my econs... a subject that i don't expect to score well in without studying... and i didn't really study for block tests... so i kinda deserve the grade.. but one sub that i did study for is phys... if i fail that I'm really gonna take the "express lift" down from the highest block of flats the HDB has to offer...... haha... kiddin... i think?
my dad's been starting to ask me abt sch more and more now... that means that he is indirectly trying to give the hint that i'd better do well or else he'll skin me alive... nah... he won't really skin me alive... i think he'll take whatever i get... as long as i can do something with it... but he is trying to pressure me into becoming the most studious student nanyang has ever seen... of course it doesn't work that way with me... I'm not like that... there's no way that he can ever pressure me into something like studying....
to borrow an old cliche.. it's my way or the highway... i did it for o lvls... i brought myself frm like a high 20 L1R5 to 14... it's not spectacular... but i think that i did what i could.. and the improvement in grades really made my day... reward for the work that i put in during the run-up to the o lvls... i know that the a lvls are a totally different kettle of fish... but i'm sure that i can do it again... i worked out a kind of study schedule and i'm really gonna work after the A divs are over... i know what you ppl are thinking... it's soooo much easier said than done... but i'm sure that i can do it... i'll show everyone that ever doubted in me...
i can't stand it... for the past week, my grandfather has been bugging me over and again abt me coming home "late"... what the hell... I'm freaking 17 going to be 18 in a couple of weeks... hey... i know how to take care of myself... I'm not some helpless child that needs to have someone holding my hand anytime that i step out of the house... what the hell....
give me my space... you may be concerned abt me but pls, i need to be able to do my own stuff too... for the past YEAR, i have always come home about 8-9 o'clock cuz of rugby training... you'd think that he'd get the idea that i won't be back for dinner in time cuz of training.... yet every single time that i come home a bit late after training he'll give me some stupid talking to abt calling home when I'm not coming back... I'VE BLOODY A BILLION PHARKING TIMES TOLD YOU THAT I WILL ALWAYS COME HOME LATE TUES AND THURS CUZ OF TRAINING!!
he never listens to me anyway... so i don't know why i even bother...
i don't really have a good relationship with my grandfather... we tolerate each other... don't expect any more than that....
i guess it's cuz I'm the grandchild that gave the most problems...
::brain-busting dilemma::
dunnoe if I'm going to give up the policy.... don't think that it is a very good idea... she's nice... too nice for a guy like me... i don't think that i can really make her happy....
i want to tell her... don't know if i shd... cuz i don't wanna spoilt anything... and i have a nagging feeling that things won't go well if i do... oh man...
::university::
was looking around at courses just for interests sake in the aussie uni guide.... there was this course that sounded interesting... Bachelor in psychology and bachelor in education(primary).... what it's all abt is learning abt the psychological development of children... at the primary school level... it may not seem glam or something (primary school teacher? haha) but it is really something working with kids...
but was also thinking if i could do something that i enjoyed personally like photography both as an artform as well as photography as a form of journalism, sports, portraits and the like... but it is a tough life... it really depends on ur luck... if you get a really good pic that can stand out against the tons of others, then you've got it made... ppl will be queuing up to get you to take their photo... and can you imagine having a picture that you took up on the cover of Time mag circulating all around the world... woah... the pride....
don't know what exactly my combi has to do with the courses that i was interested in, but these are just two that I'm actually interested in...
