a real joke

Omg. What a joke the 27th student council is. I have a few friends in the council and I don't wanna insult them. But I don't think they have done much for the school as of yet. They are supposed to be the "elite" of the school and they'll probably get more PEARLS points than most of the school population.

But I really think that if they are going to get the amount of points that they are going to get then they have to work for it. I think so far the only thing that I have seen them organising as a proper unit is the National Day celebrations. I must admit that they have done quite a lot of preparations for the celebrations.

But stuff like the teaching of the National Day songs was a total and utter FLOP. That chinese song that they ''taught'' on Monday is still a mystery. They didn’t actually teach the song. Two councillors just went up on stage and sang it for the rest of the school to listen to. You call that teaching? I don't.

Then what happened on Tuesday was total crap. Freddy and Hui xiang just went up on stage to make fools of themselves. Hey, I have nothing against being extroverted but that was just humiliating. The whole point of racial harmony n stuff must have been totally lost on them. And again, they didn’t teach the song.

The only song that they have successfully gotten the participation and the enthusiasm of the school with is ''Chan Mali Chan''. Haha... I guess the more classic the song the better. Everyone loves folk songs right. Going back to our childhoods and reminiscing about how carefree it was back then. I mean, who wouldn’t like that.

So far the council hasn’t really made an impact on the school in general. They are very cliquish. They tend to stick within themselves. They really shd try and be more open instead of hanging ard each other. That’s the point of having a council what. They are supposed to be an interface between the school management and the student population. The council is not supposed to be an elitist class that doesn’t need to give a crap about the rest of us.

The idea of having a council is for them to be our mouths and voice out our concerns and complaints to the people that run the school. I hope that they at least get that part right……

tiredness.... pain..... satisfaction......

my leg is really getting very uncomfortable.... but i still wanna play on thurs.... i'm not going to miss it....

jamal just told us that we're not going to be playing on home turf but instead at farrer park.... dammit.... that field suck sia.... stinks to high hell.... hrm is there really such a thing as high hell when hell is down there... well anyway.... back to the point.... the only thing nice about that field is that it is quite even.... unlike our sch field..... they have a roller there to press the ground lor.... damn shiok.... and least you know that you won't sprain ur ankle by just running ard there... haha....

hrm... looks like our first home game as a J1 team is gonna be the testi.... hrm... the backs are gonna be really strong lor.... andy as standoff, suki or henry as the inside, richard outside, chian yee one wing, alvin another wing and melgious as fullback.... siao liao... haha... i don't wanna die in front of the whole sch lor... haha....

the forwards or gonna be tough too lor.... dud and guo wei props.... jian lin hooker.... mark tian bao 2nd row..... jeff and kok siong flankers.... jin chao no.8.... and JOEL scrumhalf.....
man.... joel is a real worry lor.... he's a damn good scrumhalf.... i respect him but i won't give him any space to play.... he's taught me all i know about scrumhalving and i hope he's taught me enuf..... hrm....

haiz.... life is really wierd.... lots of stuff happens for no reason.... just like why did anyone allow freddy and hui xiang to go on stage to sing that tamil song this morning... man.... if i was indian, i would be insulted too.... thank god miss/mrs nirmala (??) was at hand to stop them.... man... i don't think that i could have taken anymore of it... it was a real mockery of the tamil language....

hrm.... confused.... feelings are all jumbled inside of me... what to do.... what to say....

i don't know...

i can't explain what i feel right now.... but i'm just caught in the middle....

haha.... jamal said fuck.... muahahaha

hehe... sorrie lah... i have hardly ever heard him say fuck..... but he's a really cool role model....
damn funny.... hardly ever curses....
marcus blackburn on the other hand.... haha..... good rugby player but kinda vulgar... haha....
it was damn farnie sia..... the SAFSA out centre shouted at him:"fuck you".... mr. blackburn just turned around and replyed:"shut up you fucking twat".... haha... of course if i tell you guys now it won't be funny lah.... but when you hear it in his ang mo accent and in the context of the situation, it was a killer punch line.... abang, boon, guo feng and i were laughing at the touch line....
the touch gals played good games today..... they lost the first two games but when we showed up they started winning and drawing their matches.... haha.... maybe we're like their good luck charms or sumting... haha.... but they seriously played quite well..... can see all the loops and the running in their play.... they really shd have trashed the RSN team..... they were camping in front of the RSN touch line for practically the whole match..... but at least they still came away with the win....
we stayed after that to watch the guys playing tens.... hrm... the rugby culture at pioneer quite strong..... their lines are all damn neatly painted and their posts are ramrod straight..... haha.... but they didn't even kick penalties or conversions today.... so the posts quite useless oso... haha.... but at least they got the support frm the sch.... our sch still went and cut the rugby team's budget..... kaoz.....
haiz.... well.... nothing really to say....
cheers ppl

hrm.... today was better than yesterday... but it still sucked....

