::mental block::
kinda happy to be alive after the parents-teacher meeting. esp after getting such crappy results.
but i am really disappointed. cuz i did study for my phys and econs and it is really quite depressing to still get back crap. really need to chiong now. but it is hard to build momentum. i really wanna get back to the way it was just before promos last year. that was really good. just spending hours in the library studying. actually studying.

::lost but never alone::
over the past week, i have really been contemplating what i want to do after JC. i know it is a bit soon to tell if i'll even finish JC with decent grades but i need a purpose and a drive to work to.
i don't know yet what i want to do. but i know that i have someone watching over me and i trust that i will know what to do when the time comes to make a decision.

::silence::
the school was really quiet today after receiving the news. i've seen her around school. she'd always walk into sch with her friend at the same time every morning, just after i get to the grandstand. i don't know her personally but still it is quite shocking to lose a schoolmate.
no parent should ever have to bury their children. can't imagine how her parents feel. that is one thing that i dread. losing a child.
i spent a little time in silent prayer for her and her family.