::it's just a block test. real one's coming up soon::
220 days to my first paper... yes... we've counting the no. of days left.. and that is the figure that we came up with... scary huh... kinda brings me down to earth...
i screwed up my block test... got like 16.5 outta 60 for maths... super bad.. that's like a pure F... plus i just passed my econs... a subject that i don't expect to score well in without studying... and i didn't really study for block tests... so i kinda deserve the grade.. but one sub that i did study for is phys... if i fail that I'm really gonna take the "express lift" down from the highest block of flats the HDB has to offer...... haha... kiddin... i think?
my dad's been starting to ask me abt sch more and more now... that means that he is indirectly trying to give the hint that i'd better do well or else he'll skin me alive... nah... he won't really skin me alive... i think he'll take whatever i get... as long as i can do something with it... but he is trying to pressure me into becoming the most studious student nanyang has ever seen... of course it doesn't work that way with me... I'm not like that... there's no way that he can ever pressure me into something like studying....
to borrow an old cliche.. it's my way or the highway... i did it for o lvls... i brought myself frm like a high 20 L1R5 to 14... it's not spectacular... but i think that i did what i could.. and the improvement in grades really made my day... reward for the work that i put in during the run-up to the o lvls... i know that the a lvls are a totally different kettle of fish... but i'm sure that i can do it again... i worked out a kind of study schedule and i'm really gonna work after the A divs are over... i know what you ppl are thinking... it's soooo much easier said than done... but i'm sure that i can do it... i'll show everyone that ever doubted in me...
Saturday, March 26, 2005
::touch::
oh man... i've got a red v-shaped mark on my chest... kena sunburn until quite obvious...
and yes... for those of you wondering... i DO get sunburned... so yeah...
went all the way to WOODLANDS to play touch... haha...
lost all three games... but who cares.. it's just touch.. and it's not like it was a totally serious competition... we were slacking on the field lar... haha... didn't really run back in defence and stuff...
we only really played during the fijian touch among ourselves before lunch... and even then it was slack... haha...
mananged to stay and watch the singapore vs. india game... oh man.. no offence... but the s'pore team blew the indians AWAY.. haha... go reds....
::foot-hand agony::
ever think that your toes are like just another part of your foot... or that your pinky is just a useless piece of flesh... well.. i never will think like that again...
it's when you sprain your pinky and big toe that you truely appreciate them....
was in agony when i took off my boots after the matches.... woah... could hardly walk to the dining hall for lunch... and my pinky is not much better... i think my handling could have been much better if it was at 100%...
hrm... thinking of going to see sinseh and see if he can do anything about it....
i know that western doctors are TOTALLY useless at sports injuries... they just look at the thing, give you painkillers that don't really help and charge you $40.... i've learnt my lesson...
::phucking thieves::
i don't see how it can happen... in a junior college you would expect grown up, young adults who would know right frm wrong... and yet... on thurs, five bags went missing frm the grandstand... four frm soccer and one frm rugby....
i was thinking that it was an honest mistake that someone took the bags thinking it was their friends.... but after hearing that there were four other bags missing, i have a feeling that the ppl that took it knew what they were doing....
haiz... brings such a bad name to nanyang...
a junior of mine (well not yet officially a junior) lost his WHOLE bag including handphone and wallet on the, i think, the first day that he stepped into nanyang.... wad de hell.... phuck these kids....
::bbq::
hrm.. i think it was quite a success... just enough ppl came to finish the food and so we didn't have a shortage or an extreme surplus of food...
sorry pw that you had to eat a bit leftover food... but at least the fire was hot enuf to heat it up.... haha...
all of them ending up staying the whole night.... playing mahjong with NO MONEY.... how sian... got no excitement... haha... so i ending up not playing much... just a couple of games in the morning.... slept all the way until 3 after they left... man.. was tired after clearing up the place after all the other guests left...
thanks for coming ppl....
overall it was a preeetty good week... cept for the block tests lar.... haha... kidna screwed.. and chinese is seriously giving me alot of probs.... but yeah... life is good....
oh man... i've got a red v-shaped mark on my chest... kena sunburn until quite obvious...
and yes... for those of you wondering... i DO get sunburned... so yeah...
went all the way to WOODLANDS to play touch... haha...
lost all three games... but who cares.. it's just touch.. and it's not like it was a totally serious competition... we were slacking on the field lar... haha... didn't really run back in defence and stuff...
we only really played during the fijian touch among ourselves before lunch... and even then it was slack... haha...
mananged to stay and watch the singapore vs. india game... oh man.. no offence... but the s'pore team blew the indians AWAY.. haha... go reds....