hrm.... this post is gonna be a lot milder than yesterday's post.... mainly cuz i think it was a lot better day today.....
it started pretty okay.... if you consider flunking a physic class test that i didn't study for pretty okay.... but it got pretty sian about the time mrs leong stepped into class... haha... she's actually not that bad lah.... but i just wasn't in the mood for her nonsense.... so crappy.... made me do a whole qn on the whiteboard....hrm... but i was pretty surprised that i could actully do the qn and get it right.... totally unexpected.... i didn't even listen to the maths lectures for vectors.... i just copied the stuff blindly..... hrm... not bad....
i decided to go for taekwondo training today with wei an.... haha.... as expected all my stuff were damn off.... my kicks were damn slow and quite low... (hehe.... kinda rhymes...) but as expected my instructor was still bullying the little kids... hehe.... we got it frm him when we were kids... now he's laying it down on other kids.... hehe....
oh.... almost forgot.... i had to go for that stupid EV thing today..... basically a suck up session to the MOE.... my god.... felt so hypocritical.... wanted to say alot of stuff bout the sch... but i decided not to.... cuz i didn't wanna give NY a bad name..... the name "nanyang junior college" is gonna be on my leaving cert.... so i better make sure that the name looks good.... haha....
so on the whole i guess it was a good day.....
not exactly looking forward to the 3.2 run tmr morning.... but i guess it'll be okay....
look out people.... i'm back.... and if you don't run hard enuf, i'm gonna kick ur ass til kingdom come....

one fucked up day....

parental advisory:
rated M18 for vulgar language

 
what the fuck.... today was like one of the most fucked up days of my life to date..... first i fucked up my SPA.... then i couldn't get my fucking contacts in until my eyes were fucking red..... then i practically fucked up every single ball during the team run.... either too fucking high or too fucking low.... then after i got home i discovered i lost my fucking spec case with my fucking specs in it... obvious that my specs were in the fucking spec case.... otherwise it wouldn't be called a fucking spec case would it....

what the fuck can i say.... tmr i have to wake up earlier just to make sure i can get my fucking contacts on before my unc comes to pick me up.... what the fuck am i going to do without my specs.... my contacts are like damn fucking blur cuz my degree went up since i had them made.... i've got econs lec tmr and i don't think i'll be able to see the fucking screen without my specs....

what the fuck... during training all my fucking passes were substandard until jamal can comment on it.... i wasn't even able to fucking concentrate during training.... even danny can tell me that i wasn't looking myself.....(<----- this is the only sentence in this post without the word fuck in it)

what the fuck..... i just didn't have the fucking mood to train today.... bloody fuck.... fuck even adrian tan can say that i don't seem to have my heart in the training session.....

what the fuck is wrong with me today..... can someone just tell me why i'm so fucked up today....
bloody fuck.....

 
Fuck count:28 (bloody fuck why am i counting it for you.... count it yourself)

corrected fuck count: 29

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yeah... that's right... nothing....
cheers.....

Music

Music... thank god for it....

its my escape frm life... i'm lucky that i can play some kind of instrument and that I can use it as a outlet for my problems to express themselves.... I think without my keyboard or my guitar I'll be totally lost... I mean... when you play you forget all your worries.... all your pains.... everything that bothers you just disappears.... just like that.... you pour all the things that you cannot express in words into the instrument and let the music take all of the negativity away.....

its not just to cure my problems.... when i'm happy... when I feel glad to be alive.... my guitar will tell the world... not in words.... but in the music..... in the way that I play...

I don't need anyone to listen to my music... I just have to play it... and it seems as if there is someone there listening to my joys and my pains.... kinda like your own personal psychiatrist... without the bills....

I know that I can never live without my music... there is something about the combination the sounds that takes care of everything.... even listening to other people make music helps me.... listening to other people's angst and gaiety (i mean happiness not... ya know) helps me....

the magic of music is really in its abilty to cure any problem.... to bring people together... to allow people to release their angry thru an emotional outlet....

i pity people who do not know the power of music... and i envy those who have to abilty to let these people discover its beauty....

PTM.... dammit....

so yesterday was the parents-teacher meeting.... the fact that i'm still alive enough to type in this entry indicates some degree of success.... doesn't it?

my dad went on with the usual talk... manage your time... do you need tuition.... control events, don't let events control you.... etc... good advice... but not quite what i want to hear... even if it is something that i need to hear....

hrm... overall i didn't think i did as well as i shd or could have.... maybe it was the lack of mugging or just the fact that i haven't been able to really concentrate.... but i know that i gotta start doing some serious study if i don't wanna get retained....

hrm... actually... i didn't really do that badly for chinese... i missed the precious D7 mark by just two marks.... and i'm also in the 9 percentile in the school.... ergo i can deduce that 8% of the school scored lower than me in the exam.... hehe... not that bad for a guy that hasn't passed chinese since Pri2... haha.... yup yup... my chinese is that bad....
hrm.... maybe that was why my dad didn't really kill me... hehe....

haiz.... what a boring weekend... haha... then again.... most of my weekends are quite boring... its been a long long time since i've gone out.. mostly cuz i'm too lazy to go out and way too lazy to go around calling ppl to go out with me... hehe... but this weekend was esp boring... i couldn't go for the inside backs fitness session on sat so i stayed at home... on today.. i went to church... came back and slp.... haha... too much sleeping.... but the funny thing is... with all the slping i did this afternoon... i'm still tired... hrm.... lack of iron in my diet... i don't know...
haiz... babbling on and on... i don't really have much to say....