::foot-hand agony::
ever think that your toes are like just another part of your foot... or that your pinky is just a useless piece of flesh... well.. i never will think like that again...
it's when you sprain your pinky and big toe that you truely appreciate them....
was in agony when i took off my boots after the matches.... woah... could hardly walk to the dining hall for lunch... and my pinky is not much better... i think my handling could have been much better if it was at 100%...
hrm... thinking of going to see sinseh and see if he can do anything about it....
i know that western doctors are TOTALLY useless at sports injuries... they just look at the thing, give you painkillers that don't really help and charge you $40.... i've learnt my lesson...
::phucking thieves::
i don't see how it can happen... in a junior college you would expect grown up, young adults who would know right frm wrong... and yet... on thurs, five bags went missing frm the grandstand... four frm soccer and one frm rugby....
i was thinking that it was an honest mistake that someone took the bags thinking it was their friends.... but after hearing that there were four other bags missing, i have a feeling that the ppl that took it knew what they were doing....
haiz... brings such a bad name to nanyang...
a junior of mine (well not yet officially a junior) lost his WHOLE bag including handphone and wallet on the, i think, the first day that he stepped into nanyang.... wad de hell.... phuck these kids....
::bbq::
hrm.. i think it was quite a success... just enough ppl came to finish the food and so we didn't have a shortage or an extreme surplus of food...
sorry pw that you had to eat a bit leftover food... but at least the fire was hot enuf to heat it up.... haha...
all of them ending up staying the whole night.... playing mahjong with NO MONEY.... how sian... got no excitement... haha... so i ending up not playing much... just a couple of games in the morning.... slept all the way until 3 after they left... man.. was tired after clearing up the place after all the other guests left...
thanks for coming ppl....
overall it was a preeetty good week... cept for the block tests lar.... haha... kidna screwed.. and chinese is seriously giving me alot of probs.... but yeah... life is good....
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
::last one::
tmr is finally the last paper for the block test... phys Skill A...
design experiment... hrm... dun really have to study for it lar... Just need to know the format...
don't think I'll really be very happy with the results of the block tests tho...
esp my econs... i think that i could do better.... but didn't really study hard for it... So can't say anything lar... haha...
::Chinese::
the bane of my existence... a struggle every single year just to survive...
just in case you don't know... the last time i passed a Chinese exam was in primary two... Yes... I'm not ashamed... my Chinese is bad... sooooo what...
i thank God that now we don't HAVE to include Chinese into uni entry... altho we still have to pass it, it is kinda easier now with the D7 rule and Chinese B....
blardy sch.... the sch is not allowing me to take Chinese B for the mid years... So i gotta take chi AO and only if i fail that one can i take chi B... wad the hell.. That is like a TOTAL waste of my time... i really don't think that i could pass it... Even if there was a strange marking error that automatically gave everyone exactly 50%, i think I'd still fail it... haha... No joke...
the reason why i wanna take chi B is so that i can get Chinese out of the way and concentrate and worry abt my other papers that I'm having just as difficult a time with... damn cheena sch...
::Good?::
for those that don't really know what Good Friday is all about... It isn't really a holiday for celebration but rather more somber reflection... Catholics and Christians believe that Jesus Christ died to take away our sins and to save us frm ending up downstairs when we pass on... And Good Friday is the day that He died for us....
the season of Lent for Catholics starts abt five weeks before Good Friday and Lent is a time for Catholics to really reflect and think abt the sacrifice that Jesus made for our sake... the Passion of Christ, a reading frm the bible, is read in churches on Palm Sunday, the sunday before Good Friday, as a sort of remembrance of what he was put through... the scourging, the humiliation, the pain and the betrayal... If you watched "Passion of Christ", you can imagine what he was put through...
I'm not a very religious person... but i have faith although my faith is not strong... i waiver.... but then I'm only human... I can't help it... Jesus did wad he did for people like me... a sinner... He is like a shepherd that would leave the rest of herd to search for just one lost sheep....
+ i don't know how many of you will think that i'm just another person trying to evangelise but i'm not here to convert the whole world.. i'm just here to share my faith.. what little i can explain abt my faith... tell you what i believe in and share what great things i have received... i'm not used to sharing openly like this so i'm not very fluent with expressing myself... forgive my inability to share fully with you... +
tmr is finally the last paper for the block test... phys Skill A...
design experiment... hrm... dun really have to study for it lar... Just need to know the format...
don't think I'll really be very happy with the results of the block tests tho...
esp my econs... i think that i could do better.... but didn't really study hard for it... So can't say anything lar... haha...
::Chinese::
the bane of my existence... a struggle every single year just to survive...
just in case you don't know... the last time i passed a Chinese exam was in primary two... Yes... I'm not ashamed... my Chinese is bad... sooooo what...
i thank God that now we don't HAVE to include Chinese into uni entry... altho we still have to pass it, it is kinda easier now with the D7 rule and Chinese B....
blardy sch.... the sch is not allowing me to take Chinese B for the mid years... So i gotta take chi AO and only if i fail that one can i take chi B... wad the hell.. That is like a TOTAL waste of my time... i really don't think that i could pass it... Even if there was a strange marking error that automatically gave everyone exactly 50%, i think I'd still fail it... haha... No joke...
the reason why i wanna take chi B is so that i can get Chinese out of the way and concentrate and worry abt my other papers that I'm having just as difficult a time with... damn cheena sch...
::Good?::
for those that don't really know what Good Friday is all about... It isn't really a holiday for celebration but rather more somber reflection... Catholics and Christians believe that Jesus Christ died to take away our sins and to save us frm ending up downstairs when we pass on... And Good Friday is the day that He died for us....
the season of Lent for Catholics starts abt five weeks before Good Friday and Lent is a time for Catholics to really reflect and think abt the sacrifice that Jesus made for our sake... the Passion of Christ, a reading frm the bible, is read in churches on Palm Sunday, the sunday before Good Friday, as a sort of remembrance of what he was put through... the scourging, the humiliation, the pain and the betrayal... If you watched "Passion of Christ", you can imagine what he was put through...
I'm not a very religious person... but i have faith although my faith is not strong... i waiver.... but then I'm only human... I can't help it... Jesus did wad he did for people like me... a sinner... He is like a shepherd that would leave the rest of herd to search for just one lost sheep....
+ i don't know how many of you will think that i'm just another person trying to evangelise but i'm not here to convert the whole world.. i'm just here to share my faith.. what little i can explain abt my faith... tell you what i believe in and share what great things i have received... i'm not used to sharing openly like this so i'm not very fluent with expressing myself... forgive my inability to share fully with you... +
Sunday, March 20, 2005
::block tests::
block tests starting tmr... haven't really studied at all... Thank god tmr is just GP.... dun really need to study for that... buy me some extra time... of course tmr is also the bleeding CLAO paper.... but i that is kinda like a paper that i won't pass no matter how much i mug for it... there isn't much content for CLAO... my language is just bad....
::hakuna matata::
ah... the magic of a disney cartoon... a meerkat and a warthog singing a life of no worries... haha.... blissful ignorance....
i don't think any human living in today's world can safely say that he/she lives with no worries....
::teachers::
get so pissed sometimes with some of my tutors.... i know i shd say stuff like this... but i can't help feeling frustrated..
like GP... my whole class seems very bewildered by Aplication Questions in the paper 2.... our tutor continually tells us that we're not doing it the right way... instead of telling us that.... why don't you tell us WHAT we're doing wrong, HOW to do it right, WHAT the examiners look for in an AQ ans and hence how to score well...
hrm... no wonder nanyang has such a bad track record for GP....
there are, however, the teachers that really make a difference... Mrs Chong for one... she's so super nice and sometimes i'm ashamed to say that i take advantage of her general "niceness"... i still owe her a couple of econs essays....
it's not just the way that she conducts lessons but the fact that she actually is concerned abt us... not only our results but our mental and emotional wellbeing....