First J1 match..... coolness....

woah.... i really feel great about today.... i started my first match as the official scrumhalf.....

i played two and a half games out of the three.... i played the full match against YJ.... half a game against CJ... and a full game against MI..... we won the first game and lost the next two....

hrm... the first match against YJ was really cool.... we were just very fluid altho there were some fuck ups in among me and the forwards....the forwards were abit of the pace in clearing out the rucks and i was pretty slow sending it out and that prob gave the YJ backs a chance to realign and mark our backs..... but the try that fawwaz scored was really quite cool... the dummy that he gave them was good.... even i didn't expect him to come back in thru the channel.... haha....

but the CJ match was pretty fucked up.... guo feng started the game and he really played an excellent game.... he even surprised me and he prob surprised himself.... but  i always knew he had it in him.... he didn't get some of the balls to the backs properly but he made a really cool run down the blind side.... pity that he couldn't offload in time to danny otherwise it would have been a confirmed try.... haha.... when i came on i made a few errors too... i came in too early during a scrum to tackle the opposite SH... gave away the penalty.... luckily they didn't score frm it.... but it was a really stupid error..... somemore right in front of jamal cuz he was refereeing the match... damn nit... haha.... i tried to make up for it after that and i got a swollen eye, a few long scratches and a sore neck for it... haha.... most of my injuries on the day came frm the CJ match and i only played half of the match... haha.....

the match against MI was by far the best of the three.... we played 80% of the match in their 22.... and we had two clear try oppotunities..... its a pity that we weren't able to convert those oppotunities.... haha... when MI saw the pressure that they were under they brought on edward.... the damn big no.8... they managed to score thru him on the last play... haha.... but i don't mind losing to a team like MI or a person like edward.... he is really good at what he does and he isn't a "sore winner"... he doesnt' rub it into your face that he beat you..... he still will come over and shake hands n stuff.... damn gentleman.... but that still doesn't mean that we shd give he so much respect on the field....

i didn't manage to accomplish what i had set out to do... that is to send out all balls perfectly and to score a try.... but i still feel a sense of accomplishment cuz as a team we managed to hold a team like MI to a stalemate and at times dominate them until edward came on.... and we managed to win a game and even when we lost a game it was by one try and we made our opponents work for it.... all this was accomplished in the first ever comp that we have played in as a J1 team.... hrm... kinda impressive isn't it... haha....

the next round of matches that we'll be playing in is a 10-a-side triagular at nanyang field... wah... damn shiok... i hope that i'll be starting... cuz it'll be my first game on home turf.... then shortly after that will be the testi match against the J2s.... haha... i think that we'll be able to do the impossible and defeat a J2 team.... something that no J1 team in history has done.... i'll be training to that aim.... one step at a time....

heard that the touch rug testi also went quite okay.... they played two matches, lost the first one and drew the second one.... not bad for the J1 team.... congrats to them as well.... haha.... hopefully the rugby culture will be able to grow stronger in NY.... and that we'll be able to get the support of the student population....

i'll drink to that.... NANYANG RULEZ!!!

so tomorrow's the big day....

tmr is the day that we play our first game as a newly formed team..... haha.... my main goal of the day is not to fuck up... i don't wanna start our new campaign on a bad note.... hrm.... i think that i have secured my starting position... but i'm not totally 100% sure...

Guo Feng has really improved on his passing speed and accuracy... haha.... well anyway.... if any one of us get injured at least Jamal knows that he'll have another SH on standby....

at least that is better than this year's A div season.... joel was the only person in the J2 batch that knew how to play scrumhalf.... he just grabbed me aside one day and told me the basics of "scrumhalfing".... i had only a week to prepare and train to be the replacement SH.... haha...

i was too tired last tues to blog... we finished training at like about 8++..... we really couldn't see the ball at all.... haha... i could hardly see myself... not cuz i'm black but cuz it was really dark... hehe.... but i think that it was one of our most constructive training sessions for this new batch..... most of the trainings that we had were very loose and quite undisciplined....

i don't know what the others think but i'm used to a certain level of discipline during training... prob cuz of my TKD instructor..... and altho i haven't always been the most disciplined player on the field i really think that more respect shd be given to the coach, captain and bao xin.... when anyone of these three ppl are talking i don't think that there shd be any chatter amongst the players and all eyes and ears shd be focused on the speaker.....

hrm.. hopefully we'll develop into more disciplined players as we progress... cuz discipline as a team unit is essential on the field.... if a player doesn't concentrate and does not listen to the commands frm the three decision makers then he becomes the weakest link and therefore a liability to the team.... and i don't think that 14 well coordinated members of the team shd lose due to one weak link in the chain.... that's what i think and i know that i will try and be an example for others to follow.... words without action is not really worth anything.... what i say i will do my best to follow.... i'm not perfect but everyone's aim in life is to be as close to perfect as possible...

isn't it?