::unwanted emotion::
blame it on one's raging hormones.... but i don't think anyone plans to feel like this... it's like a whirlwind... Exhilarating yet destructive in nature.... a downward spiral....
on the topic of my "No Girls, No Exception" policy, I'm not inhuman with no feelings nor have i taken a vow of celibacy.... i'm just being practical... keeping my mind focused on the task at hand.... getting thru my A's with decent enough grades.... that shd be my main goal right now... shdn't it?
and yet.... i think i'm going further off track....
block tests starting tmr... haven't really studied at all... Thank god tmr is just GP.... dun really need to study for that... buy me some extra time... of course tmr is also the bleeding CLAO paper.... but i that is kinda like a paper that i won't pass no matter how much i mug for it... there isn't much content for CLAO... my language is just bad....
::hakuna matata::
ah... the magic of a disney cartoon... a meerkat and a warthog singing a life of no worries... haha.... blissful ignorance....
i don't think any human living in today's world can safely say that he/she lives with no worries....
::teachers::
get so pissed sometimes with some of my tutors.... i know i shd say stuff like this... but i can't help feeling frustrated..
like GP... my whole class seems very bewildered by Aplication Questions in the paper 2.... our tutor continually tells us that we're not doing it the right way... instead of telling us that.... why don't you tell us WHAT we're doing wrong, HOW to do it right, WHAT the examiners look for in an AQ ans and hence how to score well...
hrm... no wonder nanyang has such a bad track record for GP....
there are, however, the teachers that really make a difference... Mrs Chong for one... she's so super nice and sometimes i'm ashamed to say that i take advantage of her general "niceness"... i still owe her a couple of econs essays....
it's not just the way that she conducts lessons but the fact that she actually is concerned abt us... not only our results but our mental and emotional wellbeing....
::unwanted emotion::
blame it on one's raging hormones.... but i don't think anyone plans to feel like this... it's like a whirlwind... Exhilarating yet destructive in nature.... a downward spiral....
on the topic of my "No Girls, No Exception" policy, I'm not inhuman with no feelings nor have i taken a vow of celibacy.... i'm just being practical... keeping my mind focused on the task at hand.... getting thru my A's with decent enough grades.... that shd be my main goal right now... shdn't it?
and yet.... i think i'm going further off track....
Friday, March 11, 2005
blogging
hrm... i'm turning into a once a week blogger... haha... dun really have time to update anymore.... i'm staying in sch longer.... too tired by the time i get home... i don't really have the energy to blog.... oh well...
i guess that means that i'm spending more time on my studies and rugby....
equal amts of time on both i hope... haha...
school
school is great... my phys seems to be improving... and i'm getting slightly better grades... nothing to really be proud of... but i think that it is somewhat a great achievement for a slacker like me... my maths is getting a bit better too.... cept for my trigo.... bloody hell.. so many bleeding formulas....
block tests coming up soon.... gotta study sia... haha... otherwise pw will get the pleasure of painting my nails with liquid paper... haha...
rugby
the a divs is coming up soon... i seriously believe that we have a fighting chance to make it into the top four and fulfil mr tan's dream.... at the same time, i'm very hesitant to make such a claim.... cuz i dun want to make big promises and fall short of the mark... but i will give my best... all out for the a div... and i'm sure that we will bring nanyang to where it belongs...
the school has been very supportive... the new jerseys, the new tackle pads... the balls and the equipment... i feel so lucky to have such facilities....
jamal was saying that the first batch that he took didn't even have pads to practice for contact situations.... they had to borrow pads frm SRU and only trained for full contact situations a few months before the a div... and that was the team that almost made it into the top four.... here we are with our pads, training facilities... we better have something to show for the support given to us....
it is a good draw for us in the grp stages....
RJC, JJC, SRJC, PJC and us..... the teams are all around the same level as us, cept for RJ lar... but as my uncle told me... the draw is already in our favour... the rest is up to us...
term two
term two starts off with block tests.... haiz... sian right.... but that's life...
another batch of yr ones will be coming in.... hopefull there will be some good players that have some expirience that we could use for subs or even first team players.... so far only gerald mok, shang and dextor have made it into NYJC.... it would have been so nice if we could have had timothy goh, david and melvin come in... would have been cool... and would have solved some of our problems with lineup... but this is our a div... the year twos... it's our time to shine before getting down to studies....
here isn't really anything that i wanna blog abt right now lar... my life is totally abt studies and rugby for the next few months... other stuff is out of my mind.... well at least i'm trying to get it out of my mind... haha... but i have eyes... i can't help looking ard now and then can i.... that's something that no one can control....
one last thing... guys... can you imagine playing at the police academy in front of all those people... that would be so cool... i'm working to try and make that dream a reality... and if we do, the sch'll come down to support us.... that was jig's dream too... to have the sch come down and cheer on the NANYANG rugby team.... let's do it for the many nanyang ruggers before us, the future nanyang ruggers... and most importantly.... let's do it for ourselves... to prove our worth....
hrm... i'm turning into a once a week blogger... haha... dun really have time to update anymore.... i'm staying in sch longer.... too tired by the time i get home... i don't really have the energy to blog.... oh well...
i guess that means that i'm spending more time on my studies and rugby....
equal amts of time on both i hope... haha...
school
school is great... my phys seems to be improving... and i'm getting slightly better grades... nothing to really be proud of... but i think that it is somewhat a great achievement for a slacker like me... my maths is getting a bit better too.... cept for my trigo.... bloody hell.. so many bleeding formulas....
block tests coming up soon.... gotta study sia... haha... otherwise pw will get the pleasure of painting my nails with liquid paper... haha...
rugby
the a divs is coming up soon... i seriously believe that we have a fighting chance to make it into the top four and fulfil mr tan's dream.... at the same time, i'm very hesitant to make such a claim.... cuz i dun want to make big promises and fall short of the mark... but i will give my best... all out for the a div... and i'm sure that we will bring nanyang to where it belongs...
the school has been very supportive... the new jerseys, the new tackle pads... the balls and the equipment... i feel so lucky to have such facilities....
jamal was saying that the first batch that he took didn't even have pads to practice for contact situations.... they had to borrow pads frm SRU and only trained for full contact situations a few months before the a div... and that was the team that almost made it into the top four.... here we are with our pads, training facilities... we better have something to show for the support given to us....
it is a good draw for us in the grp stages....
RJC, JJC, SRJC, PJC and us..... the teams are all around the same level as us, cept for RJ lar... but as my uncle told me... the draw is already in our favour... the rest is up to us...
term two
term two starts off with block tests.... haiz... sian right.... but that's life...
another batch of yr ones will be coming in.... hopefull there will be some good players that have some expirience that we could use for subs or even first team players.... so far only gerald mok, shang and dextor have made it into NYJC.... it would have been so nice if we could have had timothy goh, david and melvin come in... would have been cool... and would have solved some of our problems with lineup... but this is our a div... the year twos... it's our time to shine before getting down to studies....
here isn't really anything that i wanna blog abt right now lar... my life is totally abt studies and rugby for the next few months... other stuff is out of my mind.... well at least i'm trying to get it out of my mind... haha... but i have eyes... i can't help looking ard now and then can i.... that's something that no one can control....
one last thing... guys... can you imagine playing at the police academy in front of all those people... that would be so cool... i'm working to try and make that dream a reality... and if we do, the sch'll come down to support us.... that was jig's dream too... to have the sch come down and cheer on the NANYANG rugby team.... let's do it for the many nanyang ruggers before us, the future nanyang ruggers... and most importantly.... let's do it for ourselves... to prove our worth....
Saturday, March 05, 2005
CLAO results out
results came out for CLAO.... eff-ed up lar...
passed my oral but flunked the paper overall...
haiz... wad to do... go take CLB lar... can get into uni can le...
kinda disappointed tho... i kinda expected to flunk...
but still when the results come out, it's just not nice...
haha.. kinda deserve it though... didn't study AT ALL for it...
so i can't say that i warranted better grades.... haha...
hrm... my sis did quite decently for her A's
B for maths and Cs for econs and hist...
plus a B3 in GP....
haha.. oh man.. that really puts the pressure on me to perform just as well...
damn her... why must she study so damn hard.... wad de....
Wo Men De Bai Yun Gang
went to watch wo men de bai yun gang... haha... must say that i enjoyed myself...
and yes... i did understand it... my cheena is not that lousy lar...
haha.. well done to all the performers as well as the backstage crew etc....
you guys did a wonderful job and really did the sch proud...
if you can get a guy like me to say that i enjoyed a chinese drama performance,
then i think you deserve like a medal of honour or something....
haha... there were some pri sch kids that got pretty scared during the second play...
quite farnie watching them....
Random Thoughts
i'm the kinda guy that gets left on the shelf... you know...
the last box that no one will buy when all the rest are snapped up...
haha.... pathetic, no?
but, still... i hold the hope that i might find someone crazy enuf to
take a second glance at a guy like me....
Even More Randomness
If you look at the world, you'll be distressed...
If you look within, you'll be depressed...
But if you look at Jesus, you'll be at rest....
i was kinda down after getting the CL results.... even though it was a kinda expected thing.... and i thank God that i have friends to remind me of whom i can really turn to in times like this....
as the we approach Good Friday, thoughts of how Jesus suffered so much puts stuff like bad results into perspective...
i got an F, he died to save the people that killed him...
what is there for me to be down about?
results came out for CLAO.... eff-ed up lar...
passed my oral but flunked the paper overall...
haiz... wad to do... go take CLB lar... can get into uni can le...
kinda disappointed tho... i kinda expected to flunk...
but still when the results come out, it's just not nice...
haha.. kinda deserve it though... didn't study AT ALL for it...
so i can't say that i warranted better grades.... haha...
hrm... my sis did quite decently for her A's
B for maths and Cs for econs and hist...
plus a B3 in GP....
haha.. oh man.. that really puts the pressure on me to perform just as well...
damn her... why must she study so damn hard.... wad de....
Wo Men De Bai Yun Gang
went to watch wo men de bai yun gang... haha... must say that i enjoyed myself...
and yes... i did understand it... my cheena is not that lousy lar...
haha.. well done to all the performers as well as the backstage crew etc....
you guys did a wonderful job and really did the sch proud...
if you can get a guy like me to say that i enjoyed a chinese drama performance,
then i think you deserve like a medal of honour or something....
haha... there were some pri sch kids that got pretty scared during the second play...
quite farnie watching them....
Random Thoughts
i'm the kinda guy that gets left on the shelf... you know...
the last box that no one will buy when all the rest are snapped up...
haha.... pathetic, no?
but, still... i hold the hope that i might find someone crazy enuf to
take a second glance at a guy like me....
Even More Randomness
If you look at the world, you'll be distressed...
If you look within, you'll be depressed...
But if you look at Jesus, you'll be at rest....
i was kinda down after getting the CL results.... even though it was a kinda expected thing.... and i thank God that i have friends to remind me of whom i can really turn to in times like this....
as the we approach Good Friday, thoughts of how Jesus suffered so much puts stuff like bad results into perspective...
i got an F, he died to save the people that killed him...
what is there for me to be down about?
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